Let me tell you something from my heart. Of course it is not a eunuch’s declaration. Please don’t worry.
I had a video call with my parents a few days ago and found that they have a lot of silver hair on their temples.
Over the years, I have been pursuing my dreams without stopping.
I write books every year and never take a break.
Of course, it hits the streets every year.
I wanted to get good grades and make my parents proud of me, but in the end I failed to get ahead.
Shame, guilt, regret, self-blame, hatred, all kinds of tastes, thousands of emotions, it is difficult to describe them all.
Originally, this book could be read, but I had no choice but to commit suicide, coupled with the self-destruction during that period, Yiyang, and addiction to live broadcasting, which resulted in three months of wasted time.
It has been more than a year since I wrote this book, and the number of words is only 760,000. Although I wasted three months in the middle, I don’t blame God or earth, I only blame myself for being a waste. I obviously have a good hand, but I have let it down like this.
The expectations of many book friends.
I know there are still many book friends waiting to read this book.
However, renting a house in Pengcheng and coding full-time is really stressful, with monthly expenses of at least 20,000+.
And seeing my parents getting older, I feel that I can't continue to generate energy for love when I don't have enough to eat.
I need to get back to work.
One is for money, and the other is to solve the problem of being single.
In 2016, I worked as the editor-in-chief of an Internet company.
At that time, public accounts had just emerged, and it was a bonus period.
That was also the most high-spirited time in my life. I sent money back every month just to make my parents' lives easier.
But 18 years later, I resigned and resolutely chose to codeword full-time.
Before that, I had been doing it for six years.
I go to work every day, code after get off work, and live a life between three and one line. Sometimes I write until two or three in the morning without any regrets, just because I really love this industry.
Then I felt I could write out the results.
As a result, I struggled for several years, which made me doubt whether I was suitable for this industry.
I have been on the street for three years. Starting in 2021, I gradually mastered some skills.
I wrote this book in June 2022. The biggest reward is that you, a group of like-minded book friends, have been encouraging me and chasing me. I am very touched and grateful.
Of course, another gain is the skills and methods of writing novels.
In other words, writing this book allowed me to find my writing style, which is the most rare thing.
In fact, before writing this book, I also wrote an urban supernatural novel "One Month Trial Marriage". That book was the prototype of my writing style.
And if this book is successfully completed, I feel that my writing style has already taken shape.
If there is a next book, I believe the results will not be bad.
Of course, the premise is to finish writing this book.
This story, every time I go back and read it, I will be very emotional and excited.
I have said it many times, but I still want to say that I really love this story, every person in it, and every plot.
I like An Chen, I like Xiao Qing, I like Xiao Bai, I also like Meng Gungun, and there are many great monsters with great personalities.
I also like people from Zhen'an Division and Longmen Academy.
Probably because of this love, I came back and slowly resumed it after a break of three months.
But it is still too difficult after all, even if the outline and details have been perfected, even if the images of each volume are flashing in my mind.
[Blue Star Chapter] Six volumes, the fifth volume is the biggest climax. The protagonist opens his eyes, Zhen'an Division and Longmen Academy join forces to fight against the foreign land. The guardians of the Cave Heaven Paradise resolutely walk out for the sake of their country and the world.
It was a magnificent and passionate scene, and the title of the fifth volume is [War in All Directions].
The title of the sixth volume is [Changing the New Heaven].
Even for the six volumes of "Myriad Worlds", I have already thought about the titles, and they will also have a very grand scene.
In that world of ten thousand realms, there are awning boats that move every ten thousand years, overlords who love beauty but not country, and all kinds of wonderful characters.
The characters I laid out in the previous four volumes also have plots and stories in the Myriad Realms chapter, and I am confident that I can write them well.
I wanted to write about the meeting between Lin Qianyi and the little squirrel in Wanjie, and the artistic conception of the sentence "Both buying osmanthus and carrying wine, they must be similar, and they are traveling together as teenagers."
I also want to write that when Ahri grew up, she carried her drunk teacher on her back, smiled and talked, and walked step by step until the end of the world.
I also want to write about An Chen’s reunion with every student.
I really want to write out those stories, those stories of separation and reunion, and write them all for everyone to see.
Especially the last sentence of the finale.
There are only eight words.
But it takes three million words of foreshadowing before it can be written.
Want it so so much.
but……
needs time.
I have to find a job, I can't continue to be idle like this.
I will come back and continue this story when my job is stable.
I hope that by then, there will still be book friends who are willing to listen to me finish telling this story.
I also hope that I will have the opportunity to tell my book friends what Lin Qianyi once said to the little squirrel.
"See you tomorrow."
Tomorrow comes tomorrow, and there are so many tomorrows.
But, there will always be a day when we meet, right?
Just like mountains and water, they will always meet.
I have written many single chapters, but most of them have been deleted because I am a person who does not like to trouble others.
So after I posted those individual chapters, I wanted to delete them because I didn’t want to affect everyone’s reading experience.
However, this single chapter will not be deleted and will remain.
Even after I finish writing this story, it will still be there.
After all, it can be regarded as a turning point in the psychological journey of writing this book.
I don't want to say goodbye to the characters in the book, nor do I want to say goodbye to everyone.
Then let’s just say we’ll see each other again later.
I wish you all good morning, afternoon and good night.