When I saw Meng Fei again, his demeanor and overall temperament were a little different from before, but I couldn't tell what was different. I always felt that he was weird. It wasn't until we ended the conversation that I understood Why did he change like this?
"pretty good."
I took the phone and said something. At this moment, the guard locked the door of Meng Fei's room, did not listen to the conversation between me and him, and gave him a relatively loose space to talk.
"It's good! I work every day until I don't want to move at all. I eat some food at night and lie down to sleep, haha." Meng Fei replied with a smile.
"...I'm tired. I'll find a relationship for you and go to a more relaxed place." I asked with concern.
"Don't, it's very good now. Don't be too idle here." Meng Fei quickly stopped him and said.
After I finished listening, I was silent for a long time, frowned and replied: "I came out a step too late, so I couldn't help you..."
"Nannan, fortunately you are inside, otherwise, I might not even have a chance to atone for my sins." Meng Fei paused, shook his head and said.
"Atonement," I was stunned for a moment, feeling that what he said was a bit incomprehensible.
"...Nannan, we have been hanging out together for about seven or eight years. I have never been so relaxed as now, chatting with you in such a calm tone, really." Meng Fei looked at me. , said sincerely.
"Why do you seem..." I finished half of my sentence.
"Compared to before, I'm a little more honest, right? Haha." Meng Fei smiled.
"..." I didn't say anything, which was my acquiescence.
"Nannan, I have been in your position, and what happened to you has also happened to me, so I understand you better than anyone else."
"What do you want to say?" I looked at him and asked with a frown.
"The road is wrong. If you go down further, you will be like me..." Meng Fei replied softly.
My brows furrowed even more.
"Sitting in our position, you will enjoy it in the early stage, worry in the middle stage, and suffer in the later stage. You will watch your friends suddenly appear next to you, and then you will drink together, chat together, and walk side by side, but In the end, you will watch them "leave" one by one, and there will be no news from each one... You will be anxious and sad, but there is nothing you can do... Maybe, among the people who left, you had to send them away with your own hands. of……."
It hadn't been long since Meng Fei came in, and his sentence of squatting was not as long as mine, but suddenly his thinking seemed to have improved to a new level, and he became very quiet, but it was not superficial.
This kind of thinking state has nothing to do with IQ or ordinary experience. It only feels like this after being completely hopeless in life, suffering a major blow, and then rekindling hope and standing up again.
"Haha, have I become nagging?" Meng Fei asked me.
"Well, a little bit."
I smiled and nodded.
"Nan Nan, I don't know when I will be released from prison, but I hope you can visit me once a year, because I really don't want you to be like me, only remembering when you step into this iron door. What did I do wrong, what kind of interests did I offend, what kind of friends did I give up..." Meng Fei looked at me and said seriously.
"...Yeah, I understand." I nodded seriously.
"When are you getting married?" Meng Fei may have felt that the topic was a bit heavy, so he changed the topic and asked with a smile.
"Originally, we should have gotten married long ago, but something happened to me in the meantime. I just came out, and I don't know what my parents thought. Let's talk about it after it's over," I replied truthfully.
"Get married early, and have a child sooner... Don't live for yourself, think about the people closest to you. Fortunately, Xinxin gave birth to a son for me. We are almost the same. I am almost thirty. Wait for me When I went out, I was at least forty or fifty years old...At that time...my parents didn't even know if they were alive anymore. Without this grandson by their side...I really can't imagine how they would live their lives."
Meng Fei spoke to me in a calm tone, not so emotional that he shed tears, because he had already gone through the most difficult time. To put it in fantasy terms, he had achieved nirvana, removed all the dirt from his body, and lived with a clear conscience from now on.
I looked at him with a lot of emotions for a while. He used to be a boss who would show his teeth when he was in trouble. Once he made a decision, it was often difficult for others to change it. But now, after just two days of squatting, he has completely changed. ,.
He gives people a very healthy, relaxed and casual feeling. Although there is no end to his sentence, he seems to be full of infinite good expectations for life and family.
His words had no important point, and he had no experience to talk about, but they had a vital impact on me. To put it bluntly, during this period, Meng Fei was like Buddha, constantly trying to save me, an "evil ghost" , he kept talking endlessly, but every time I listened very carefully. There were some things that the old immortal couldn't persuade me, but Meng Fei was able to persuade me. I don't know why, it's just so weird.
Maybe it's like Meng Fei said, he is the one who understands my difficulties best. No matter how good the old immortal is with me, even if we are conjoined, he is not in my position, so he cannot consider what I think.
Later, in the words of the old immortal, if there was no late-stage Meng Fei, you would have suffered so many damn sins. Yes, he successfully atones for his sins.
As the sun set, I left the reception hall, vaguely remembering Meng Fei's last words to me.
"The day I really convince myself that I don't want to do it anymore, I have to decisively withdraw...even more decisively...sacrifice something. This is what Lord Wei's father told me, but I didn't do it."
I understood everything Meng Fei said, except for this sentence, I didn't quite understand. I didn't understand what sacrifice he was referring to.
However, when I understood it, I was caught in a struggle and didn't know how to choose.
…
The car drove slowly back towards the city. When it was halfway to the national highway, there was a sudden traffic jam in front of it. Many taxis jumped out of the dirt road and fled in all directions.
Several of us stretched out our heads out of curiosity and swept outside. We saw a military green Tyrannosaurus parked on the dirt road. A young man wearing a white coat with a bag under his arm pointed at the trucks pulling earthworks below and cursed. Said: "Fuck you, mother, the circle I drew, the soil is mine. You can't even use it if you take away a piece of grass. Go back and tell the five fat men that I have all the swords, guns, swords, halberds, axes, axes, hooks and forks." Fuck him."
Below, six or seven drivers were smashed into the pit, along with three or four young men. They were covered in blood and didn't say a word.
"gone."
The young man in a white coat waved his hand and took the four people next to him into the military green Overlord, and then fled with the taxi convoy.
"Who is this, so lawless?" Ma Xiaoyou blinked and rushed to Hui and asked.
"...His name is Xue Yu. He is the brother of Xiao'er and Yuanyang. He has made a lot of noise over the past year."
Before Xiang Hui could say anything, a taxi driver who was also blocked next to him, smoking a cigarette, interjected casually.
"No one cares." Ma Xiaoyou asked puzzledly.
"It has something to do with it later. This means that damn Xiao Hei, Qin Wantian, and Fatty Dai are no longer here. Otherwise, it can be their turn to coax them. If there is no money in H market, then Damn, there are so many tigers. If you don’t cause any trouble, you’ll be honest if you kick the trouble and correct it." The driver commented calmly.
"...Why, he offended you." Xiang Hui looked at the driver and asked in confusion.
"I'm a taxi driver and I can't get along with them. I have nothing to offend. It's just that these people are unkind and will do anything for a little money. Last year they demolished the old man and the old lady. It's all in order, how can we be as particular as those big brothers in society in the past," the driver replied again.
When we heard this, we didn't say anything. Just as the taxi in front of us had disappeared, the taxi driver next to us kicked the accelerator and overtook us.
P.S.: This chapter is a bit depressing to write. I owe one chapter today and will pay it back another day.