I was blinded. After I realized what I was doing, I chased him with a few strides and raised the umbrella above his head: "Even if we break up, you have to tell me why. Is it luck because I lied to you? Then I'll follow you."
Apologize, I didn’t mean to lie to you, really, I’m sorry, okay!”
I don't know if it's rain or tears on his face. I look at Zhuo Jing's eyes full of anger and forbearance. I would rather he tell me clearly. What does this mean? It's over like this?
Zhuo Jing looked at me straightly, for a long time, and actually stretched out his hand to push my shoulder directly. The force was not strong, but I staggered back two steps. I was stunned for a moment. The umbrella in my hand swayed with my body and fell.
When I got to the ground, it was better to have a clearer mind after pouring rain, and I could clearly feel that he pushed me away.
"Don't get too close to me. The last thing I can do for you is to make what happened to you on the TV station forgotten. From this moment on, you are Lin Qiao, not the Ma Jiaolong in my heart.
She is the girl who has been in my heart for so many years, not you."
He just has this ability. He never has to speak too loudly, but it can have a deafening effect on me. I am not Ma Jiaolong, then who am I?
"I'm Lin Qiao?"
Maybe my expression at the moment is a bit dumbfounded. The rain flowed down my face and directly into my mouth. It was so salty: "Zhuo Jing, what on earth do you want me to do? I didn't mean to lie to you. If you are just struggling,
I lied to you, and the fault is mine. I won't let go. But if you say that you can't accept that I am intersex, you won't be able to accept it from the beginning, even if I have the surgery in the future.
If you can't accept it, then please tell me and I won't pester you."
Zhuo Jing's eyes made it difficult for me to see clearly at the moment, but the cold voice still reached my ears clearly, and each word touched my heart: "How do you ask me to accept the truth that you are intersex in that environment? If
What do you want to hear? Let me tell you that at that moment, I was...disgusted."
nausea?
My body trembled uncontrollably, and I knew it was like this. What I feared the most was also like this. I lowered my eyes, all the blood vessels in my body were contracted and tightened, and my heart felt swollen and painful. I nodded: "You're disgusting."
Really, then I understand, don’t you care about this? Anything that lies to you is just an excuse. You might as well tell me clearly that in your eyes, I am just a freak and an intersex person.
A shemale, a..."
"Shut up!!"
Zhuo Jing suddenly became angry, stretched out his hand and clamped my chin violently. At that moment, I felt that the bones of my jaw were about to break: "What the hell do you want! I held it in my hand for fear of dropping it, so I held it in my hand.
My heart is filled with fear, and I wish that the person I had prayed for in my heart would not only give me a huge gift, but also let everyone in the room see it! Do you know that you are mine? What do you want me to do? Mine
The woman is not only a man, but everyone in the audience is witnessing it with me! If I can pretend that nothing happened, then I will admire myself! Lin Qiao, let me tell you, I never want to see you again in this life.
.”
I have never seen Zhuo Jing like this. I looked at his red eyes. He looked like he wanted to eat me crazily. I really collapsed. Before I could open my mouth, Zhuo Jing took a step closer to me with his eyes wide open.
: "I'm warning you, don't let me see this face again!"
After saying that, I felt my numb jaw loosen, and my whole body felt like a muscle cramp. An indescribable sadness and anger spewed out: "Zhuo Jing! You bastard!!!"
I screamed at the top of my lungs, my eyes stung by tears hurting and aching: "You are a bastard!!!"
I didn’t mean to let so many people see it. My sense of shame is higher than anyone else. Anyone can rub salt into my wounds and humiliate me as much as they want, but only Zhuo Jing
No, he can't be like that!!
Zhuo Jing gritted his teeth and looked at me: "It doesn't matter what I am. Didn't that Cheng Baize rush up to hug you? Didn't he already know what your body is like? You think it's disgusting.
Am I the only one?"
'Snapped'!!!
I slapped him directly, and the rain on his face was also slapped by me. This was not the first time I slapped someone, but the moment I slapped him, my heart started to hurt, and the rain on his face was also slapped by me.
The water droplets formed on my face, as if this slap hit me on the face!
"Asshole..." After I beat him, I lost my momentum, and there was some uncontrollable choking in my voice: "Zhuo Jing, you are a bastard..."
Didn't you say that you will hurt the enemy a thousand times and lose yourself eight hundred? I just want to know if Zhuo Jing will feel pain in his heart when he says these words again.
Zhuo Jing didn't move, his face was expressionless, but his eyes were already closed to strangers, "Is the fight over?"
My heart was tightly twisted together, and my vision was blurred. I kept reaching out to wipe it, but nothing could come out except intermittent crying.
"Remember, don't let me see you again."
After saying a harsh word, he turned around and left, but I directly stretched out my hand and grabbed his wrist: "Wait a minute..."
Zhuo Jing didn't look back, but still took my hand off his wrist with some disgust, "If you want to say anything else, aren't we both already hurting?"
My heart had already hit rock bottom as soon as he pushed me. I whispered as calmly as possible: "I have something for you."
As I said that, I dug my hand hard into my already soaked trouser pocket, took out the box, and stretched out my hand: "Keep this, you can keep this to ward off evil spirits. I will not appear in front of you again, and I will
It has nothing to do with you, and I won’t disturb your life, but you must accept this, it’s mine, thank you, thank you for taking care of me during this time..."
I know that I cannot love someone very hard, otherwise, that person will leave me. The more I am afraid of losing, the less I can have it. In my world, God only allows me to accompany myself.
Zhuo Jing still didn't respond. He picked up the box in my hand, opened it, looked at it, took out the needle and measured it carefully.
My mood eased a little. At least, he didn't reject the needle. "This is the sunbathing..." Before I could say anything, I saw Zhuo Jing's hand flicked to the side, along with the sunbathing needle.
The boxes were all thrown into the stagnant water flowing into the sewer beside the road.
"Hey! No!"
I reached out in vain to pick it up, but I only saw a small splash of water from the box. My mind went blank for a while. I ran over in a few steps and sat on my knees on the ground. After picking up the box, I kept groping in the water with my hands.
: "I'm having a needle...I'm having a needle..."
Zhuo Jing just glanced at me coldly, raised his feet, and walked away without looking back. (To be continued)