Shen Luyan was silent for a long time, and the corners of the man's lips became a straight line without any warmth.
The oppression in his chest seemed to have squeezed out all the breath.
The feeling of being on the verge of suffocation is no different from dying.
My heart sank, as if I had hit rock bottom.
Shen Luyan has never forgotten this matter. After seeing the doctor for her, as she said, it was indeed of no use.
Some damage in life is irreversible and cannot be undone.
Even if I regret it, there is still nothing I can do to fix it.
Jiang Zhi raised her hands and tidied it up again. Of course, wearing something in her ears would not be very comfortable. She hadn't worn it in many years, and now she was a little uncomfortable with it. She politely said sorry to him: "I'll adjust it. You Don't mind."
Shen Luyan thought, what could he mind?
Do you mind if the wire fell off and affected his senses?
In her eyes, is he already such a person?
"I do not mind."
Jiang Zhi lifted up her long hair and trimmed it behind her ears. She readjusted the hearing aid, and this time it finally reached a suitable position: "Okay."
She looked up and saw a pale face. Because the man's skin was too pale, her eyes looked very deep. Her dark eyes were deeper than the sea water.
He spoke in a hoarse voice: "Does it hurt after wearing it for a long time?"
What can Jiang Zhi say? Yes, of course it will hurt.
If she said this, would Shen Luyan feel sorry for her? No.
Jiang Zhi had never been used to showing weakness in front of him. Unless he forced her to do so, she would not even shed tears to him.
She said calmly: "It's okay."
Shen Luyan never felt that he was a timid person, and seemed to be able to face anything decisively, but at this moment he did not even have the courage to touch her ear.
He opened his mouth and tried his best to suppress the trembling in his voice: "I was so angry at that time, I..."
Jiang Zhi didn't want to talk to him about this anymore, so she interrupted him: "It doesn't matter, I deserve it."
Shen Luyan's words were all blocked by her words, and no sound came out, as if he had suddenly lost his voice.
He had never been forced to do this before, and he swallowed back what he wanted to say.
Because she wears a hearing aid, she doesn't feel so uncomfortable listening to him now, and her ears no longer buzz randomly due to stimulation. It really doesn't hurt that much anymore.
Of course, it will still feel uncomfortable if you wear it for too long.
She looked at Shen Luyan: "Mr. Shen, you are right."
Shen Luyan was silent, not understanding what she meant.
He said too many things to her, some of which are still vivid in her memory, and some of which are not so clearly remembered.
Jiang Zhi met his eyes and spoke clearly, word for word, for fear that he might not hear: "We can talk about anything between us, just don't talk about feelings."
These are Shen Luyan's original words.
Probably during the time when she first got married, she wasn't hiding well enough, and he noticed something.
Shen Luyan said something to her casually.
He has already seen through everything.
If only she could clearly distinguish her feelings, restrain herself, hold back, and let go of her love for him little by little.
That won't be the case now either.
Many things would really be much easier to handle without emotions.
There will be no discomfort, no pain, and no unwillingness.
Shen Luyan still remembered that this was indeed the case. He did think so and did so at that time.
It would be very troublesome to do the fake show for real.
Mixed with inappropriate emotions, things will always be done in a sloppy manner.
Unexpectedly, these words would one day turn into a knife and pierce his heart hard, causing blood to flow into a river.
Shen Luyan abruptly changed the subject: "Are you hungry?"
Jiang Zhi said: "It's okay."
Shen Luyan nodded: "Well, I'll cook."
There is still only one hourly worker at home, who cleans and cooks on time.
The housekeeper and other servants do not need to stay in this villa for a long time, because Master Shen does not like many people when he is at home.
Shen Luyan walked to the kitchen and stopped, turned around and asked her: "What do you want to eat?"
Jiang Zhi thought for a while: "I can do it."
She is not picky about food.
After she answered Shen Luyan, she didn't look at him and went upstairs to pack her things.
Jiang Zhi closed the bedroom door and sat on the carpet in a daze for a while. His heart felt a little numb. It was not that he had no feelings at all. Sometimes he couldn't control himself and felt uncomfortable.
But it's really much better than before.
I won't cry out in pain.
I won't feel sad, I will almost die of sadness.
Jiang Zhi spent some time stuffing his clothes into another wardrobe. The two wardrobes were widely separated.
She didn't want to go downstairs yet, so she lay beside the bed and played with her mobile phone for a while.
I would rather stare at my phone in a daze than go downstairs to face Shen Luyan.
Maybe she was too tired, so she lay down beside the bed and fell asleep without realizing it.
Shen Luyan quickly made dinner, and before going upstairs and pushing the door open, he knocked twice, but no one responded.
He opened the door gently and saw the girl sitting on the floor and lying next to the bed, sleeping soundly.
Perhaps this was the time when she was most unprepared. With her face facing the sunlight outside the glass window, she could just see the ear wearing the hearing aid.
A black hearing aid.
Shen Luyan felt extremely dazzling just looking at her. He walked quietly to her side, squatted down, and bent down slightly.
He carefully kissed her injured ear.
At the moment when he lowered his eyes, the man's eyes seemed to be a little wet.