Xue Shao didn't want others to worry, so he had to suppress all the complicated thoughts in his mind, and steeled himself to get busy with the army selection of deputy generals and inventory of supplies. After two days of busy work, he finally squeezed out some free time.
, but he didn't go back to Xue's house. The place where he reined up his horse and headed straight was the Lu Mansion, just because he couldn't wait to see Qingrong.
When Lu Wenzhong and Wang heard about this, they were very happy for Xue Shao. This morning, the Xue family sent someone to pass the news, but they didn't expect that Xue Shao came in person. Seeing that he didn't forget to do it even when he was busy.
I always feel happy when I see Qingrong.
Mrs. Wang smiled and said: "Can we have dinner? I didn't know you were coming. We have already eaten. Why don't you wait for a while and I will ask the kitchen to prepare some food."
Xue Shao waved his hand and said, "Don't bother my mother-in-law, I'll come and have a chat with Qing Rong and then leave."
Ms. Wang was someone who had been here before, so she probably guessed that the couple was angry, "She is in her room. This child knows that you are about to go on an expedition, so she doesn't go home to help with the counting and salutes. This anger is really getting worse. Look back."
I will definitely talk to her nicely so that she can be less temperamental."
Xue Shao said hurriedly: "If there is nothing, don't blame mother-in-law. I used to take care of it myself, and now I can do it of course. My son-in-law will go over first."
Wang nodded and said yes with a smile. After saying that, Xue Shao stood up and left quickly to the backyard.
As soon as he entered the door, he saw Qingrong sitting on a stone chair in the yard, admiring the moonlight alone. There was no one else around her. She didn't know if she had anticipated Xue Shao's return or because she didn't want to be disturbed by others.
Qingrong didn't look sideways, thinking that the moonlight tonight was really nice.
Xue Shao didn't bother her. As soon as he saw her, the fatigue of two days of running around was swept away.
Qingrong noticed that Xue Shaofang walked lightly to her side. She endured her emotions and said coldly: "You're here."
"When the decree came out two days ago, I knew it was you."
Qingrong stood up and looked directly at him, saying nothing, just listening.
Xue Shao looked at her, his voice trembling, "I just know why Yun Niang said I was ungrateful... Now it seems that I have really become such a person."
Yun Niang? Qingrong was puzzled, "What does it have to do with Yun Niang?"
"On the day you left, she came and scolded me, saying that I was an ungrateful, unfeeling person who was unfair to you... I think I was so wrong that even the servants couldn't stand it anymore."
Qingrong was surprised when she heard this. She had never heard Yun Niang mention it...
Xue Shao suddenly raised the corner of his mouth, but with a bitter meaning, "I have thought a lot since you left. I am far less intelligent than you, and I thought I was treating you well, but when I heard Yun Niang say that you were sad, I
I don’t understand why I hurt you again. What happened to my uncle is a warning. I’m confused about the future, but your future is bright. How could I be willing to be a stumbling block for you? I don’t know if I’m wrong. I’m afraid of delays.
You, I'm afraid that you and I will suffer hardships, and in the end we will answer the prophecy and turn against each other... I'm afraid that one day we will end up in such a situation." That was the last thing he wanted to see.
He said absently: "But I don't know...why I still failed you."
So what should he do?
Qingrong understood as soon as he heard it. He may have heard what Zhang He said to her. But he didn't know his choice? And why has he been holding back and only thinking wildly these days? Qingrong looked at it
Looking at his face that had gradually become thinner these days, it took him a long while to suppress the anger that was aroused in his heart, and said in a calm tone: "Then why are you saying this now?"
Xue Shao just looked at her, "I feel uneasy. I don't want you to misunderstand me, and I don't want you to be hurt."
Qingrong asked coldly: "Then you have to wait until you say the hurtful words before you regret it? I haven't given you a chance in such a long time. Have you ever asked me what I meant and cared about it?"
? You just said you were afraid, so wouldn’t I be afraid? Could it be that I didn’t treat you with all my heart, so you didn’t even feel the slightest bit of it?”
Xue Shao was stunned and couldn't say a word.
Qingrong expressed all the dissatisfaction in her heart in one breath, "Sometimes I can't understand you. You said you want to love me and treat me sincerely. I believe you and I treat you sincerely. But you are determined to make peace with me."
It’s you too, what do you want from me? Can I just listen to your mercy and accept it happily? Is this what you said about your affection for me? "
After a long time, Xue Shao shook his head and said: "I thought wrong and acted wrongly. It was a happy event when the saint came to deliver the edict, but you were not here, and I was not as happy as I thought. I always felt that something was missing, and I couldn't help but...
But when I saw you today, that uneasy feeling disappeared. I really...can't bear to leave."
Qingrong looked at his expression and couldn't help but feel relieved. The depression seemed not as heavy as before. She said lightly: "You are wrong, but I don't forgive you easily. Now it's not you and I who talk more about our children's personal affairs."
When I was in love, I still remember what you said, what is the purpose of marching and fighting? The purpose of going out to protect the people is to protect the people. Now that you have the opportunity, you must cherish and be cautious, fulfill the duties of a general, and defend the enemy with peace of mind. You should never do it at this time
Heart, if this is the case, I will never forgive you."
Xue Shao looked at her and actually laughed, "Yeah."
"But I also believe that you will not be like this. Which is more serious or less serious, you will naturally understand in your heart."
"Although I am angry, I still have hope for you. If you are the same, then I will wait here for you to come back victorious and make amends. But if you are determined and able to achieve this goal of never having anything to do with me in this life, then I will immediately
Go to the government to submit the letter of divorce and tell your parents that when you come back, we will be separated."
"This is my attitude, I hope you know it." Qingrong looked at him and smiled slightly: "I will not give a second chance to those who know their mistakes and do not correct them."
Xue Shao took a step forward and suddenly stepped forward to hug Qingrong and hold her in his arms. He was reluctant to leave her and whispered: "Wait until I come back!"
He said word by word: "How about I come back and apologize to you personally until you are willing to forgive me?"
Qingrong pushed him, but he didn't move at all, so she had no choice but to let him hold her.
"Then when are you willing to go home?"
Qingrong felt a little sad, and after a while she said, "Let's talk about it later."
Hearing this, Xue Shao buried his head in her neck, smelled her breath, and chuckled, "Then take a good rest at home."
Qingrong felt a little suffocated. She reached out and pushed Xue Shao, "Quickly let go."
Xue Shaoyi said, let go and took a step back, looking at her deeply, "There is something I want to ask you, how did you get the opportunity to fight for me?"
Talking about this Qingrong, she felt very angry. Qingrong had no intention of hiding it from him. Japan was going to tell him, but she didn't know that he actually said those words to her. Thinking of this, she
He couldn't help but snorted coldly.
Xue Shao smiled helplessly, surprisingly good-natured, "It's all my fault, I hope my wife can tell me."
Qingrong didn't want to pay attention to him, and was afraid that telling him the news at this time would distract him, so he said: "I don't dare to take risks when I'm not sure. When you return home, I will tell you what happened. Don't worry.
that is."
Xue Shao looked at her and felt warm in his heart, "Okay. Will you come to see me off in the future?"
This was the first time he went on an expedition after getting married, and of course he wanted to send him off with a pure face.
Qingrong looked away, looked up at the bright full moon, and said, "I won't go."
Xue Shao was naturally disappointed when he heard this, but then he thought about it, didn't he deserve it? He made her sad, but he still had the nerve to expect her to forgive him immediately? He said: "It seems that I am right to come here tonight."
Otherwise, wouldn't it mean that I wouldn't be able to see her before the expedition? I don't know when I will be able to come back this time. If it takes a long time, it will take a year and a half.
At this time, the night wind was blowing and there was still a faint chirping of cicadas in the courtyard. It was quiet everywhere, which made people feel at ease. Qingrong's mood was also better. She smiled and said softly: "I hope you will go safely here.
"
The smile on Xue Shao's face suddenly deepened. He looked at Qingrong and also looked sideways at the dark night sky, "With your words, I will come back safely."
…
That night, Xue Shao did not rest at Lu's house.
Qingrong did not follow Xue Shao back to Xue's house, but still lived in Lu's house. Xue Shao never came to see her again after that night. He told the public that Qingrong was unwell and was recuperating at home. With Qingrong
After talking about it, he relaxed a little and concentrated on handling the preparations before setting off.
Seeing Qingrong's absence, Mrs. Lu couldn't help but feel weird, but Xue Shao seemed to have a plan later, so it was hard to ask more questions. After all, he didn't want to distract him by talking more at this time.
After the Beginning of Summer, mornings came earlier and earlier, but by the fifth watch, the sky was already blue and clear. The Xue family got up early, had breakfast together, and prepared to set off.
Although Qingrong said she would not go to see her off, she still got up early that day.
She climbed up to the gate of Kaiyuan City, stood in an inconspicuous position, and recognized Xue Shao at a glance.
Qingrong looked at Xue Shao riding ahead with a solemn expression. She knew that he was very busy these days, but at this time he was not tired at all, he was very high-spirited, and even had a kind of brightness that she had not seen for a long time.
And satisfaction... If the Xue family's status in the court remains the same as before, he may have a wider world...
Qingrong looked at the soldiers outside the city gate in silence, feeling something strange in her heart. If he could become a famous general, then the days of separation and waiting alone would only become more and more long. Qingrong didn't know for a moment, what exactly was she doing?
Should I be happy about this or feel lonely?
Xue Shao, who was about to set off, quickly noticed the gaze on the tower. He turned around and saw that it was Qingrong!
He couldn't suppress the corners of his mouth that raised slightly, but she came after all. But his eyes only fell on Qingrong for a moment. After Qingrong nodded in response, he quickly withdrew his gaze and urged his horse forward.
Qingrong stayed alone at Kaiyuan Gate, watching him embark on the road leading to the border of the Western Region, watching his back suddenly shrink into a black dot until it disappeared...
After a long time, Songyue said: "Madam, let's go back."
Azhen asked: "Go back to the Lu family or the Xue family?"