I shed tears along with her, stretched out my hands to wipe her eyes, "Grandma, don't cry, don't cry..."
"It's okay, I just miss Qingqing and my real granddaughter..."
Grandma Su held me in her arms, tears falling on my forehead, "Ying'er, grandma can't accompany you anymore. I'm going to visit Qingqing. Grandma, thank you for these years. When I was young, I liked to hear
I have always wanted Qingqing to learn how to play, but she was only willing to sing foreign songs. It was you who made grandma’s dream come true. Your good deeds are all in grandma’s heart. Some time ago, I went to visit with your paintings.
When we were old friends, there were always people who reminded me overtly and covertly, saying, Mr. Su, why has this kid changed his painting style? Don’t waste your sincerity."
She looked down at me, wiped the bottom of my eyes, and smiled with trembling lips, "There is no need for grandma to explain to them. Grandma has seen all your serious efforts. At the beginning, you had no foundation in painting.
A child with no foundation can reach this level in a few years. In addition to your talent, it is also indispensable for your own dedication. Grandma will know your intentions through your paintings. Grandma, thank you."
I leaned in Grandma Su's arms and talked a lot intermittently.
She really remembered every bit of the past four years.
But as the distance got closer, my feelings became more and more obvious, and I felt my palm along Granny Su's spine.
There was a tingling electric sensation on my fingertips, as if it was sticking to my hand.
This sense of attraction is the strongest. Thinking of the Yin Qi at the door, it will be tomorrow morning at the latest, maybe tonight...
My heart couldn't help but tremble, and suddenly, I was sitting upright with Granny Su supporting my shoulders.
She took out a tissue and helped me wipe the tears on my face, "Ying'er, grandma knows that you have your own ideals in life, and you may not want to major in calligraphy and painting in the future, but we have to look at the old saying, if a family has a lot of money, it is better to have a skill.
, calligraphy and painting, you can’t throw them away. In the future, when grandma is gone, you have to practice diligently and don’t overwhelm yourself with many skills. You may not know when this skill will help you.”
I looked at her, tears still flowing unconsciously.
At this moment, Grandma Su really seemed to be telling me her last words.
Thinking about it, I said directly, "Grandma, I won't go back tonight. I will stay with you and sleep in the same room with you, okay?"
"You kid, why are you still crying? Be good, stop crying. You are so pitiful when you shed tears..."
Grandma Su didn't answer, she was still wiping my tears. I held her wrist and said, "Grandma, I don't want to go back..."
"Ying'er, grandma heard that you are Mr. Yin Yang who studies Taoism?"
I was confused and I didn't know how to turn my head. "Yes, I am Mr. Yin Yang."
Granny Su smiled and said, "Then have you ever heard of the saying, "You must live before you die, and you must die before you live."
I hummed, "The meaning of these eight words is that everything is constantly growing and disappearing."
"So, people are born and die. This is the law of nature."
Grandma Su held my hand tightly and said, "When we were born, we only cried loudly. Why were we crying? Because we didn't know what we would face in the future. It was uncertain and full of fear. The strange thing was that everyone around us was laughing.
They say that a new life has arrived, congratulations. When we finally finish this life, we should be able to face everything calmly, but people around us act very sad and say it is a pity, as if we are going to a very bad place.
The place has suffered a lot, but in fact, who knew it wouldn’t be a new beginning?”
"grandmother……"
"Listen to grandma."
There were tears in Grandma Su's eyes, but her smile was very free and easy. "I think that when you are alive, you must cherish every minute and every second of the present. This is the meaning of life. When you leave, be relaxed and don't be too heavy.
Don’t worry too much about what’s behind you, Ying’er. Grandma knows that her time is coming. In the past two days, I often dream about my son. In the dream, I also told him to go see him and see my son.
Wife... you see, I just went from here to there, a leaf of duckweed returned to the sea."
As she spoke, she exhaled with a smile, "Thinking about it, I have experienced everything in my life. My wife took the first step, and then I encountered white-haired people sending black-haired people, and even white-haired people.
What else can't I bear to send someone away from another generation? Grandma is not afraid, Xiao Ying'er, grandma is really not afraid, I was born fearless, so why should I fear death?"
"grandmother……"
My chest trembled, Grandma Su's state of mind was indeed something to look up to.
Cherish each other when the flowers bloom, and never leave each other when the flowers fall. May the flowers bloom in late autumn, and the remaining roots of the flowers depend on each other.
"Xiao Ying'er, I once thought that kindness meant raising fish in water and not fishing, feeding deer in the mountains in the hope of longevity, sweeping the floor for fear of killing ants, and covering lamps with gauze to cherish moths..."
Granny Su shed tears, but she smiled easily, "Then I saw you, and I knew that kindness is a lamp, a lamp that shines."
"lamp?"
I looked at her weathered features and asked, "Do you think I am a light?"
"You kid are always doing something silently. I ask you to draw, and you just sit there and draw. I said that I like to listen to you reciting sutras. Whenever I fall asleep or drowsily, I can hear you.
You are chanting sutras for me as a dedication, but you never talk about what you have done, take credit for it, or show off..."
Granny Su said softly, "We are neither relatives nor friends. You can be superficial with me. Like Miss Su, you just need to please Qing Ge. After all, I am an old man with a confused disease.
It's easy to deal with me, but you don't. You try your best to take care of me. Even if I just sleep next to you, I can still feel you covering me with a blanket and doing good deeds for me. I actually want to ask you,
What are you trying to do? What can I, a bad old woman, do to you?"
As she spoke, she smiled with mixed emotions, "You kid looks smart, but in fact, you are very dull at heart. You never do things as they appear on the surface. This is no longer popular now. Be honest.
People are so disadvantaged that they can easily be bitten by others. Look at Miss Su, she is more capable of getting into trouble than you are. You have to be flexible, Xiaoying'er."
I shook my head instinctively and said with a sore nose, "Grandma, I know you are sarcastic. I don't want to change, and I can't change it."
"So, your kindness is like a light. It may not illuminate yourself, but it will illuminate others."
Grandma Su's voice became hoarse and she stroked my cheek, "Xiao Ying'er, grandma feels kindness from you, not just kindness in form, but a kind of kindness that can warm people around you. This is probably the meaning of your name.
Meaning, right?”
I nodded, with mixed feelings in my heart. Grandma Su understood me, she really understood me.
"It's a pity that I don't have that much time to spend with you, otherwise I would really love to untie you."
Granny Su sighed, "I often feel that your child is very preoccupied and always worried about something. Is it because of studying Taoism?"