Chapter 56: Similarities and Differences between Husband and Wife
Regarding Lu Yan's psychological problems, Nong Yu and Ju Shuang are the people closest to him in the world. They both vaguely know a little bit about it. However, their level of knowledge cannot exceed Lu Yan himself. This is a person who even he himself cannot understand.
Qing's profound problem is also the fundamental reason for his failure to attack the realm of heaven and humanity.
"Inner demon?!" Ehuang stood up nervously, holding the clothes on her chest with one hand. Inner demon, she had once had it, and it was the dark side of her psychology that was born from the three-person love between herself, her sister, and Lord Shun.
The inner demon is extremely selfish and has a strong desire for possession. To sum it up, it is "I am the only one who is supreme". All the benefits in the world belong to me, and I am the most noble. Those who follow me will prosper, and those who go against me will perish.
"With Master Lu Yan's spiritual state, can he actually breed inner demons?" Ehuang asked.
Nong Yu thought of the day Lu Yan killed Zi Nu, and many unbearable memories suddenly hit her, making her lips and teeth tremble.
Ju Shuang also recalled the night when she accompanied Lu Yan to drink on the rooftop.
There was an eerie silence.
It was Kuang Xiu who was the first to break the strange atmosphere: "As long as you are a human being, you are bound to have darkness in your heart. The sages from hundreds of schools of thought have been arguing about the nature of good and evil in human nature for hundreds of years, but they have not come up with a solid truth. Lu Yan
He does have extraordinary benevolence and justice, and even to a certain extent, I think he should have become a master in the realm of heaven and man. Now hearing what you said, Ju Shuang, I think it is probably because of Lu Yan's high sense of morality.
This gave rise to very terrible inner demons in his heart."
"High moral sense..." Nong Yu heard this word and couldn't help turning her head to look at Kuang Xiu, "Well, as Master said, everyone is born with equal rights to life and personality. No one can deprive others of their rights.
Even the princes and nobles do not have such power over life and dignity. He once told me that this kind of awareness of equality is a basic education in his hometown. This is probably what you are talking about, Master, a high sense of morality.
origin of."
"What, Lu Yan's hometown, basic education, this..." Kuang Xiu was so shocked that he choked for a moment.
"Lord Lu Yan's hometown..."
"Is there such a place in the world?"
Lu Yan's origin is legendary in this world. His birth time and place are unknown. Even Nong Yu, Ju Shuang and Yan Lu don't know.
His hometown...yes, so at that time!
Ju Shuang suddenly realized that Lu Yan had said a few words that had no beginning or end when he was drunk that night. It turned out to be——
I never see the ancients before me, and never see the newcomers after me. Thinking about the long journey of heaven and earth, I shed tears of sadness alone. Chen Ziang! The Chen Ziang he was talking about at that time was not a classmate, but the author of this poem. This poem was what he learned in his hometown, so
Only then did he appear. Although I have been with him for more than ten years, I have never heard about Chen Ziang.
"elder sister."
"Huh?" Ju Shuang heard the sound and looked towards Nong Yu.
"Actually, you have noticed it a long time ago. My husband has always had a kind of alienation and loneliness that is incompatible with the world. This loneliness was once weakened to a minimum by everyone in the Imperial Prefecture, but..."
Nong Yu took out the Changhong Sword and stroked its simple scabbard, her voice gradually weakened.
Lu Yan was not born in a special orphanage. Before he time traveled, his parents were still alive and he had a biological sister. His family conditions were far from rich, but they were not living a difficult life. Therefore, after time traveling, he still had feelings for his family members on the earth in his previous life.
There are deep thoughts.
In this world, a new family belonging to Lu Yan was gradually formed, and his lovers and relatives gathered around him, and he seemed to have completely become a member of this world.
Nong Yu's perception is right. Lu Yan has traveled through time since then, from Daliang in the Wei State to Songhai in the Qi State, to Xinzheng in South Korea, and then to Xianyang in the Qin State. Until the five years of happy life after marriage, Lu Yan's feeling of alienation and loneliness
are constantly weakening.
But from then on, Lu Yan's strategy of swallowing up the three Jin Dynasties was launched, chaos Chu, destroying Zhao, and then conquering Zhao. The casualties caused by each step increased by hundreds of thousands, and the strange feeling that enveloped Lu Yan's body began to increase again.
Elasticity is generally getting stronger and stronger.
With a high sense of morality, it is easy to feel guilty. Simply put, it means that your conscience will hurt. This is a major way for Lu Yan to fight against his inner demons.
Having read many books and seen many real cases in society, Lu Yan does not believe that he is born with a noble character. He definitely has the dark side of human nature.
Time travel, and what about the system? How about the diaosi counterattack, lying drunk on the knees of a beautiful woman, awakening to take over the world? It’s just right, the beauties in the world during the Qin Dynasty are so attractive, and at the end of the Qin Dynasty, the time was full of chaos, the time traveler became the emperor and opened a big harem
Isn’t it wonderful!
Lu Yan never thought that he could resist the temptation of power and sex. The kind of depravity that would lead him to fall into an abyss all at once. At first, it might just be that one time, you used the power in your hands to satisfy a small desire of yours.
Lu Yan cut off his desire to become a so-called "successful person" and "a superior person" from the very beginning, and regarded it as his own pursuit to understand the profound doctrines of various schools of thought and become a master in the history of human civilization. In the pursuit of ideals
In the process, suppressed desires become inner demons.
"I committed extremely evil things and was tortured by a guilty conscience. In the constant pain, I chose to be a good person. And the core of a good person lies in this pain."
Lu Yan always used this kind of pain to remind himself what the ideal he was pursuing was, and he could never go astray, so he suppressed his inner demons.
However, in the current situation, Lu Yan has turned into the evil Dongjun, and the inside story is unknown.
…
"Sister, I know you are worried about my condition. However, I will not have inner demons because of this."
Nongyu raised her head and smiled at Ju Shuang, "You said that I am kind-hearted by nature, and you are afraid that I will also fall into a guilty mental predicament. No, no, I am still far from reaching the high moral sense of my husband.
.”
Ju Shuang looked at Nong Yu's smiling face, her yellowish skin with a slight blush, and the emotion contained in her starry eyes: pride? Bitterness? Or what?
She couldn't see through Nongyu's mood at this time, but since Nongyu said it so straightforwardly, she had no choice but to trust him.
Kindness is really a luxurious word in these troubled times.
Nongyu thought silently in his heart and put away the Changhong Sword.
Although Nongyu is kind-hearted, she is a native of this world. The life of Zilanxuan in South Korea has opened the door for her kindness.
Lu Yan is completely different from Nong Yu. On the one hand, his "kindness" comes from the education he received in his previous life. On the other hand, in this world, Lu Yan, in an almost self-hypnotic state, constantly gives himself
"Kindness" is superimposed to create a high moral sense. The pain caused by the high moral sense is used to suppress the evil thoughts arising in the heart.
In comparison, Nong Yu's mental state is much healthier than Lu Yan's.
"Okay, let's not talk about this for now." Nongyu ended the above profound topic, turned to Ehuang and asked, "Ehuang, have you obtained all the evidence that you were asked to prepare before?"
"Yes, I've got it." Ehuang nodded and took out a gold and jade box, "This is it."
Nongyu raised his hand and sucked the box over. After playing with it for a while, he showed a surprised expression, "It is indeed something that can prove his identity. It is indeed extraordinary."
Ehuang asked: "Is this box the one that can prove Mr. Yan Lu's identity?"
"Yes, this is the gift for Li Si."
Ju Shuang recalled Yan Lu, the last time they met a few years ago, and sighed: "I thought this secret would be buried forever, but I didn't expect that one day, Mr. Yan Lu would choose to make it public. With this news
, Li Si will probably beat Confucianism so hard that it will never be able to stand up again."