The dim light on the bedside lights were on, and Xiao Han on the bed turned over and woke up unconsciously.
Suddenly, she found that the bed next door was empty.
Xue Han rubbed his eyes and blurted out: "Mom!"
At this time, Cheng Tianfang hurriedly walked in and asked softly, "Mom is here. What's wrong? Xiaohan has a nightmare?"
Xue Han hugged the quilt in front of him and shook his head.
"Mom, why haven't you sleep yet? It's very late."
Cheng Tianfang smiled bitterly and whispered: "Mom is still adjusting the jet lag... Are you not used to sleeping when the light is on? Mom will turn off the lights, okay?"
"No." Xue Han murmured: "I feel like a small light is turned on when I sleep in a strange place, otherwise I will be unable to sleep."
Cheng Tianfang's eyes were blurred for a moment, and she turned to laugh: "When I was a child, I was afraid that the room would be irritating, so I couldn't sleep without a small lamp on."
"Oh?" Xue Han yawned and lay back lazy, "Then I guess this looks particularly like you."
Cheng Tianfang pulled the silk pajamas on her body and smiled softly: "Now there are street lights and lights everywhere. Even if the lights are turned off, all kinds of lights will still be reflected in. The room is somewhat bright, unless two are pulled.
Layer curtains. When my mother was a child, she lived in the countryside. When it was dark, it was covered with darkness everywhere. I was afraid of the darkness, so my uncle could only light an oil lamp to coax me to sleep, while he sat under the lamp to do handicraft work. The moonlight was good
At that time, my grandparents had to go out to work in the fields. If there was no moon, they would go to bed after eating, because they had to start working before dawn, and they were very tired at night. I couldn't sleep, so I stared at the oil lamp and stared at it.
I fell asleep as I was blowing."
"What is the oil lamp...??" Xue Han asked curiously: "What oil can burn the lamp with? Is gasoline?"
Cheng Tianfang replied: "Kerosene is a small highlight when it is burned, and most of the houses cannot be illuminated."
Xue Han felt sad when he heard this and couldn't help asking: "Does there be no electricity? When will you have electric lights?"
Cheng Tianfang thought hard and replied: "Later, my uncle stopped studying and went to the city to work for the supply and marketing cooperative to make money. Half of the money he earned paid off his debts and half helped improve his family's life. I remember that after he made two months, he earned
, the house has finally been installed, and as long as the rope is pulled, the lights can be turned on. The electric lights are much better than oil lamps, making the room brighter. I like it very much, and even sleep with the lights. Grandma refuses, always
I was coaxed to fall asleep soon because the electricity bill was very expensive at that time and my family couldn't afford it. I was still young at that time and didn't know how hard it was to make money. I insisted on the lights all the time. Grandpa sighed helplessly, while Grandma hid and stole it.
Wipe my tears. My uncle told me to sleep well and not to cry. As long as I don’t cry, he would let the lights turn on..."
As she talked, she burst into tears without realizing it.
Xue Han felt uncomfortable when he heard this and asked, "Mom, was your family so poor before?"
"Yeah." Cheng Tianfang replied: "It's very poor and poor, and I'm often so poor that I can't afford to lose my money. However, at that time, most families were similar, and it was already good if I could barely have enough food. It was not until later that my uncle went to make money that the family gradually got better.
After he made money, he took me to elementary school and bought me a small military schoolbag from the city, with a little red star on it, which looked very beautiful and envious. It made my friends in the village envious!"
Xue Han thought for a while and asked, "Why didn't my uncle go to make money earlier?"
Cheng Tianfang smiled bitterly: "My uncle has very good grades in school and he always gets first place in the future. But his family is too poor and he has no money to pay tuition. My uncle had already been admitted to university, but his family couldn't pay a few dollars... He gave the notice
The book was tear up quietly and turned to work in the city. As soon as he made money, he sent me to elementary school and advised me to study hard and that he would provide me with college in the future. He couldn't bear to eat or wear it, and steamed buns and pickled vegetables every day
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I only spend half of the money. Sometimes, in order to save travel expenses, I would rather run and walk home than take a donkey cart. I set off in the middle of the night and walked back for a few hours on the mountain road. When I got home at dawn, I was covered with mud on my cloth shoes.
After returning, he immediately helped with farm work and told me to listen carefully in class and not to always whisper and play. Unfortunately, I... didn't intend to learn, and let him down his hard work and his hard work.
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Xue Han was stunned, and his intuition suddenly became blank.
Suddenly, she remembered the scene when her uncle stopped her from running out in the middle of the night.
Under the bright street lights, my uncle's face was dark. He held back his temper and persuaded her, his eyes full of anger and helplessness.
At that time, my uncle saw that she was unwilling to learn, so she used her class time to sneak out to fall in love, and even used her own training class fees to buy a boy to charge his phone, buy junk food and eat enough, and call the rest of the money online.
Game, how disappointed and angry he is!
Because he once sent such deep hopes on his mother and her.
My father, who was willing to give him training fees, was still working overtime in the study in the middle of the night, and had to go to work and take care of his sick grandfather and grandma. He didn't even care about his back soreness.
Thinking of this, the guilt in her heart increased a little, and tears unconsciously slid from the corners of her eyes, ticking.
Cheng Tianfang lowered his eyes and didn't see it, and murmured: "I disappointed my grandparents too much, and my uncles and aunts too much... I was disappointed too much, too much, too much. I regret it, I still regret it, I have always lived
In regret, but what can regret be done? The most unlikely medicine in the world is regret medicine."
"Mom..." Xue Han called out.
Cheng Tianfang suddenly came back to his senses, and suddenly excitedly hugged his daughter in his arms, and cried uneasyly.
"Xiaohan, my cousin was here earlier, so I can't tell you too much. Mom, no matter how good your relationship with that man is, Mom, please keep your eyes open and see clearly. Don't imitate your mother.
...Mom regrets it so much! Don't live in regrets like Mom! Don't... Never repeat your mother's mistakes... Woo woo woo woo!"
Xue Han was stunned and couldn't help asking: "Mom, do you know? What do you regret?"
Cheng Tianfang choked up and said, "Yes, your dad called me and told me. He said you are good at gangsters... and you often go out to play with him and have no intention of going to school. During my time abroad, your grades have been getting worse and worse, and even
Become the second-last in the class. Your dad was helpless and said he was very angry at first and even quarreled with you on the street. Fortunately, my aunt stopped you. He said, I hope I will come back soon and help find a school
He was still worried about you secretly, afraid that you would go on a wrong path in the future and would never be repatriated."
"...I know I'm wrong." Xue Han wiped his tears and whispered: "I...I won't contact him anymore... He is a bad guy."
Cheng Tianfang looked at his daughter suspiciously and asked, "He is bad? Why didn't you know before? How did you get involved with that kind of gangster?"
Xue Han lowered his head and his voice was very low.
"He borrowed online loans... and couldn't pay them back, so he asked me for money."
Cheng Tianfang narrowed his eyes and said in a deep voice: "Speak carefully."