Du Jing looked at Zhang Haidong who was kneeling on the ground, tears streaming down his face like rain.
Home, what a simple dream this is!
But it was like a curse, tormenting her for so many years!
Seeing that there was hope for this small family, cracks appeared again!
She just wants to live quietly in her own little home, is it so difficult?
Why!
Why is Zhang Haidong still thinking about that woman in his heart?
Is that woman really that good?
Is this fair to myself?
Countless questions emerged in Du Jing's mind, constantly impacting her!
Zhang Haidong looked at Du Jing, who was in tears, and felt as uncomfortable as a knife.
That’s right!
I really hurt Du Jing’s heart!
He hated himself so much!
Why would you do such a stupid thing!
Don't tear it off, it'll be fine!
Zhang Haidong tried to slow down his emotions, and then said in a pleading tone: "Du Jing, don't think so much, that diary was from a long time ago. I also dug it out accidentally..."
Having said this, he paused.
"Actually... I just want to protect our family well. I'm afraid of losing you. Are you willing to believe me?"
After Zhang Haidong finished speaking, his lips began to tremble.
He bit his lips desperately, maybe because he was too hard. His lips were even slightly bitten and turned white.
Yes.
It was precisely because of his rebirth, and because he came to a strange world alone, and was abandoned by his parents and hit by the environment, that he developed an inferiority complex of worrying about gains and losses.
That's right.
He is afraid.
He is not a mature thirty-year-old middle-aged man.
His actual age is only eighteen years old, but he has grown up rapidly and is moving towards the direction of a middle-aged man!
He has no luck, no golden fingers, and no backers.
Everything can only be done by oneself.
To protect.
That's why he is afraid.
So when he saw the turtle chasing Du Jing, the seeds of inferiority took root and sprouted.
Because he really has nothing.
In this strange world, he only has this precarious home, a wife who loves him, and a daughter with his own blood flowing through her body.
This is the only thing left that belongs to him.
Even his parents don’t want him anymore!
So he worries about gains and losses in fear, and then explodes.
Only then will he immerse himself in making money like crazy, without fear.
Only then would he carefully search for the diary, looking for the memory that had been lost for ten years.
He wants to find the root of his failure from his past memories, and then protect this small home.
Du Jing stopped crying.
Instead, he buried his head deeply into his legs.
I can't see her expression, and I don't know what she is thinking in her heart.
Zhang Haidong just knelt on the ground, waiting for Du Jing's answer and praying for Du Jing's forgiveness.
If Du Jing and her daughter were really lost.
Then, alone, he really has nothing in this world.
The cold wind whistled outside the window, beating against the lonely world outside.
Suddenly, the cold wind seemed to go crazy, hitting the outside window several times, as if it was going to smash the closed window into pieces.
That violent voice made Zhang Haidong feel even more uneasy.
I don't know how long it took before Du Jing finally raised her head.
She seemed to have figured it out. First she breathed a long sigh of relief, and then she actually smiled.
Zhang Haidong didn't know why she was laughing.
I could only softly plead again: "Honey, forgive me! It's been a long time and I don't want a divorce. I really don't want a divorce!"
"Yes. How can we get a divorce? If we really get divorced, what will Xiaole and I do, right?"
After Du Jing finished speaking, she slowly stood up from the ground and then lay on the bed.
She seemed to have forgiven herself.
Zhang Haidong's nervous mood finally relaxed a little, and he stood up.
As soon as he stood up, he started to get nervous again.
This time she knelt down and Du Jing could forgive herself.
So next time she kneels down, will she forgive herself?
It's impossible.
He did not disturb Du Jing, but turned and walked towards the bedroom.
Gently opening the bedroom door, my daughter burst into tears and stood at the door.
Zhang Haidong quickly hugged his daughter and wiped away her tears.
After gently touching her daughter's head to calm her down, she looked at her daughter in her arms.
Three points are like me, and the remaining seven points are like Du Jing.
Especially those big apricot eyes, which are almost exactly the same as Du Jing's, making people fall in love with her when they see her.
Because of the good nutrition, she has completely transformed into a beautiful embryo at this time.
…
I don’t know how long it took, but the cold wind outside the window gradually died down.
Du Jing then got up and walked towards the kitchen.
"Honey, you take a rest. How about... I'll cook..."
Zhang Haidong said a little guiltily.
"No, you are the backbone of this family now. I have rested for a long time. I will just cook."
Du Jing went to the kitchen.
Zhang Haidong found that Du Jing, like last time, quickly calmed down after adjusting herself, and then chose to compromise.
He knew that Du Jing's compromise most likely came from the daughter in his arms.
He hurt her so deeply. If he didn't have this daughter, he might have divorced long ago.
"Baby, do you like daddy or mommy?"
Zhang Haidong suddenly asked.
He felt inexplicably jealous, with a hint of uneasiness.
He was afraid that one day Du Jing would really divorce him and take his daughter away.
If this family does not even have a daughter and Du Jing, then it is no longer a complete family.
He could feel that his world would collapse at that time, and he would be completely disappointed in the world.
"I love both my parents. I hope my parents and I will never be separated."
His daughter's obedience made Zhang Haidong feel even more stressed.
He didn't want to see how much harm he would cause to this well-behaved daughter if he really divorced Du Jing one day.
He didn't dare to think about it.
"Well, don't worry, mom and dad will always be by your side! Baby!"
Zhang Haidong said with a smile.
After he finished speaking, he put his daughter down, then opened the drawer with the diary and took out the diary.
Originally, he wanted to take it out with the box, but after thinking about it, he still didn't touch the box with the combination lock.
I just took out the diary alone.
Yes.
He originally thought that he would rely on what was written in this diary to find the memories he had lost over the years, and then learn from them.
But the reality is exactly the opposite.
It seemed like Pandora's box had been opened, almost destroying the family in an instant.
If I continue to look at it, this home may be gone!
Therefore, Zhang Haidong decided.
Burn this diary.
He didn't want to think about everything in the past, whether it was lost memories or cheating love.
He doesn't want to live without this home.
He couldn't afford the consequences.
She walked to the kitchen with her diary and stood quietly behind Du Jing.
"Wife..."
Du Jing glanced at it lightly, and then whispered: "What's wrong?"
She obviously also saw the diary in Zhang Haidong's hand.
"I decided to burn this diary and never think about it again. Our family of three lives quietly like this. I swear it will never happen again in the future!"
Yes.
Since the diary was written by myself, no matter what happened in the past, it happened in my own body.
Then you should bear all this.
There is nothing to be aggrieved about. I am aggrieved because I took out the diary. I am aggrieved because I caused the current situation.
Isn't it?
"forget it."
Du Jing suddenly interrupted his movements.
"Since you have torn it up and thrown it into the trash can, it means that you want to completely forget the past. I misunderstood you. I can see that you are working hard for this family. Keep it.
, keep it until you get old, and maybe dig it out again, which is also the best memory. After all, it is your hard work for many years."
"No! Wife! It's my fault! I shouldn't look for those past things, let alone break your heart again and again! I promise, I will never make this kind of mistake again!"
Zhang Haidong panicked for a while, then tore out the diary page by page and threw it on the gas stove.
Soon, those papers turned into ashes.
The past is gone forever.
Looking at the diary that was burned to ashes, Du Jing smiled faintly.
"Well, you promise, you won't do it again in the future."
It's like saying it to myself, but also like saying it to Zhang Haidong.
Zhang Haidong saw the resolute persistence in Du Jing's eyes.
He knew that if it happened again, even if he knelt down, Du Jing would never forgive him again!
Peace returned to the house.
After her daughter happily finished her meal, Du Jing quickly coaxed her to fall asleep.
"I've decided not to be idle. I'll go check out the logistics work at that logistics company tomorrow. If it doesn't work out, I'll work there for now. At any rate, I'll earn 2,500 yuan a month. After the Chinese New Year, I won't wait any longer.
Slow down and find an easy job.”
Du Jing looked at Zhang Haidong in bed and said.
Zhang Haidong bit his lip and nodded.
"Then you have to take a look. If it doesn't work, we'll come back. The child also needs someone to look after him."
"Don't worry, I'm such an old man, so I know what's going on."
…
The two of them fell silent.
The room was very quiet.
Du Jing tried to rub Zhang Haidong a few times, but when Zhang Haidong didn't respond, she closed her eyes and fell asleep slowly.
Zhang Haidong was staring at the ceiling, wondering what he was thinking.
…
Wu Yao's phone rang. She looked at the name on it and answered the phone happily.
"Xiaoyin, why did you call your sister again?"
"Cousin, I'm back from the United States! Let's have dinner together tomorrow."