Xu Lin settled down here. According to what he said, people from outside the country should start and end when they do something. He would not leave Linjiazhuang until he had taken care of the red coffin. Of course, he would not live in Linjiazhuang. My family, Lin Sanshui, has experienced this incident. The original atheist party members believed in the things of gods and ghosts so much that they wanted to enshrine Xu Lin. In addition, the hardware facilities of Lin Sanshui's family are indeed much better than mine. , Xu Lin lived in his house.
And I was responsible for refueling the ever-burning lamp in the ancestral hall. This incident reminded me of the Romance of the Three Kingdoms, which I was extremely obsessed with. In it, the ever-bright lamp used by Zhuge Kongming to extend his life was later kicked by Wei Yan, which ended the legend of Zhuge Kongming. A life like that.
So I really take great care of this evergreen lamp, because it seems to be very stylish.
After that, grandpa’s Qi Festival really brought peace to the world. On the morning of the Qi Festival, I opened the door of the yard and there were many villagers standing outside. They all asked me with concern: Xiaofan, your grandpa Youngest Lin, has he come back?
Although the villagers were watching the fun, there were also people who really cared about my family. I reported to everyone that I was safe, and I admired Xu Lin very much in my heart. Regardless of whether I believed in ghosts and gods or not, Deng Weiren said, no matter what Black and white cats are good cats as long as they catch mice.
I went out for a walk and felt refreshed. Grandpa stopped making troubles. Nothing happened at home. Give me time to forget about that time in college that I didn’t say anything but brought endless consequences to me. A painful woman, I have completely integrated into the life of a mountain village, and I am still an ordinary person.
Marry a wife, have children, and spend the rest of your life.
When I got home, my father had already packed everything. He was going to give the money for the ritual to Feng Shui Master Xu Lin. This Xu Lin was really a strange man. We had negotiated a thousand yuan, and my father was going to give it to him that night. He sent it over, but he didn't want it dead or alive, so he said that this matter was really not settled. It would take at least seven or forty-nine days. No matter what, he had to go through this Fengqi and make sure that grandpa would not come to make trouble. Down.
The result of my father's discussion with me was that originally this thousand yuan was not a big amount for such a worldly person. If I really waited until forty-nine days before giving it, it would not be a problem. I dare to work at my lover's house for forty-nine days and earn only one thousand yuan, but my brother still has a salary of one thousand yuan a month.
As soon as the money was sent over, the matter was settled. Xu Lin said he would stay for forty-nine days. When I returned home after school, my father said to me: Mr. Xu is gone. Let your uncle Sanshui go to town to invite someone. In seven or forty-nine days, he will come over to arrange things here.
The days suddenly became dull. I saw Wu Mengke several times on the road. She always lowered her head and didn't even say hello. Sometimes I had the courage to say hello to her, but she also dealt with it absent-mindedly. Logically speaking, Lin Xiaoyao can see the burning passion in my eyes when I look at her, and she shouldn't be able to see it as someone who has been here.
In fact, I myself can’t tell whether my feelings for this woman are truly pathological, or whether they fill my lack of maternal love when I was young, my own reliance on myself, or whether I feel pity for this beautiful but troubled woman. I don’t know. , and I have never regretted that time that I did not push her hard enough to end her virginity of more than 20 years.
But I know that the natural neighborly relationship between the two of us will never return to the previous one. That beautiful night has become the biggest gap between the two of us.
Because of this, I even avoided Lin Xiaoyao.
If it was because I couldn't accept the huge dark spots on her face before, now I can't face their mother and daughter.
But there are some things that cannot be hidden, especially for Lin Xiaoyao, a persistent woman. After school that day, he stopped me at the school gate, stared at the sandals on my feet and said: Xiaofan Brother, why don't you wear the shoes I gave you?
That pair of shoes is in my cabinet. They are thousand-layer cloth shoes. The most difficult thing is the soles. They are completely sewn layer by layer of cloth. It is very labor-intensive. I can't face the look Lin Xiaoyao is looking at me. He hid aside and said: It's hot now, so cover your feet if you wear them, and wear them when it gets cooler.
Lin Xiaoyao said "oh" and looked at me without saying a word, but I didn't even dare to look at her. Looking at her eyes, I felt deeply guilty, not only because of Wu Miaoke, but also because of Wu Miaoke. Most of the time I blame myself for judging people by their appearance.
"Brother Xiaofan, do you hate me?" she asked me.
Don't think too much about it, just go home and have dinner. After saying that, I will go home with the students' homework in my arms.
Lin Xiaoyao was stomping her feet angrily behind me. I could even imagine the disappointed expression on her face, but what could I do? I couldn't accept her, so why should I delay her?
Lin Xiaofan called me loudly, her voice filled with anger.
I finally stood still and turned around. She flew towards me like flying, hugged me tightly, her nose burst into tears, and she cried heartbreakingly.
My whole body stiffened, I didn't push her away or hug her, and let the villagers passing by point at us.
Finally, she bit my shoulder hard, but I still didn't move. She bit me for a long time and cried even harder.
Okay, little demon, it’s very late, you should go back, I said.
She still cried.
Until the end, she stared at me and said, "You don't like me. Ever since you were little, why have you been so nice to me?"
I'm speechless.
How should I answer? Lin Xiaoyao's so-called kindness to her is just because I am the only one who dares to play with her. It is just because I stood in front of her when other children bullied her.
She is a poor child. A simple act made her fall deeply in love with me when she was a child.
I can't answer her. I can't lie to her, let alone tell the truth. Who knows what stupid things she will do if she is paranoid.
She said: Brother Xiaofan, if you have nothing to do, go and see my mother. After saying that, she straightened her clothes, wiped away her tears and turned around to leave. Before leaving, she even gave me a smile.
I don't know why, but when I saw her face, deep down in my heart, I felt a sharp pain.
Back then on campus, when she, whom I regarded as the only one in my life, told me to break up, I gave her a smile and turned around to leave.
But only I can understand the indescribable emptiness deep inside my heart.
I seemed to have an extra pair of eyes. I could see Lin Xiaoyao's heart full of blood.
A man who can drive a Poussin for a house will dump your beautiful woman.
With an ugly woman who has loved you since childhood.
Lin Xiaofan, what on earth do you choose is in my heart, I asked myself this question.
For the first time, I whispered: "Little demon."
If some people don't want to hear you calling them, they won't look back even if they use a loudspeaker.
Some people are just waiting for your call, and they can even hear your whisper.
Lin Xiaoyao immediately stopped and looked at me blankly.
Give me time. I smiled at her.
She was instantly ecstatic.
And at this time, I felt relaxed all over my body.
Just let go of some obsessions.
After bidding farewell to Lin Xiaoyao, I went to the ancestral hall to add lamp oil and checked the doors and windows. I was afraid that the night wind would blow out the ever-burning lamp arranged by Xu Lin, because the hug between Lin Xiaoyao and I had caused the feudal villagers to talk about it.
I didn't want to hear their nonsense, so I stayed in the ancestral hall and even wiped my ancestors' spiritual tablets.
Looking at this red coffin that scared even Xu Lin, I wasn't that scared.
No matter what kind of existence you are after death, when you are alive, you are still the same person, with seven emotions and six desires, tea, rice, oil and salt.
I stayed until dark before I dared to walk home. When I entered the living room, I found my grandma, who was not in good health recently, sitting at the dining table. My father was smoking a cigarette there, while my second uncle looked at me with a smile.
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My heart sank and I wanted to scold my mother. What happened at the school gate just now must have reached the ears of my family.
I put on a smile and said, "Grandma, just eat first, you don't have to wait for me later."
Grandma snorted and said: Xiaofan, grandma knows that there is a generation gap between us, but grandma will leave it here. Lin Xiaoyao is definitely not good. Let’s not talk about Wu Miao, who is destined to be the last. What does Lin Xiaoyao look like?
You know what others say about her not being reincarnated as a black pig. My Lin family only has such a college student. If you marry this, you won’t be afraid of losing your father’s family.
Mom, don’t say that to others. My father said with a frown as he smoked a cigarette.
I was holding the steamed bun and was so embarrassed that I didn’t know how to explain it to my grandma, because what she said was the truth. If I became Lin Xiaoyao, how would the neighbors talk about me?
It’s not about looking at people. Lin Sanshui is the village chief and rich.
My father just stopped grandma and stopped talking. His expression already betrayed his attitude. He did not approve of this matter either.
Grandma didn't say anything after that, but she didn't give me a good look after the meal. This meal was tasteless to me, so I finally convinced myself to accept Lin Xiaoyao.
However, the pressure at this time made me decide where to go
After all, I am not the male protagonist in the movie, but I have unparalleled strength and courage.
My name is Lin Xiaofan, and I am just an ordinary person.