When he heard the words "Let's sleep a little longer," Lin Zengxian had no intention of sleeping.
However, his dizzy state and exhaustion multiplied the power of the pillow, and Lin Zengxian fell asleep just like that.
This time, he slept soundly and without any dreams, and there was a faint smell of white rose water in the air around him.
When he woke up, the sunlight outside the window told him that it was already noon.
With a cold square scarf covering his forehead, Lin Zengxian subconsciously looked at the bedroom door but could not hear any movement.
Then, he looked towards the bed consciously.
The sunlight is light and gentle, like feathers, falling on the chair next to the bed.
The woman with short blond hair and a white sweater was sitting in the chair, her head tilted, her eyes closed, her slow breathing seemed to blend into time, and she gently pinched the hands of the clock.
Her skin is very white, embraced by the sun from behind, drawing a circle of blurry light on her outline.
Reflected in a circle of light, the dust in the air and the hair on her temples were clearly visible.
The whole person is like a white rose with its buds closed, dozing off with its head lowered.
Lin Zengxian put away the smile that he was not aware of, looked away, and once again saw Sparks lying beside the bed.
"Don't make any noise, don't wake her up."
Glancing at the sparks, Lin Zengxian took off his scarf and slowly sat up. It was a bit difficult for him not to make any noise.
"Woof!"
However, before he could calm down his breathing, the sound of sparks disrupted his plan.
"Um……"
Kim Taeyeon's shoulders trembled slightly and she immediately opened her eyes.
"Oppa, you woke up, how do you feel now?"
Yesterday, she returned home very late after running all day to make announcements. If she hadn't seen sparks jumping at the neighbor's door as soon as she opened the door, Kim Taeyeon would not have thought that Lin Zengxian was back.
"Well, it's okay."
Raising his hand to hold his forehead, Lin Zengxian glared as hard as he could with a rare disobedient spark.
"Are you still having a fever?"
After touching her forehead first, Kim Taeyeon then extended her hand to Lin Zengxian's forehead, but stopped the moment before it touched it.
She still maintained a calm expression. After a brief pause, she slowly closed her fingers and took her hand back.
"I feel like I'm back when we first met."
She lowered her head and looked at the toes of her shoes. Her blond hair hung down at her temples, as if the color of the sun was staining her cheeks.
"It's just that now you are the one who always says 'it's okay'."
Raising her head again, Kim Taeyeon smiled as usual.
But there was no laughter in this smile.
In fact, she had always known that since Lin Zengxian revealed his family background, the other party had deliberately kept a distance, as if there was an invisible barrier between them.
If she stays away and says goodbye, Lin Zengxian will watch her leave;
If she comes closer, she will be kept at a distance.
But Lin Zengxian would still care about her passively. As long as she said so, this person would not be indifferent.
What about taking retreat to make progress, what about tenderness... During the month when Lin Zengxian was far away from this city and had no news at all, she overthrew all her previous ideas.
Reason tells her that she should say goodbye;
Sensitivity told her that she shouldn't say goodbye.
The two phases become entangled and become a kind of internal friction, and such thinking no longer makes sense.
"Oppa, are you Dr. Lin?"
So, she wanted to give herself an answer now.
The bedroom was quiet, the two people looked at each other, and the air seemed to be heated.
"I am a doctor."
Folding the square towel in his hand and placing it on the bedside table, Lin Zengxian looked into Kim Taeyeon's eyes and knew that something must be made clear today.
"But at some point, I can't just be a doctor."
Rarely, Lin Zengxian took the initiative to stretch out his hand, palm up, in front of Kim Taeyeon.
This is a person who rarely has physical contact with others, especially the opposite sex.
"What's wrong?"
Not knowing what Lin Zengxian was going to do, Kim Taeyeon put her hand on her.
Lin Zengxian's palms were so hot that it made people's hearts beat faster.
"I don't have the strength, help me."
Looking into Kim Taeyeon's eyes and signaling to close his fingers, Lin Zengxian pursed his lips and coughed a few times. Although his lungs seemed to be shaking, his sight was not affected and did not shift in the slightest.
Looking down at her and his hands, and then looking up at his eyes, Kim Taeyeon was silent for a moment, and truly placed her hand in Lin Zengxian's.
So, Lin Zengxian closed his fingers and held her hand.
"Oppa, please slow down."
The so-called "help me" has a symbolic meaning. Lin Zengxian is tall and powerful, so naturally Kim Taeyeon can't help him. Lin Zengxian didn't really intend to let Kim Taeyeon help him. After he landed on the ground and stepped on his slippers, he let go.
Opened his hand.
The two people walked into the living room one after another. Kim Taeyeon looked at Lin Zengxian's back, which was still upright despite the illness, and suddenly smiled.
Even though the fever is so high, I still don’t relax my demands on myself at all. Even when I walk around the house, I have to keep my normal appearance.
"I didn't tell you about my family background at the beginning. This was a dishonest thing on my part. I'm sorry."
Sitting on the sofa, Lin Zengxian waved to Sparks nestled in the corner.
Lin Zengxian is a person who doesn't talk much, but is very good at choosing topics. In Kim Taeyeon's memory, except when "a doctor faces a patient", this is the first time for such a straightforward conversation.
"When I first found out about it, I was a little emotional, but later I figured out that if you have a family background like that, you won't tell others easily."
Walking to sit next to Lin Zengxian, Kim Taeyeon clasped her hands together, slightly curled her thumbs, and pressed her palms.
There was something akin to nostalgia between her eyebrows, but she didn't know what she was missing.
Is it sunny on Bethels Beach?
Or the heavy rain on the streets across the state?
"My parents divorced when I was very young. At that time, my family was not what it is now, and my father's business was not as big as it is now. He took my uncles to work together, and he was very motivated every day. I couldn't wait to see him.
I moved my bedroom to the company, but the house is very deserted. It’s just me and the nanny who comes to clean and cook on time every day.”
Seeing Hua Hua running over, Lin Zengxian did not take back his hand, but still stretched out his hand, ready to touch Hua Hua's head.
As a result, Hua Hua suddenly paused before running to the sofa, and then snuggled into Kim Taeyeon's legs.
"After they divorced, my mother was holding her breath. In order to prevent my father from misunderstanding, she refused to call home. She only occasionally went to the school gate to wait and meet me when I was out of school. Later, she went abroad.
Come and see me at the school gate for the last time before I leave, so that I can be strong, eat well, study well, and live well."
Rolling his eyes at Hua Hua angrily, Lin Zengxian smiled and retracted his hand, leaned back on the sofa, and slowly closed his eyes.
There is still the fragrance of white roses in the air around me.
The world in front of you is a memory that cannot be taken back.