Time passed by so quietly. I had forgotten to tell my grandma about having a baby, but then I didn’t want to talk about it anymore because she and I really became very good friends.
In the beginning, I rarely went up the mountain to play with him. In fact, I had a vague feeling that he was not an ordinary child, but I didn't dare to think too deeply, for I was afraid that he was a kid.
Grandma said that people and ghosts have different paths. Humans belong to Yang. The stronger the Yang energy, the better the body and the better luck. However, ghosts are very yin, so you must not have deep contact with them. Otherwise, the Yang energy will be affected, which may delay your fortune and cause you to suffer from minor illnesses.
In severe cases, one's life may be in jeopardy.
But having a baby is really cute. I have never seen such a beautiful child. His face is always red and he smiles like a baby. People instinctively like beautiful things. Besides, having a baby saved my life twice.
Second-rate.
The first time was when we were in the river. Fengxia wanted to drag Daya to death. I went to find Daya but he saved me.
The second time was after I went to school. Our school followed the example of schools in the city and organized autumn outings and picnics on our mountain. That time I was assigned to collect firewood. Unexpectedly, I walked farther and farther away alone.
When I turned around, I saw a snake looking at me with its body raised, as if it was attacking. I was so scared that I peed.
Shengzi suddenly appeared and drank the snake away. Strangely enough, Shengzi just glared at the snake and shouted, "Get away!" The snake slithered away. Just like that, I gradually got used to it.
I went to play with him when I was little.
I was afraid that he was a ghost and that constant contact would make me sick or something, but no, I have been growing very fast. I am the tallest one in our class. No boys can compare with me. I am not very good at studying, but
This can't be blamed for having children.
At that time, I couldn't help but ask Shengzi directly, are you a ghost? Why do you never change your clothes or take me to your house to play? We can only play in the mountains.
Iko looked at me and smiled and said, "Ghosts don't have shadows, but I do. Ghosts can't touch their heels to the ground, but I can. Ghosts can't shine under the sun for a long time in broad daylight. I can do it too, sister."
, do you still think I am a ghost?
I choked on what he said and opened my mouth, "Then what are you?"
"I am a god who protects you, sister, do you believe it?" His smiling eyes curled up like crescent moons.
Of course I don't believe that a god can be a little baby, but he never seems to grow up. My body changes every year. He has always been a little baby. Later, I no longer care about what he is, whether he is a ghost or a god.
What does it matter? I only know his name is Shengzi and he is my good friend.
The biggest change after I went to school was that I started to become sensible. Some of my grandma’s words no longer worked for me. I became more aware of gender and looked more and more like a boy.
I like wrestling with boys. The best thing is that no boy in the class can wrestle me. I have become famous at a young age. At first, someone in the class liked to bully Xu Meijin, saying that she had a mother but not a mother.
Later, they were all beaten by me without exception. At that time, wherever I went, there were several little boys following behind me. Xu Meijin liked to walk beside me with her head raised, instructing the one to get my schoolbag and the other to give it to me.
I bought popsicles and ate them, feeling very proud.
Until my grandma discovered that one day I was peeing standing up, so she beat me with a broomstick and shouted, "Jiaolong, how can there be a girl like you? You are too wild!"
I was beaten by my grandma and refused to give in. I kept shouting, "I want to be a boy, I don't want to be a girl!"
Grandma was tired from beating her. She sat on the kang and threw the broom aside. She looked at me and said, "Being a boy or a girl is not your choice. You are destined to be a girl, you know."
My whole body hurt from being beaten, but I still choked, "I can choose, I know I'm abnormal! You asked me to be a girl, and I don't like to be a girl!"
"You..." When grandma saw this, she wanted to hit me again. Grandpa hurriedly stepped forward to protect me and looked at grandma and said, "What are you doing? You are being beaten. The child is still young and not sensible yet."
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"I'm sensible. I'm a monster, so my mother never comes back to see me. I can be a boy or a girl! I want to be a boy, and boys can protect themselves!" I shouted loudly, looking fearless.
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Grandma suddenly fell silent, looked at me and sighed, "Well, since you are sensible now, grandma will take you to the provincial capital and a big hospital. Let's listen to what the doctor says and see if the doctor says that you
It's a monster." After saying that, he raised his feet and walked out directly.
I stood there with a stubborn look on my face. It was the first time I spoke so loudly to my grandma, because my grandma’s status in my heart is unparalleled. But I didn’t know what happened that day, and I didn’t want to let myself cry.
I just stood there, even though my grandpa asked me to go to my grandma to apologize, I didn’t go, so I just stood there.
Finally, my grandpa looked at me and sighed, muttering, "It's up to the mother to grow up." He raised his feet and went out.
As soon as I saw that everyone was gone, I lay down on the kang and cried, and then fell asleep while crying.
When I woke up in a daze, I found that my clothes had been taken off by my grandma and I had been covered with a quilt. The room was dark and the night was deep. I wanted to turn over and continue sleeping, but I heard my grandma and grandpa whispering.
said this.
"Old lady, you really want to take Jiaolong to the provincial capital to see it. Can you do it on your own since it's such a far distance?"
"Okay, I have to go and have a look. We can't keep doing this. Jiaolong is growing up day by day. I'm afraid that she will have low self-esteem in the future."
"Hey, then this kind of medical treatment is quite expensive, so bring your bankbook."
"Um."
"When you come back, take Jiaolong to the county seat to see Huijuan. This child hasn't seen her parents for a long time. You said Huijuan is cruel, so why don't you come back to see the child."
"Hey, Huijuan is also busy with work. Didn't she give us money? Let's talk about the meeting later. If she doesn't want to see us, I don't want to cause trouble to Huijuan. Even if she goes, she will have to wait until Jiaolong
Let’s go during the summer vacation and go to bed first.”
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I opened my eyes in the dark night, and I didn’t know why I was crying. It didn’t hurt when my grandma hit me. It’s just that I really wanted to be a boy, because I was disgusted with words like girl movies. I felt like I was a boy.
Girls are not strong enough.
But I was still a little nervous when I thought about grandma taking me to the provincial capital. I didn’t know what the big doctors in the provincial capital would think of me. Am I the only one like me in the world? I would be arrested like in the books I read.
Do you want to do an experiment? Also, do I really want to see my mother? Do I also want to see my grandma who I have never met but knows that she doesn’t like me? What should I say when I see her?
I was just thinking so wildly, I don’t know how long it took, and I fell asleep again. (To be continued)