When she went downstairs, through the glass door of the dormitory foyer, Jian Anran saw Shen Huainan standing by the flower bed from a distance, waving to her.
He wore a gray lapel sweater and black velvet casual pants. One second he was lazily leaning against the tree, and the next second he stood up straight.
Jian Anran looked at him for a long time, the only thought in her heart was——
Isn’t he cold if he wears this on New Year’s Eve?
After gathering her down jacket, Jian Anran trotted all the way, "Hey, why are you here?"
While talking, she even found that she could exhale white air, and looked up and down at Shen Huainan with a surprised look on her face. "You are dressed like this, aren't you cold?"
As if he suddenly reacted, Shen Huainan put his hands in his trouser pockets, tensed his upper body, and replied stiffly: "No."
Just when he saw the lights on in her dormitory, Shen Huainan forgot to put on his coat and hurried downstairs.
"How did you know I was back?" Jian Anran suddenly felt better
His dormitory is in the building diagonally opposite Jian Anran's dormitory. In order not to look like a pervert, he didn't even dare to say it to death. He didn't go home all night. He pulled up a stool facing the balcony. After sitting all night, she finally waited until the lights came on in her dormitory.
Upon seeing this, Jian Anran suggested: "How about we sit downstairs?" She even saw Shen Huainan's mandible trembling secretly.
He nodded quickly, "Alright."
It wasn't until he walked into the glass of the dormitory foyer that Shen Huainan felt like he was alive. His face gradually returned to color, and by the way, he stretched out his hand that had been in his trouser pocket, and stepped forward to help Jian Anran pull it away. chair, gesturing for her to sit down.
There are a few simple tables and chairs placed downstairs in each dormitory. Usually, there are many boys who cannot go upstairs waiting for their girlfriends downstairs. The seats are usually full. Now that it is winter vacation and New Year's Eve, the downstairs are empty. .
Jian Anran was curious for a long time: "At that time, I was wondering why you applied to stay overnight during the winter vacation. Is your home far away?"
Shen Huainan shook his head, "Not far away, my home is in Luojiang."
"Then why didn't you come home?" She was a little surprised.
"You haven't gone home either?" Shen Huainan leaned on the backrest and put his hands back into his pockets again.
Jian Anran thought: My situation is different.
But even though she had gone out with Shen Huainan and the others several times, Jian Anran did not feel that she could completely open her heart to him in front of her, and she was even more unwilling to talk about such embarrassing things casually.
Especially knowing that the other party's family situation was superior, Jian Anran suddenly felt inferior to others, and it was really hard to talk about such things about her parents.
Not only for marriage and love, she has always felt that making friends also requires the so-called "well-matched". It's not that people with poor family conditions can't play with people with good conditions, but for the person with poorer conditions, across consumption levels and consumption
The gap in perspective is something that can almost be called impossible.
Jian Anran went to a public school from kindergarten to high school, and she was surrounded by almost all classmates of similar level——
In her cognition, it's about the same level.
When she was in junior high school, her deskmate, who was very close to her, suddenly suggested that we buy a sister outfit together. The other party even picked out the style. Since she couldn't bring her mobile phone, she specially saved the picture in an MP4 and brought it to school for her to see. p>
Jian Anran took a fancy to that beautiful windbreaker at a glance. It was a good style and looked very high-quality. She immediately nodded and asked the other party to go back and send her the link.
After I came back, I found out that it was a Burberry windbreaker. It cost more than 10,000 yuan. Their clothes for a whole year were not that expensive.
This is the first time that Jian Anran understands the difference in consumption views. The ordinary-looking jacket at her deskmate is a price she would never dare to match. What she has always said is "about the same level" is actually just a big-name brand worn by her deskmate.
I haven’t even seen it before.
"Dong", Shen Huainan snapped his fingers in front of her eyes, "What are you thinking about? Why are you in a daze?"
"Aren't you happy with your family?"
Jian Anran raised her head and looked at his somewhat evasive eyes. The other person probably thought for a long time before finally asking this question.
After all, nowadays everyone respects each other's privacy. It's not like they just come up and check out the situation of your whole family. Even if you have some concerns, everyone has to be cautious and try to avoid making the other person feel uncomfortable.
Jian Anran first let out a long sigh and then nodded, "It's really not pleasant."
"I had a lot of arguments with my parents, and in the end I ran out of anger." She said with a wry smile.
Shen Huainan curled his lips and said, "What a coincidence, so do my parents."
Jian Anran was a little surprised, "Is that why you applied to stay overnight during the winter vacation?"
The other party nodded, "They have been arguing for a long time, and my mother ran away to Switzerland to enjoy life in a rage."
"During the Chinese New Year, I really don't have the confidence to be alone with my dad. I'd rather stay in the dormitory."
Different from Jian Anran, Shen Huainan seemed to be very generous about this matter, telling her everything without any hesitation, and there was even a smile in the corners of his eyes, as if he was telling someone else's story. Shen Huainan continued: "Although I don't know why your parents quarreled..."
"I..." Jian Anran hesitated, she really didn't know how to explain.
The other party hurriedly stretched out his hand to stop, "Don't get me wrong, everyone has things that are inconvenient to talk about. That's not what I meant."
"What I want to say is," he paused, his crooked eyes seemed to hide a gurgling stream, and he didn't know whether it was the stars or the moonlight in his eyes, "Don't take your parents' problems on yourself, and don't take your parents' problems on yourself. Classify the contradictions as your own contradictions."
"Everyone must be responsible for what they have done. We should not feel guilty for what we have not done. In fact, to a certain extent, as their children, we are also victims, aren't we? ”
Looking into the serious eyes of the person in front of her, Jian Anran didn't even know for a moment whether Shen Huainan was talking about her own problem or his.
As their children, we are also victims. These words touched Jane Anran's heart in an instant, as if the burden that had been on her shoulders these past few days was suddenly lifted, and she even felt like she could breathe again.
On the way back to school from home, she was worried: where would her parents and younger brother live after the house was auctioned? Can her parents' income support the family? What would happen to her younger brother's future education and life?
When her family clearly had no money for her living expenses, no one thought about how she, a college student with no savings, could afford the basic living expenses, and no one cared about how she could pay for her tuition.
"By the way," Shen Huainan suddenly thought, "You came out at this point, haven't you eaten yet?"