But before I could reach the elevator door, I felt a sting in my waist, like a moth eating bones. The knee of one leg instantly softened, and I knelt down without any strength left in my body.
"Jojo!! Jojo!!!"
When my sister-in-law and uncle saw me running and kneeling on one knee, they were so frightened that they called my name and ran towards me.
I put my hands on the ground and tried to stand up, but my waist had no strength at all. It was sore and soft, as if countless bugs were burrowing inside my body. My mouth was open and I couldn't even speak. I got out of the elevator.
People were shocked when they saw me. They thought I had an emergency, so they gathered around me and asked me what was wrong.
"You can't get out... Don't think about it. You can't break my spell. Have a good rest. This spell won't do you any harm..."
Cheng Baize's lazy voice came inexplicably to my ears, as if he was lying somewhere, looking at me through a surveillance video as if I was dying.
"Xiaobao, what should Xiaobao do..." I asked him in a low voice. In the eyes of the onlookers, it was more like talking to myself indistinctly.
This is the case with some things. If I choose not to donate from the beginning, then Xiaobao's life and death will indeed have nothing to do with me. No matter how hard it is to accept or how unpleasant the words are, I just won't listen. But since I have made the choice,
And I dare to say that if today’s matching is passed, I may prepare for the surgery as soon as possible tomorrow. If it is for non-human reasons, then I admit it. I can only feel sorry for Xiaobao, but I can obviously do it. In other words
In other words, it was Cheng Baize who cheated on me, so I felt so guilty that I really can’t express my feeling.
It doesn’t matter whether I want to donate or not, I just feel that I shouldn’t do this. The pressure at this moment is even stronger than when I was forced by my parents. It seems that I lied to Xiaobao. I can save him, but I can’t save him.
There is no difference between being a bitch and setting up an archway again!
"I don't care about others... To tell you the truth... Even if this kidney is donated... your brother is still alive... You are really capable... Just break it yourself... But whether he survives or not... it doesn't matter.
It has nothing to do with whether you donated the kidney..."
Cheng Baize's words came to my ears intermittently, but I didn't understand him. If I didn't donate, he wouldn't be able to survive!
The sweat on my forehead was flowing down my eyebrows. At that moment, I felt like a drug addict. My whole body was indescribably uncomfortable. Every pore on my body seemed to be gnawed by bugs with their fangs.
Bite, let alone stand up, I suddenly felt that I couldn't even kneel down.
"Jojo!!"
My brother-in-law ran to me, pushed aside the onlookers, and helped me up: "What's wrong with you!"
"I..." I opened my mouth and made a difficult sound with my tongue and teeth. I raised my eyes and saw a familiar face behind the crowd of onlookers: "Xu..."
Before he could say anything, his eyes immediately went dark.
very tired……
Seems really tired...
I seemed to be climbing a mountain again. In the layers of fog, I was panting from exhaustion as I climbed. I had had this dream before, so I thought that as long as I climbed down, I would see my grandma.
I don’t know how long I’ve been climbing. I could only vaguely see one step in front of me. I felt my mouth was dry and my calves were cramped. I couldn’t climb while standing, so I used my hands to support the steps in front of me.
Holding on and crawling, it seems like an endless road. I can't see hope and I don't know where the end is...
It's like the road I'm taking now, I can only vaguely see the way ahead, but I don't know if I should go on. I'm tired, really tired, so when I sit down, I have only one thought
, I won’t climb anymore, no matter what, I won’t climb anymore, whether it’s good or bad, I won’t climb anymore.
"Jiaolong, continue."
My grandma's voice came faintly to my ears, and I couldn't see anything except the thick white mist. When I opened my mouth, I realized that I was crying, and salty and astringent tears flowed into my mouth: "I won't crawl anymore.
I can't walk anymore..."
"Go on, if you don't walk, how do you know you can't walk anymore?"
I shook my head: "Why is there only one road and it's so difficult to walk? Grandma, I'm tired. Since it's a dream, why don't you let me have a good dream? I want to hug you. I feel like I haven't seen you for a long time."
Already."
The world seems to have always been like this, with cloudy skies and heavy white mist. When grandma was here, the world above my head became clear for a while. Grandma carried all the cloudy snow and rain for me. Grandma left, and my world
Then it became dim, until Zhuo Jing appeared, I thought I would never see such a sky again, but sunny days are always short-lived. Grandma, I don’t want such a sky anymore. I can’t look back, and I can’t see the way forward.
.
"Dreams come from the heart..." Grandma let out a long sigh: "If you go on, it will all pass."
I shook my head: "What shall I do, grandma? When will my life no longer be dominated by anyone?"
"Jiao Long, get up and look up."
I sniffed, stood up and turned around. The fog gradually dissipated, and the mountain road formed by steps pointed to a peak in the distance.
"When you stand up, you won't feel tired."
Grandma's voice still rings in my ears: "How can a person be free from the pain of the seven emotions and the burden of the six desires? You just need to remember that heaven and earth reincarnate, and everything does not matter right or wrong. What is owed to you will eventually be repaid to you. You
What you owe will eventually be repaid. Grandma understands this too late. She just wants you to be less trapped by inner demons. Things that you can't change have their destiny."
I looked at the misty peak from a distance: "Grandma, is it the most painful thing to be a human being? You always have to make some painful choices. It seems to be right, but it seems to be wrong. So what is right?
, what’s wrong again?”
"Hey...it doesn't matter what's right or wrong, it's all determined." Grandma sighed again: "You haven't arrived yet, go back..."
The pain in my waist came out instantly. My eyelids moved twice, but I didn't want to wake up. Maybe grandma has transcended, but I am still a mortal body, and I can't understand it!
"Oh my god, Huijuan'er, please stop crying. You're going blind from crying. Oh, if my Anqi hadn't just gone out and couldn't come back, her kidney would be fine.
She donated it. Please call me now. She’s already worried. She’s just worried that something might happen to her brother. I told her yesterday that my sister Xiaobao is back and she doesn’t need to worry about her kidneys. Who knows?
, how can she still have a tumor in her kidney? Why do you think she has to develop it now if it doesn't grow sooner or later?"
I opened my eyes directly. As long as she is in Lin Xinyun's place, you can't live in peace. (To be continued)