When Zhang Haidong arrived at the hospital, he did not go directly back to the ward. Instead, he made an exception and bought a pack of cigarettes from the canteen at the door. He walked to the hospital's flower pond, lit one, and started smoking gently.
It was the first time I felt the smell of smoke, and it was so choking.
The stars in the night sky became even darker, as if they were rebelling against God who controls everything.
After he finished smoking the choking cigarette, he suddenly walked to the edge of the flower pond. He stretched out his hand fiercely, and in the eyes of passers-by with surprise and disgust, he broke off the blooming rose...
Yes.
He is very irritable.
At this time, his heart was like a whirlpool in the center of a storm, spinning and tangled constantly, confusing all his thoughts.
When he sent Du Jing home just now, he finally understood why Du Jing lost his temper inexplicably.
This was the first time Du Jing really lost her temper with him after her rebirth.
Just now, when he saw Du Jing's look in his eyes, he suddenly realized that it was not the first time that such a look had appeared. It had already appeared the last time he came home from the rain.
It's just that I didn't care.
That was no ordinary look, it was a look of distrust and extreme caution.
Like the scales of a pangolin, it tightly wraps itself inside, fearing any harm from the outside world.
It is absolutely impossible to have a severe wound.
Could it be that he had given Du Jing huge emotional trauma?
He suddenly remembered the private message in the QQ space. That message clearly told him that four years ago, he was thinking about getting a divorce, and even took some actions to get a divorce.
Could it be that the previous divorce was because of a woman?
Otherwise, Du Jing would never be so sensitive and suspicious when dealing with her...
Even extreme distrust...
Zhang Haidong thought of the strange question Du Jing suddenly asked him in the back seat of the bicycle, and also thought of the strange look in Du Jing's eyes when he wrote the guarantee letter.
The strong curiosity in my heart was aroused again.
Originally, the last time I wanted to search for memories, I had completely given up.
He is afraid to face the dark history, those painful memories. If there are scars, wouldn't it be good to let the scars recover quietly?
Why bother to reveal it again and again!
That will only make it more painful!
But now, it seems that I have no choice. I must pick up the memory of the past, face it, and truly understand the memory that has been sealed away in the dust.
All this is because of Du Jing.
If you don't understand that memory and don't pick up your past memories, then you won't be able to truly understand Du Jing in a short time. When there are some conflicts, you won't be able to enter Du Jing's heart.
, truly understand her and protect her.
Just like a car being hit, if you just spray paint and don't do the sheet metal, the cracks under the paint will always exist.
Superficial cover-up may kill you in the next accident.
He must now know how the rift arose in the first place and how Du Jing discovered it, thus breaking her heart.
Now Du Jing's sensitivity in some aspects has far exceeded that of ordinary people!
He doesn't want to break up the family, let alone hurt Du Jing again!
After struggling for a long time, he fiercely broke a rose again: "How can a place like this grow so tenaciously?"
After sighing casually, he returned to the ward.
Seeing Zhang Haidong coming back, Qianqian rushed over to him on the hospital bed and hugged his neck tightly.
"Be good." Zhang Haidong gently touched his daughter's head. He was afraid that the cold air he had caught outside would chill her, so he did not dare to hug her. He could only say softly: "Have you brushed your teeth and washed your face? If so,
, you can go to bed early. The nurse just said that if Qianqian goes to bed early, she can be discharged from the hospital the day after tomorrow!"
"Dad, Qianqian is not tired. Qianqian still wants to play for a while." The daughter hugged Zhang Haidong's neck with bright eyes.
The memory of these more than ten years has been blank, but this daughter is the deepest tenderness in Zhang Haidong's heart.
Maybe I will lose everything in the future, but I will never lose this daughter. She... is the deepest tenderness in my heart.
"But if you don't go to bed early, you can't leave the hospital early and go to the kindergarten to play with the children. Even the nurse sister will be sad." Zhang Haidong Chunchun induced.
"Why is the nurse sister sad about the tooth?" Qianqian said, blinking her big eyes.
"Because the nurse sister gives you injections every day, how tiring it is. If you don't leave all the time, the nurse sister will definitely cry secretly." Zhang Haidong gently pinched his daughter's face.
"Then I'll go wash up and go to bed right away. The teacher said it's not right to make others sad." My daughter jumped out of bed and obediently went to the bathroom to wash up.
Looking at his well-behaved daughter, the cloud in Zhang Haidong's heart finally faded a little.
Soon, he coaxed his daughter to sleep.
Looking at his daughter's sweet and even breathing, Zhang Haidong gently covered his daughter with a quilt, and then quietly took out his mobile phone.
He now wants to retrieve the memories of the past ten years. At least he must retrieve the memories about Du Jing and look for the wound he once left on Du Jing's heart.
In the quiet ward, his fingers flicked quickly and turned to the previous private message again.
He took a deep breath, as if he had made some important decision, and then moved on to the next line.
September 18, rain.
She is going abroad, but I can't go see her off because I'm afraid that if my family finds out, my dad will really break my leg. Besides, I really don't have any money, and I don't want her to see me in such embarrassment.
She secretly told me that she can come back after four years abroad and marry me directly. We will start our own love and sweetness.
At that time, we will build a new family, which is our real family!
boom!
Sure enough, my guess was correct! Four years ago, I really betrayed Du Jing because of a woman! I betrayed my sweet family!
He even had a four-year agreement with that woman!
That’s this year!
Suddenly, he felt a slight movement on his waist, and Zhang Haidong suddenly stood up with a guilty conscience.
Looking back, I saw that my daughter had just turned over.
call!
He then patted his chest and let out a long breath. He didn't know why, as if he was afraid of being seen by others, but he felt so guilty!
A sudden burst of cold sweat wetted his vest.
After gently covering his daughter with the kicked-off quilt, Zhang Haidong turned on his phone again.
This post is also private and can only be seen by you. But I don’t know if Du Jing knows about this woman’s existence. If Du Jing doesn’t know about her existence and sees this private post one day, how should she explain it?
Explain that you have really traveled through time? Explain that you have no memory of these ten years?
Who would believe it except God?
I really don’t want to get divorced!
Zhang Haidong, who felt extremely guilty, quickly deleted this post and the previous one.
That's right, he didn't want to be seen by Du Jing, including accidentally...
Delete the history that has caused scars, and use all your strength to protect this little home that belongs to you.
The irritable mood made Zhang Haidong's body feel a little hot, and he wanted to take a bath.
He rushed into the bathroom and turned on the old shower head in the ward bathroom, and cold water spurted out.
so cold!
The sudden irritation on his skin made him shiver.
But perhaps only this coldness can dissipate the heat from his body!
Perhaps only this coldness can take away all the dark things and worries in his heart!
After a long time, the water from the shower head finally stopped.
Water droplets dripped down Zhang Haidong's hair and onto the smooth floor.
In the quiet space, the sound of dripping water was more like torture, torturing Zhang Haidong's only patience and confidence.
When his body was already cold and started to shiver, Zhang Haidong finally took the towel, gently wiped the cold water off his body, and walked out.
My daughter slept soundly.
The coldness on his body finally dissipated some of his irritability. He took out his phone and continued to scroll down.
September 30th.
This is the last day of Golden September, and I decided to create a photo album, a private photo album.
Save all the bits and pieces and all the warm memories of me and her in that photo album. On the day we get married, I will make a photo album of all the bits and pieces in the album and play it at our wedding.
I want everyone to witness our vigorous love.
Seeing this, Zhang Haidong quickly deleted this post.
too crazy!
When I clicked on the photo album, I saw that, as expected, there was an additional private photo album in the previous photo album. The name of this photo album is - Promise!
It’s over, it’s over!
Zhang Haidong covered his head in pain.
Even a fool knows what such an obvious name means. Does Du Jing know?
It must have been after discovering this photo album that a wound was made on her heart.
How could I be so stupid back then!
What kind of thought is this!
How could he do such a mindless thing!
Isn't Du Jing pretty enough?
Isn’t Du Jing good enough?
Zhang Haidong, you idiot! You idiot!
After scolding himself fiercely, Zhang Haidong opened the private photo album and clicked to enter the password. He wanted to open it and see what kind of perfect woman it was that would make him so crazy and destroy Du Jing.
Abandon such a good wife!
Abandoning such a good home and such a lovely daughter!
My favorite password back then was usually the last six digits of my birthday - 890309.