Boom is actually not withdrawn, he can be said to be cheerful and lively, but most of the time he is too lazy to manage a relationship. There are also other times when he simply loves freedom and feels that any kind of relationship will constrain him.
Of course, the most important thing is that it is difficult to find a true friend. He always feels that when interacting with most people, he can only bring out one dimension of himself, and it is difficult to find another person who has the same interests as himself.
Just as love is the only hunting activity in this world, and the prey usually only has memories. Spiritual pursuit should be a natural response after material pursuit is satisfied. It is not a placebo sought after reality is frustrated.
When a person's spiritual life level exceeds his material life level, he begins to appear hypocritical. Just like depression or other mental illnesses, in fact, it is not because those people cannot see clearly, but because they see too much. p>
From an orphan in the King of Ogu to today's space magister, although Boom's situation cannot be called "unprecedented", it is definitely "unprecedented".
Therefore, although he does not believe in any gods, he is still very grateful for the blessing of the goddess of luck, allowing him to get acquainted with Rikka, and then he has four companions who can commit their lives.
But Boom is still habitually worried every day, but his position has changed, or is completely different.
Boom used to be a herbivore. He was worried about whether there would be enough grass for dinner, and at the same time he was always wary of those sharp-toothed beasts. However, now he has turned into those beasts, but Boom found that he
I still feel scared every day and have trouble sleeping and eating.
Grass and trees will perish due to trampling, and wild beasts will perish due to stronger similar species. No one at the peak of strength can really become eternal, and ancient ferocious beasts are also born with them. Therefore, no matter how powerful Boom is, he will die.
There is always someone more powerful blocking the way.
This is one of the reasons why Boom has been practicing hard, and it is also his self-awareness of being a prey. But judging from the current situation, let alone escaping from Jackdaw City with Gloria, he even died
It is impossible to achieve even if you bite back...
If someone asks me: How did you survive those difficult years? I think I have only one answer: I have a strong spiritual power to support me, and the name of this power is "I want to die but don't dare". p>
With Boom's character, since there is no hope of escaping, the best way is to end it on his own, so as not to continue to suffer physical and mental torture.
But now he can't do that, just because of Gloria's entrustment, just because his companions may be planning to return to Jackdaw City, and just because of Rikka's petite but indomitable figure.
There are two kinds of human desires, material and spiritual. The former can be embodied as gold coins, while the latter can be further abstracted into dreams, although some people's dream is to get more gold coins.
Boom doesn't want to get any gold coins now, let alone be blinded by those illusory dreams. He just wants his companions to live well, even if there are only one or two.
All our pain and difficulties are our own business. Our life and death are no one’s business. Our wounds are bleeding, while others are worrying about what to eat at night.
There is no empathy in this world, the so-called enlightenment is just talk on paper, all the comfort is just scratching the surface, and all the companionship is in vain.
Thinkers and artists, their better self escapes into their works. When he sees his body or spirit gradually being worn and destroyed by time, he feels an almost malicious happiness, as if he is hiding in a corner and watching a thief.
Pry open the cash box, but you know that the cash box is empty and all the gold coins have been safely transferred.
Happiness is just a temporary cessation of desire. We are like lambs in the field, always enjoying ourselves under the watchful eye of the butcher. As a prey, Boom has noticed the malice of the Pava Federation, but unfortunately, he has no choice but to
There is no way, it can even be said that the defeat is very complete.
The most typical feature of utilitarianism is that everything must have consequences. If something has no benefit, it is meaningless and has no need to exist.
Why do some people get embarrassed because of the silence after having a good conversation, but once others speak up, they instantly regain their energy? Just because all this is caused by vanity.
Filling each other's spiritual emptiness constitutes the most basic gameplay of the friend circle, where people build close but weak connections. Each other uses false feelings to confirm each other, but when someone chooses to withdraw, no one will actually pay attention. Because
Usually when a person needs to be recognized, he does not care about the exact source of the recognition.
Boom's madness is not simply due to his hatred of the person who hurt Rikka, but more from his painful memories. In his heart, he really hopes that he will be recognized by others, so Rikka, who depends on him for life, naturally becomes his most important person.
People you cherish.
But as the black market life went by day by day, Boom didn't know when he went from being cautious to completely accepting the little girl's company. It was a kind of blood relationship, and it was a subconscious thing that could block Rikka without any thinking.
Action.
It's just that Boom is still the same utilitarian person, which also causes the things he does to be often puzzling and even despised. However, purely from the perspective of results, Boom has done very well. At least in his early years, he used magic to
His identity as an apprentice protected an ancient beast.
Nowadays, people's collapse is a silent collapse. It seems normal, they can laugh, joke, socialize, and appear calm, but in fact, the bad things in their hearts have accumulated to a certain extent.
Most people don't slam doors and smash things, shed tears or become hysterical. But they may suddenly accumulate to a saturation state in a certain second, stop talking, don't really collapse, don't really want to live, and don't dare to die. Boom was once a little thief in King Augu's city, so he naturally came into contact with many of his kind. But from his perspective, what he saw was a completely different scene.
When a thief does something in front of them, most people will first pretend not to see it, because it has nothing to do with them. But when a person is hit by a carriage on the street, the first thing most people care about is whether the person is dead, because the only option is death.
Only then can I tell my friends about this. There was a car accident somewhere yesterday and someone died. People just use other people's lives as entertainment topics to discuss. This is human nature.
Boom neither felt any anger about this nor had any intention of collaborating. He was just a complete spectator, simply because everything had nothing to do with him.
In this world, people die miserably every moment. What can be foreseen is just the tip of the iceberg. How can we waste energy to save strangers? What's more, everyone has their own life. The nobles have the ability but choose to stand by and watch. Boom.
As an orphan, I naturally don’t have the ability to force my way forward.
Boom's impression on those who come into contact: he has a split personality, his pupils are too dark, he looks very cunning...in short, he is a weirdo. But as we get to know him better, these negative impressions gradually fade away and are replaced by
Sympathy is the ordinary embodiment of tragedy.
Although he is a withdrawn person, he will not take the initiative to hurt anyone, even a pig beast. On the contrary, Boom is the most "kind" among the six. At least he can think in other people's shoes instead of others.
Think of yourself as a powerful magician from above.