Adults sit around the table and start chatting over a cup of warm tea.
"Yingchun, where have you been these past few years?"
The woman smiled, with a bit of embarrassment on her face: "I have been working in the electronics factory in Zhoucheng for these years."
Xu Fuqiang glanced at the two of them, without asking any more questions, and sighed: "It'll be nice to be back."
This sentence seemed to trigger the woman's sadness, causing her eyes to turn red.
"Yes, I'm back." She sighed, looking forward slightly, her eyes deep as if she was thinking about something, "People in the village thought I ran away after seeing something happen to him, and now he is making money on the farm.
just came back."
The fat uncle frowned, put his hand on the woman's hand and patted it, signaling her to stop talking.
The woman smiled, patted his hand twice, indicating that she was fine, and continued: "Back then, I took my child to the county town to buy clothes, and I didn't pay close attention to the child, so something happened to the child. I have always been unable to cope with this matter.
As for me, every time I see him, it feels like there is a fish bone stuck in my throat. No matter how bad my mood is, I can't say anything in front of him. It's all my problem."
"Sometimes when I go to the county town and pass by that familiar carousel, I can't help but shed tears."
"I didn't discuss it with him, just left a word, and went to work in Zhoucheng. Later, he accidentally set fire to the mountain and went in. I thought that when he came out, I could save some money and come back.
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Aunt Yingchun's few words summed up more than three years of her life.
More than once, Xu Qingzhi heard some villagers tease Uncle Fatty, saying they wanted to introduce him to a new wife, and then called Aunt Yingchun a killer who killed the child and ran away when something happened to the man.
Over time, the image of Aunt Yingchun, a heartless woman, also emerged in Xu Qingzhi's mind.
But at this moment, that image was uprooted.
Everything, right or wrong, seemed to be understood at once.
The guilt of something happening to a child, the inability to face the pain, escape, and start a new life.
In the countryside, growing up with family members, a little kid can hear most of the gossip in the village.
When adults speak, they never avoid children, thinking that children do not understand.
Xu Qingzhi is still prejudiced against his second aunt.
Because grandma would always comment, saying that the second aunt took her parents with her and spent her second uncle's money to get a daughter married with her parents by her side.
The second aunt's mother was deaf and gave birth to only two sisters. The second aunt was the eldest daughter.
After the youngest daughter experienced domestic violence and divorce, she remarried her husband. Generally speaking, it was not convenient to take care of her parents.
Grandma always said that the second aunt was not filial to her and bought new clothes for her parents but not for her. When Xiao Qingzhi heard this, she felt that the second aunt was not filial.
Later, Brother Qinqin was addicted to online games for several years, and it was so serious that he needed to quit his addiction.
Grandma said that it was the second aunt who raised her too spoiledly, and that the second aunt did not know how to take care of children, which made Brother Qinqin like that. When Xiao Qingzhi heard this, she felt that the second aunt was really not a good mother.
So later on, with more and more words like the second aunt, in Xu Qingzhi's heart, she was no longer a good person, and she was not good to her grandmother and grandfather.
But now, when I think about it from another angle, everything seems to make sense.
When my grandma had money, she would always secretly give it to her family. The reason was that her eldest uncle and her second uncle's family were rich, but her family was more miserable.
When grandma received the delicious food, she would always hide it until she and her brother came back before giving it to her.
If there is only one thing in one thing, then it must be easy to understand.
Just like the gold ring that grandma had been wearing during her lifetime, only that one, so many descendants, gave it to her father, saying that he would give it to her when she got married.
People's hearts are inherently biased.
It seems that people can only stand in their own position, judge right and wrong, and distinguish who is a good person and who is a bad person.
Xu Fuqiang also sighed and said, "Will you go to Zhoucheng later?"
"I won't go. I want to have another child." Aunt Yingchun slowly choked up: "When the child just left, I was thinking that I would never have any more children in my life. He only needs one child. Otherwise, I
I'm afraid that after I give birth to a child, I will forget about him."
"But now I want to stop torturing myself. Having a child can also bring me a little hope."
The fat uncle gently patted her trembling shoulders to comfort her.
Xu Fuqiang nodded, "If you want to come to the farm later, tell me at any time. You will be paid the same as Fatty, and you will be a regular worker."