It is said that before a person dies, his life's experiences will flash through his mind like a revolving lantern.
Xu Qingzhi died suddenly once, it was true.
At this moment, Sissi's memories flooded into Xu Qingzhi's head in an instant.
When she was a child, she was too short and could only see the legs of adults, so Sissi always liked to stretch out her hands and let adults hug her.
Dad would put her on his neck happily.
"Our Sissi grew taller all of a sudden."
Not far away, my mother was beating dried rapeseeds with a long pole. When she looked over, she always had a smile on her face. The setting sun passed behind her, seeming to cast a golden layer on her body.
aperture.
After her father passed away, the children in the village always said that she was a child without a father and would not play with her.
In that case, when you grow up, you won't understand why you can't play with a child without a father. But when you were a child, you would say something to me, and no one would really like to play with her.
Her mother took her to the bustling Kyoto, and she saw the city at night for the first time. The dim lights along the road seemed like a beautiful scenery to her.
Her mother bought her a hamburger. She was so happy and loved eating it.
Although the living conditions are not as good as the two-story bungalow in her hometown, she is very happy as long as she is with her mother.
She studies hard, is helpful, and has a kind personality.
So when the male classmate asked her to help move the basketball for the physical education class, she nodded and agreed.
The memories of nightmares, even in revolving memories, seem to taste the bitterness and subsequent despair.
There was no way she could go back to school, and she couldn't even be in the same space with the opposite sex for a long time.
In order to take care of her, her mother lost her job.
Later, my mother fell in love.
Sissi never stopped her mother from finding her true love, but she was not used to having a strange man at home.
"Sissi, you can call him Uncle Aqiang from now on. He will pay for your medical expenses. Uncle Aqiang is a good man. When you go out to work in the future, you must repay him well."
After treatment, she was able to accept talking to men.
She obediently listened to her mother's words and politely called people: "Uncle Aqiang."
Uncle Aqiang drives a trailer and is not at home every day. He only goes out for a walk and then comes back to rest for a few days. Late at night, there will be strange sounds coming from the next room, and she can only cover her ears to prevent herself from hearing them.
However, gradually she didn't like Uncle Aqiang's eyes and some of his actions.
That look in her eyes made her feel like she was always being targeted.
When it's too hot in the summer, she will wear shorter pants or skirts at home and sit on the sofa and watch TV.
Uncle Aqiang suddenly came back and sat down next to her, with his legs spread wide and his dark palms pressing on his thighs above the knees.
As for the left hand, the back of the fingers would naturally touch her exposed thigh.
She didn't feel well, but she didn't know where she felt uncomfortable.
The mother, who was busy in the kitchen, had no time to take care of her, so she quickly took out the frozen watermelon from the refrigerator, cut it, and said some words to comfort the man about the hard work of making money.
The man held the watermelon in his right hand to eat, and then spread his legs wider. The back of his left finger rubbed tightly against her exposed leg.
She felt uncomfortable, so she stood up and called out: "Mom."
The woman came out of the busy kitchen, holding another plate of washed peaches in her hand, "Sissi, what's wrong? Come on, eat the watermelon. This year's watermelon is very precious. Thanks to your Uncle Aqiang for taking care of us, we can eat it."
Get this good watermelon."
"Nothing, I want to go back to the room and paint for a while." Sissi turned around and returned to the room.
She wanted to say something, but she was afraid that she was overthinking it.
Later, the toilet door handle broke.
Sissi mentioned repairing the door several times, but her mother always said: "Your uncle Aqiang went out for a walk and is not here. If you turn on the light, your mother will know that you are inside and won't open the door."
Once after she took a shower, she suddenly heard the sound of the door being unlocked, and she quickly got dressed.
The next second, the toilet door opened from the inside.
In the bathroom, the steam from the shower was still floating on the ceiling. The man looked over and said, "You are taking a shower, why don't you close the door?"
"The door is broken."
"Oh, let your mother call someone to fix it."
She mentioned it to her mother several times, but her mother always said that if you turn on the lights and close the door, you'll know there's someone inside and won't go in.
The broken toilet door has never been repaired.
After Uncle Aqiang came back, she was always afraid to take a bath. Every time, she would choose the time when her mother and Uncle Aqiang would go out for a walk after dinner. There was no one at home, so she hurriedly took a bath.
Until one time, as soon as she finished taking off her clothes, she heard the door unlocking outside.
She hurriedly put on her top and then subconsciously pressed it against the door.
The next second, someone pushed the door hard.
The man asked knowingly: "Sissi, are you in there?"