"When learning Taoism, you will face many unknowns, and sometimes I think too much."
To be honest, I naturally didn’t dare to tell Granny Su. What was it that I was most afraid of?
But I am afraid that in a moment, my soul will be blown away by the wind.
"But don't worry, grandma, I'm very good at understanding myself, and everything will be over in a short while."
I held the corners of my lips and smiled, "Like you said, cherish every minute and every second of your life. This is the meaning of life."
"That's right, young man, you still have a long way to go."
Granny Su patted the back of my hand and said, "When I came, I was alone. When I left, I also wanted to leave calmly. I didn't want to hear crying, and I didn't want to face farewell.
Remember, grandma just turned into a wisp of smoke and went away with the wind. If someone sees my paintings in the future and can be inspired by them, then grandma will also be a lamp, illuminating others. This is the meaning.
,Do you understand?"
I nodded, holding back the tears in my eyes, "Grandma, I understand."
"Good boy, take every step carefully, that is the most important thing for a living person to do."
Granny Su's eyes showed perseverance, "Since parting is painful, why should we deepen the pain? Xiao Ying'er, don't cry for me. You know, grandma is such a lucky person to have the mercy of God.
, what a blessing it is to be able to leave naturally... Grandma just came from nothing and went back to nothing. If you really have good fortune, you only need to do your own thing well, that is the greatest relief to grandma.
"
I thought of the agreement I made with her, "Will you still see me practice my peerless martial arts?"
"Of course, grandma remembers this."
Granny Su smiled lovingly, "Grandma will see it, for sure."
"Well, definitely!"
I nodded along with her, couldn't help but leaned over, and hugged her again, "Grandma, I can't bear to leave you..."
"Silly boy, grandma will be so angry if you keep doing this."
Grandma Su patted my back and comforted me with gentle words.
To be honest, I also want to face it calmly and peacefully, and I have been working on my psychological construction for a long time.
But the more I get to this moment, the more I find that my emotions are out of control and fragile, and it is difficult to even pretend to be strong.
I never thought that Granny Su would have such a great influence on me. Maybe it was because I heard Su Qingge say that Granny Su went to meet old friends again and again for me, or maybe it was because Granny Su specially organized this family dinner for me.
As Grandma Su said, we are neither relatives nor friends, but she has made plans and arrangements for everything for me.
"Okay, it's okay."
Grandma Su smiled and wiped away the tears on my face, "Your eyes are swollen and it's ugly. If you do this again, grandma will urge you to go back."
I nodded obediently. There was a bitter taste in the air, and I felt unspeakably worried.
In order to divert this heavy topic, Granny Su brought up Meng Qin again, "Ying'er, you told me before that the boy you like in your heart is Rong Tang."
I was a little nervous when we talked here, "Grandma, I'm sorry for Meng Qin."
"Nonsense, how have you ever felt sorry for him?"
Granny Su's eyes were red, and her expression gradually became calm, "In this house, grandma sees many of the interactions between you and Rong Tang..."
I looked over in surprise, "Grandma, have you seen everything?"
"Yes, I just saw it and I don't think there is a problem, so I am Rong Tang's most intimate friend."
Granny Su smiled like a child, "I really can't explain a lot of things. Rong Tang, this kid, looks gentle and elegant, but in fact he is very cold and cold. In some places, you are actually very similar.
You can satisfy your elders, be humble and courteous to others, and be so good that it is unreal. Of course, there is a difference between you and Rong Tang. He is very guarded and almost no one can approach him. His bones are filled with loneliness.
and indifference.”
"You kid is the complete opposite. You are willing to make friends and even go the extra mile to make friends."
Granny Su smiled and said, "But the strange thing is that you are always covering up. You have given a hundred points, but you only want to be seen for fifty points, so you give people a very cold impression. When you two
Normally speaking, when people get together, there will be no sparks, because people who are too similar can only appreciate each other at best and cannot give each other surprises. The amazing thing is that you are very energetic when you are with Rong Tang.
"
Seeing that I was a little embarrassed and speechless, Granny Su smiled and continued, "I remember it was last year or the summer of the year before last. You saw that I was resting, so I went to the study to practice calligraphy. I practiced and practiced. You were so gentle.
You came out of the study, and then you took out a green glowing mask from your schoolbag. After putting it on, you entered the study again, as if you wanted to scare Rong Tang, but in the end you didn't scare him, so you hurried out again and accidentally
I hit the door frame and almost tripped..."
Ugh, so embarrassing.
I looked at Granny Su who was laughing, "Did you see it from the surveillance camera in the corridor?"
"Yes, it's very interesting."
Grandma Su couldn't help laughing and said, "I thought you would be embarrassed if you took off the mask, but you stood at the door of the study and seemed very angry. You threw the mask away, and Rong Tang came out to coax you again..."
I blushed. It wasn't that I was angry at that time. I hit my head in pain and became unreasonable. I had the nerve to blame Meng Qin at the door for not reminding me that there was a door frame. To vent my anger, I threw the skeleton.
mask.
Afterwards, Meng Qin came out to help me rub my forehead and compensated me with ice cream. This was considered a failure.
Come to think of it, that time I was so angry that I was so frightened that I lost everything.
"Grandma, don't you think I'm very ignorant?"
I said, "Especially when dealing with Meng Qin, I will be very willful."
"In my opinion, these are the little joys in young people's lives."
Granny Su looked at me softly, "Ying'er, it's because of you that I can see another side of Rong Tang. Otherwise, I would never have thought that Rong Tang would care for a girl so carefully. Before you, I
I have never seen him look at any girl outside. Miss Su also said that I once said that she and Rong Tang are a good match. I really forgot about this, but I most likely said it because
Rong Tang has been close to Buddhism since he was a child. I was worried that he was too pure-minded and had no roots in love, so I always wanted to test him. But when he was eighteen years old, you appeared and got closer to him. No,
Sooner or later, everything is perfect, isn't it?"
Perfect?
I was slightly confused, "Grandma, do you really think Meng Qin and I are a good match?"
"What do you say yourself?"
Grandma Su asked, "Besides Rong Tang, who else are you willing to get close to like that? Get close without restraint."
I shook my head, "No."
"Yes, you get along very harmoniously, and neither of you feels uncomfortable with each other. This is a good fit."
Granny Su hissed, "But Rong Tang got sick some time ago and hasn't seen me much. The illness is still very strange..."
"This is my reason."
I said directly, "My aura is not good, and it may have affected Meng Qin."