"Shang Shixu..." Lin Jingmo called his name softly and reached out to touch his cheek. Tears fell one by one on his eyebrows, forehead and lips.
Lin Jingmo did not expect that Shang Shixu was so important in her heart. In the past period of time, Lin Jingmo had been thinking about how to avoid him, take revenge on him, and kill him. But at this moment, she only wanted to Shang Shixu. She can survive, but she is in pain. Starting from the death of her sister, then her mother, and then her father, in her opinion, everyone has died, and she is not qualified to love anyone and live a happy life.< /p>
Even if one day she can successfully take revenge, she can't...
Lin Jingmo lay on Shang Shixu and cried loudly. Although Shen Yifeng felt distressed, he still left the room knowingly. If Shang Shixu only had one job to live for this night, then maybe if they were left alone as a couple, Is it the best?
After Shen Yifeng left, Lin Jingmo cried alone for a long time. She knew that the sky was getting darker and Shen Yifeng's maid would come in from time to time to bring some food to Lin Jingmo, but she didn't pay attention to these things at all and just stayed blank. Holding Shang Shixu's hand and refusing to let go.
At night, the maid lit the lamp in the room. Under the firelight, Lin Jingmo's eyes, which were red from crying, were particularly bright. She lay next to Shang Shixu and said softly: "In fact, I have already suspected who Shuangyin is. , she has evil intentions at all, how can we believe her words? How could you be the one who killed Mother Li? But...but because I want to find a reason! A reason to leave you, you know? Mine Every day in my dream, it’s my father, sister, and mother Li. They are dead, and I will always live in pain. I always remind myself that I must take revenge and not let other feelings occupy my thoughts. This is the reason why I live in pain again and again. I want to leave you! You know, you must know, so many times I want to kill you, but you can be safe and sound, isn't it just because I show mercy every time?"
Lin Jingmo reached out and held Shang Shixu's hand. Although his body was already cold, Lin Jingmo still comforted himself. It seemed that his palm still retained a trace of warmth...
She put Shang Shixu's hand on her face, trying hard not to shed tears, and said: "You know that I love you, but you have turned a blind eye for so many years! It's all your fault, your indifference... But , but I am still willing to give you another chance, as long as you can survive... Shang Shixu, husband... As long as you can survive, everything can start again, even if it means exchanging my life for yours, I will I don’t want to live anymore, I’m not as strong as you think…Shang Shixu!”
It's a pity that no matter how much she screamed, Shang Shixu never moved a bit.
Finally, Lin Jingmo recognized the truth and said angrily: "Who asked you to save me? Did I ask you to save me? You bastard Shang Shixu saved me more than once. The fire was obviously so big, but you didn't Are you most afraid of fire? Why did you rush into the fire twice to save people? In order not to disappoint me? In order to show me with practical actions that you are not a traitor? Shang Shixu, Lu Feicheng, he wants to kill me, you Just let him kill me. Why did you block the sword for me? Why did you do such a thing? Does it mean that my life is more important to you than yours?"
Lin Jingmo lay on the bed and cried like a child, although she knew in her heart that everything was in vain and Shang Shixu was dead...
But she still didn't want to believe this fact. The accusations over and over again seemed to be an extravagant hope. She hoped that Shang Shixian could come back to life again, but all she got in the end was disappointment.
Lin Jingmo sat up and wiped his tears carelessly: "From now on, I am the only one left in this world... My father is dead, my sister is gone, and my mother Li was killed, and even you...
He died in front of me! Shang Shixu, how do you want to compensate me for three years of indifference and ruthlessness?"
Lin Jingmo stopped crying and recalled the past three years. In fact, it was not unbearable and neglected...
Three years ago, Shang Shixu promised to marry her and gave her the best wedding, including three matchmakers and six betrothals, three letters and six etiquette, everything was perfect. He married her back home and tried his best to meet all her expenses and expenses.
Her living habits include living in the largest main courtyard of the Shang Mansion, eating the best food in the Shang Mansion, and going to the Shangshu Mansion to have dinner with her father every year on various festivals. Even if it is a reward from His Majesty, the Shang Shixu will be handed over to her.
She has always been the mistress of the Shang Mansion. She has always secretly looked at her husband. She admires her husband, so she often sneaks into his room and sees him sitting in front of the desk.
He writes diligently, so he would get up early and sit in his seat while he was in court, holding his pen.
In the past three years, although Shang Shixu did not sleep with her, they would have dinner together on all holidays. The reason why they had misunderstandings was all because of the double tone. She clearly remembered that on their wedding night
, it was Shuangyin who fed her the tea and then fell asleep. After waking up, Shang Shixu waited outside the door in the cold weather all night. In their subsequent lives, whether they bullied their servants or
The beating of the old lady was all caused by Shuangyin. Even the mother Cao who was kicked out was also starved to death by Shuangyin. Now that I think about it, Shuangyin is the most suspicious. Who is she and why did she harm Lin Jingmo to this point?
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Lin Jingmo sat up, still unable to face Shang Shixu's departure, but her tears had long since dried up. She wanted to complain about the unfairness of the world and lament her fate, but everything was in vain.
"That's it..." Finally, she reached out and covered Shang Shixu's face.
The moment Shang Shixu's face was covered, it seemed that a thousand years had passed. The two had finished saying goodbye. Finally, she lost the person she loved most. In this life, she is a cursed person and can no longer have happiness... Thinking of this, Lin Jingmo quickly stretched out her hand to lift off the white cloth on Shang Shixu's face. She thought of something and stretched out her hand to feel his breath. He was still breathing... He was not dead, he just didn't wake up.<
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Once he had such an idea, Lin Jingmo rekindled hope in his heart and ran directly towards Shen Yifeng's residence, knocked on the door and shouted: "Master Shen! Are you asleep? Wake up quickly!"
Seeing that there was no movement inside, Lin Jingmo shouted: "Shen Yifeng, get up quickly! I have something to ask you!"
Shen Yifeng was so noisy that he couldn't sleep at all, so he stood up and opened the door: "Lin Jingmo, it's almost midnight and you don't sleep, why don't you let me sleep?"