"But Zhang Haidong can see at a glance that the reason why I have made it this far is that even if I am covered in scum, the softest place can still be hurt again!"
Jiumei said.
"That scumbag?"
Du Xiaoyin's eyes widened.
If it is a man whom we once loved deeply, and we have to break up for a last resort reason, maybe mentioning it will hurt Jiumei.
But that is a scumbag, who has been abandoned by Jiumei for a long time. A complete scumbag, how could he hurt her again?
Could it be that……
Jiumei still loves that scumbag?
"right."
Jiumei nodded.
Her face looked a little solemn, she picked up a cigarette again and lit it.
A huge smoke ring blew out from her mouth, forming a line of smoke in the air.
It seemed that only smoking could relieve the depression in her heart.
"You were hurt by him, haven't you already forgotten him? Why are you still hurt by him? How long can a person you don't love exist in your heart?"
This time Du Xiaoyin did not stop her from smoking, but asked curiously.
"For many things, if you work hard to the extreme, you will hate it to the extreme. Do you understand?
The reason why I am endlessly looking for a partner and trying my best to have an affair with others is not because I was born with this kind of person.
You also said that it was because that scumbag turned me into this kind of person.
He ignited the fire of hatred in my heart. It is for him that I am willing to hate all men and hurt them. Do you understand?
What I did today is not more about the kind of person I have become, but because I am taking revenge. To take revenge for the true love that was hurt back then. Do you understand?"
Jiumei said, puffing on her cigarette.
Her eye frames turned red again.
Du Xiaoyin was stunned.
She seemed to understand somewhat.
The natural Neptune and the acquired scum are completely different concepts.
If he is born a Neptune, just like Liang Jinyang, he will play with emotions anytime and anywhere.
Emotions are just a plaything in their hands, they come and go as soon as they are thrown away.
They had a great time playing with it in their hands.
But the scum the day after tomorrow is different...
Acquired scum comes more from the hurt suffered before the drastic changes in life.
That is, the destruction of personality before change.
Make you sad...
Make you despair...
That kind of damage is severe and can even completely change a person's state of mind and psychological journey.
More acquired scum are seeking revenge on their exes.
To take revenge for the hurt feelings I felt back then.
Just like a little hedgehog, it was originally not aggressive, just a small animal that ate grass.
But when it is hurt, it will curl up and stand up all the thorns on its body.
to resist harm from the outside world.
This is only the first time.
The next time it senses danger, it will curl up.
Over time, everyone knows that hedgehogs are dangerous animals.
But are hedgehogs dangerous to begin with?
No one cares about this problem anymore.
For the same reason, the crazier Jiu Mei plays now, it also proves how serious harm the scumbag caused her back then.
If she is still like this, it means that even though so many years have passed, the harm done to her by that scumbag has not diminished at all.
It was like a thorn piercing deeply into her heart.
No wonder Zhang Haidong said that that person would hurt Jiumei when he came back.
No wonder Jiu Mei felt so uncomfortable.
That didn't puncture the tube in her lung.
That punctured her entire lung.
Indeed, for such a long time, I only knew that Jiu Mei had changed and turned into the wild and unrestrained person she is now.
However, she has never seriously thought about it. In fact, the reason why Jiu Mei did this is that she has been silently suffering the harm.
That kind of pain has been with her for so many years.
Why didn't I think of this?
Everyone is saying that a person has changed, but no one is willing to change that person back to his original appearance.
Have you not become one of those so-called onlookers?
Du Xiaoyin felt extremely guilty.
She whispered: "I'm sorry..."
Seeing Du Xiaoyin like this, Jiumei laughed.
"Fool, now you know why I asked you that just now?"
"Um."
"you……"
"I'm fine! When I was young, I made a decision for myself to dedicate my life to love. Later, I didn't die because my youth saved my life!"
Jiumei held the remaining half of a cigarette in her hand, her pretty face already covered with tears.
"I have come out! My youth has saved my life, so what should I be afraid of?"
She said with a tearful smile.
Du Xiaoyin knew the sadness in Jiumei's heart and the desolation in her heart at this time.
She lowered her head.
After a long time, Du Xiaoyin finally raised his head, gently grabbed Jiumei's hand and said: "I really didn't know you were hurt so seriously until now. I'm sorry, Jiumei, it was too late.
In fact, Haidong is right to advise you, forget the past and welcome the future.
Each of us is looking for that person who can give us a sense of security throughout our lives, right?
There is no such thing as a perfect match, as long as you can find someone who is willing to bow your head for you.
He knows how to be tolerant and accommodating, but you know when enough is enough.
I believe that this kind of love will last a lifetime."
"Haha! How can it be so easy to find? Are you sure that Zhang Haidong is the person you are looking for?"
Jiumei asked back.
"right."
Du Xiaoyin nodded seriously.
"I'm sure he's the one I'm looking for.
His eyes are still pure, without any fireworks in this world.
He is very attentive and can understand every inch of my feelings.
He has a sense of responsibility and will fulfill all his promises.
For me, that's enough.
Although I am not old, from China to the United States, I have seen through the so-called love in this world.
There are girls everywhere and love everywhere.
But even in your love, I don't see the sense of security and responsibility that originally belonged to love.
Really do not have!
I never cared about how much money it would cost. As for our family's huge estate, even if my dad gave it all to my half-sister, I wouldn't want a cent of it.
real.
You also know that my father is a businessman and spends all his time living and drinking outside. My so-called sister is also the result of his living and drinking.
My mother didn't even know about it before marrying him.
My mother taught me back then that the best marriage is not as they say, you are responsible for making money and supporting the family, I am responsible for looking beautiful.
That kind of marriage can't be considered love, it's all about raising trash.
True marriage and love are always about two people working together.
You are very good, and I am not bad either.
I understand your hard work, and you understand my difficulty.
So I have been looking for my true love. There are many rich people, but I will never marry someone like my dad.
I will marry my own love, my own love at any age.
Zhang Haidong is the male protagonist in My Love.
I think I am very lucky to have met Haidong when I was in the most difficult time.
The fate between us is like, I just turned my head, and he just looked up.
All of this is arranged by God."
Du Xiaoyin said everything that was on his mind.
Accompanying her were eyes full of longing for the future.
Jiumei threw the remaining half of a cigarette into the ashtray, then pointed at Du Xiaoyin's head and said: "You, you! You are just a little fool! Do you know?
Zhang Haidong has lost his memory now and has forgotten you!
He didn't mention a word that he liked you, but you always said that you wanted to!
He obviously didn't do anything, but you played millions of dramas in your mind!
I finally understand. It’s not like someone poured the ecstasy soup into your mouth. You clearly made a big pot of ecstasy soup and drank it yourself! You silly girl!
Your love is too humble!
Humble love cannot bloom the flower of happiness, it can only breed unscrupulous harm and unruly arrogance.
This is something I have verified through personal experience.
Don't sink too deeply. I'm afraid that one day you will really sink too deeply, and you will have no place to cry with scars all over your body.
When that time comes, no matter how much I try to persuade you or help you get revenge on that scumbag, I still can't repair your broken heart. Do you understand?
As for you saying he is careful, that just proves my evaluation of him.
He is a veteran in love.
The warmer the boy is, the more careful he is. This is what his ex-girlfriend taught him.
The more indifferent and dissolute a girl becomes, it is also because of her ex-boyfriend.
There are never exceptions.
Just take control of yourself!"
Jiumei said seriously.
"Um!"
Du Xiaoyin nodded seriously.
"I don't care if he has been taught. In fact, it doesn't matter if he has been taught, it will save me from having to get married in the future to understand how expensive it will be to pay for the passion when I was young. By the way, Jiumei, if I really have
One day, I came back bruised and bruised. Will you still accept me?"
Du Xiaoyin raised his chin and asked seriously.
"I will castrate that scumbag with my own hands and avenge you. Even if it means going to jail, I don't care!"
Jiumei made a clicking motion with her hands.
Du Xiaoyin was surprised.
Then he said with a smile: "You are too cruel, I was just teasing you!"
"I mean what I said! So you have to take good care of yourself! By the way, you don't need me to find new topics now, you already know enough. He has indeed lost his memory, said
It's a coincidence that I have lost that memory of you two. What are you going to do next? Tell him directly and forcefully awaken his memory?"
Jiumei wiped her eyes and asked.
"Didn't he say that there is a good buddy named Liu Shan? There is also Liu Shan's wife named Bai Yourong? I will spend money to find someone else someday. I want to ask them more specifically what happened in the past four years.
What's the matter? If it is really because of a car accident or illness that I lose my memory, even if I travel to the ends of the world, I will definitely find a doctor to help him cure him and restore his memory! Because it not only belongs to him, but also to me."
Du Xiaoyin said seriously.
"What if it's not? Is it because of other reasons?"
Jiumei asked again.
"Then let's start over. Even if I wait until I am sixty, I will only be waiting for him. There is only the relationship that should be married, and there is no income that should be married. If it weren't for him, I would rather be single for the rest of my life."
"You, you..."
Jiumei didn't even know what to say.
She paused and then said softly: "You still have to listen to what I say, you know? I'm afraid that you will fall in and really won't be able to get out.
Look at me now, can't you understand?
There must be a moderation in everything.
Remember what the old man said:
Don't dare to fall deeply in love, for fear of having a big dream.
I dare not calculate all the hexagrams, fearing the impermanence of heaven."
Jiumei advised.
"By the way, I think the view of love your mother gave you is right. The kind of marriage where he is responsible for making money and supporting the family and you are responsible for a beautiful marriage is really not love.
What we fight together is true love.
Of course, in today's world, if there is a girl who is willing to listen, then I lose!"