First of all, I'm sorry. I originally planned to finish writing the ending casino plot yesterday and today.
But looking at the status, I can’t write it out.
Coupled with the factors of opening this volume, my state has been really bad this month.
So much so that I even gave up on myself a little bit
For book friends who are following updates, it really means that you can follow with confidence,
If you can spend more than three yuan a month, I lose.
It sounds like a joke (smiles bitterly)
It's very annoying, I can't write it down, it makes me very annoyed,
There are fewer and fewer updates in a month, and my mentality is broken.
Why can't I write it?
I didn’t think much about the plot behind it. I didn’t expect it to be so exciting that I couldn’t wait to write it. There was no goal or expectation.
The result is that I resist coding every day, procrastinate in the morning, and finally have to write until midnight, feeling very tired. The next day, I procrastinate in the morning because I stayed up late the night before, and it is an endless cycle.
To sum it up roughly, it’s Kavin.
Why Carvin?
After writing the latest chapter, I kept asking myself why I didn’t want to write it.
After thinking about it, it's still the cliché emptiness in life.
I just stayed at home and didn’t meet or interact with anyone except my parents.
There is nothing to do to make myself happy. Of course, I don’t have a girlfriend either.
There are only code words in my life
Boring, boring, empty, lonely to death
Finding it boring is really a devastating blow to a salty fish like me.
Use interest as motivation. When you are not interested enough, various problems will always arise.
When I continue to write for the sake of royalties, I guess I will not be far away from writing.
From the updates of this volume so far, I can clearly feel that there are some chapters that I rushed out because I didn’t want to stop updating them.
It gives me a very unsteady and uneasy feeling
I always want to turn it over and change it, but once I open it I don’t know what else to change.
No, it’s not just this volume, I felt this way at the end of the previous volume
Not satisfied enough, not confident enough, not exciting enough
The plot of the casino feels a bit bloated, and I feel that my subconscious has written too many words in order to complete the update.
And in order to reflect the breathless atmosphere, I deliberately did not write about the relaxed interaction with Adeline.
There seems to be too much written about psychological processes.
Alas, every time like this, I just think that it would be great if my writing could be better.
It would be nice if I could express those thoughts in shorter words
[And I may have to do pigeons in the past few days of May Day. In order to let you notice at a glance, I put them in brackets]
I'm on the train now, planning to go out and relax
This is my second trip in my life. I hope it won’t fail like the year before.
And I really don’t want to stay at home anymore
I really want to change, change my situation, rekindle my passion
But I don’t know what to do at all
I want to leave home, but I don’t know where to go. I want to go to a city, but I don’t want to go alone.
It would be even worse to rent a house alone in a strange city without friends and sit at home writing novels all day long.
It feels like after graduating from college,
It's like life has stopped
I don't know what to do at all. I feel like I'm just wasting my youth by following the crowd.
ha.....
Finally, I am really sorry to all the book friends who support genuine books,
I'm really sorry for catching up with a useless loser like me.