Jiang Zhi often dreams about things from the past, and sometimes the same scene appears over and over again.
In the dream, the young man smiled warmly and waved to her, and she threw herself into his arms like a gust of wind, hugging his waist tightly with her arms and reluctant to let go.
The scene in the dream was too real, and she still needed time to relax after waking up from the dream.
After Jiang Zhi and Shen Luyan finished explaining, they sat on the bed in a daze, hugging the quilt and saying no more.
He didn't realize how ugly Shen Luyan's face was at all, nor did he feel that her words were like a dull knife cutting flesh, torturing his brain nerves one after another.
Shen Luyan turned on the light casually. He gently lifted her face with his thumb and wiped away the remaining tears on her face with a tissue without saying a word.
Jiang Zhi stared blankly at him wiping his tears. He lowered his eyebrows and couldn't see his expression clearly.
The almost expressionless face doesn't seem to be very gentle.
Shen Luyan helped her wipe away her tears, looked at her fair face, and asked calmly: "What was wrong? What was wrong?"
Jiang Zhi slowly frowned and she remained silent, as if she didn't intend to answer her question.
Shen Luyan put a little force on his fingertips and grabbed her chin, "Who are you dreaming about? Holding her so tightly."
I pounced on him subconsciously.
Hug her tightly, reluctant to let go, as if the person will disappear if you let go.
Shen Luyan has never been used as a substitute in his life. He almost thought that his relationship with her was getting better just now. At least she no longer hated him as much as before and was willing to slowly get closer to him.
It turned out that he was regarded as a substitute.
Jiang Zhi couldn't answer. What should she say? Did she dream about you? She couldn't tell.
Shen Luyan was reluctant, as if he must get an answer, and it hurt her a little. She hissed, took a breath, and heard him coldly question: "Speak."
Jiang Zhi opened his eyes and wanted to make up a random name for him.
Before he could think of a name, Shen Luyan was already waiting impatiently, "Why don't you answer me? I'm warning you, I'm not anyone's substitute. Don't admit the wrong person next time."
Jiang Zhi's jaw felt sore. He let go of his hand and looked at her face: "I have never treated you as a substitute for so long. Don't go too far."
"Why are you so angry?" Jiang Zhi touched her face, which must have turned red. She said, "Me neither."
After Jiang Zhi finished speaking, he hugged the quilt and turned his back to him, "I'm going to continue sleeping."
Shen Luyan looked down at her and closed her eyes. He couldn't swallow the feeling in his heart for a while: "Then you'll continue to dream and then cry, right?"
Jiang Zhi was so angry that she opened her eyes. She stared at his face. His facial features and outline had not changed, and he was still as beautiful.
She had to admit that Shen Luyan had a face that she liked.
Even if it's not the first time they meet again, she will still be moved by him when she meets him for the first time.
"Shen Luyan, do you know that you can be really mean sometimes."
"The truth is hard to hear." Shen Luyan said expressionlessly: "Compared with me, we are no different."
Jiang Zhi sat up again, her long hair spread obediently on her back. The look between her brows and eyes slowly calmed down. She became very calm, pursed her lips, and said softly: "Okay, I am I dreamed about someone I once liked very much, and dreamed about some things that make people feel disappointed. If you are still offended by me for hugging you just now, please don’t argue with me now, okay? I’m very sad. I want to have a good sleep again.”
Shen Luyan looked at her quietly with deep eyes. After a long time, he asked: "Isn't it me who you once liked very much?"
Jiang Zhi didn't expect him to say that, so she turned away and said, "I didn't like you very much before."
Shen Luyan sneered: "The person written in the diary is not me?"
Jiang Zhi immediately denied: "No."
She continued: "Adolescence is inherently restless, and of course you will fall in love with several people."
Shen Luyan said coldly: "Really?"
Jiang Zhi subconsciously took over his words: "Aren't you?"
After saying that, I realized that he really wasn't.
Just like Jiang Zhi's entire youth, Shen Luyan was the only one.
And Shen Luyan's only youth is Jiang Suining.
Shen Luyan told her lightly: "I have never liked another person, so I really can't understand your passionate student days."
Jiang Zhi pretended not to hear his sarcasm. She said no more and didn't want to argue with him anymore. "Go to bed."
After a few seconds, Shen Luyan turned off the light. He knew she was still awake, so he said, "Don't wake me up again."
Jiang Zhi closed his sour eyes, forcing himself not to think about him, and counting sheep in the most primitive way to urge himself to sleep.
Early the next morning, both of them seemed to have forgotten what happened in the middle of the night.
Jiang Zhi seemed to have never had a dream, and Shen Luyan seemed to have never seen her shed tears for others and cry so sadly.
He always got up earlier than her, made a simple breakfast and helped her heat milk.
When the time was almost up, she also went downstairs.
Jiang Zhi was a little too late, bit into a piece of bread, and was about to go out.
Shen Luyan reminded her: "Milk."
Jiang Zhi took the warm milk and whispered thank you to him.
Shen Luyan also politely said you're welcome.
Again, the two of them don't look like a couple now, but like roommates who share a house.
Shen Luyan didn't like her alienation from him. A stranger was worse than an ordinary friend.
"Are you free in the next few days?"
"What's up?"
"My cousins want to go skiing and ask us if we want to go there together?"
"I don't have time, you can take someone else with you."
"Who to take?"
Jiang Zhi just said it casually, and she was stunned for a moment, "Whoever you want, you can take whoever you like."
After she finished speaking, she grabbed her bag and rushed to go to work, but someone grabbed her wrist. The man's delicate and beautiful face had a sharp cold look, and he looked at her with a pair of cold eyes, "What do you mean?"
Jiang Zhi was a little uneasy about his sudden temper.
She didn't even know which word she said was wrong and made him unhappy.
Her back was pressed against the wall, and her wrists were firmly held in his palm, "You don't care at all, right?"
Jiang Zhi was stunned for a moment, then nodded: "Yes."
She was afraid that what she said was not clear enough and that he would misunderstand, "Mr. Shen, I have said it before, I don't mind, you can be with whoever you want. It is a fact that I cheated on you during marriage, and so do you." It can be done this way.”
After saying this a little awkwardly, she added cautiously: "But I think we should also pay attention to hygiene and have regular physical examinations for each other's health."
Or he would never touch her again.
After she finished speaking, the man was silent for a long time.
Shen Luyan slowly let go of her wrist. The sun shone on his pale face. He felt that Jiang Zhi was sometimes more ruthless than him.
He raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, but the smile did not reach his eyes. He looked at her and spoke lazily: "There is something you said that is really true."