I felt my eyelids were a little heavy, so I opened a gap with all my strength, but I felt white light shining in, "Sister-in-law..."
My sister-in-law reached out and touched my head, and said softly: "Wake up, that's all. You should have a good rest now and don't go out and wander around. What should I do if I suddenly faint outside."
"faint?"
My eyes adjusted to the light in the ward, but I couldn't help but frown. My head hurt. I looked at my sister-in-law sitting next to my hospital bed: "Why did I faint?"
My sister-in-law sighed: "That's what it is like to be sick. If you don't know you are sick, you will treat yourself like a good person. But as soon as you are diagnosed, you will feel a lot of pressure and the disease will appear. You ran out to find your good friend yesterday afternoon, probably
You were so excited that you fainted while you were chatting. Your good friend carried you back to the hospital, which scared us to death."
"Did she carry me back to the hospital?" I repeated my sister-in-law's words dumbly, but suddenly I remembered something was wrong, sat up, and felt dizzy: "Yesterday?!!!"
My sister-in-law was startled by my actions and quickly reached out to support me: "Yes, it was yesterday. What happened to you?"
"Where's Xiaobao!!!"
I looked around and saw that this was Xiaobao's ward. Yesterday, I was lying here eavesdropping on what my mother and aunt were talking about. Xiaobao was lying in the ward next to me, but now Xiaobao is missing!!
Xu Meijin went to transplant Xiaobao’s kidney?!!
"Xiaobao has gone for surgery. I will stay here to take care of you. Don't worry, this hospital..."
I shook my head and lifted up the quilt to get off the ground: "Sister-in-law, was it Xu Meijin who replaced the kidney for Xiaobao? Ah, was it Xu Meijin!!"
If Xu Meijin transplants Xiaobao's kidney, how will I face her in this life!
My sister-in-law was probably a little overwhelmed by my excitement. She supported me with her hands and kept saying: "Qiaoqiao, what's wrong with you? At first, I was going to ask your friend to change Xiaobao, but...
Later, when the source of kidneys from corpses was found, your friend’s kidneys were not used..."
"No need for Xu Meijin?" I looked at my sister-in-law with a trembling voice: "Did Xiaobao find a kidney source from a corpse?"
My sister-in-law nodded: "Yes, I originally planned to use your friend. Your friend also said that she was ready. But after you fainted and were sent back yesterday afternoon, the hospital received a call that there was a suitable corpse.
Considering that the risk of living donor transplantation is too great, and two people are bearing the risk at the same time, the hospital decided to use cadaver kidneys. But your friend is very good. She stayed here to take care of you until this morning.
Xiaobao pushed into the operating room before leaving. She also said that if she can be used in the future, she can help with anything... Qiaoqiao, why are you crying..."
"I don't know either……"
I murmured in response, stretched out my hand and hugged my sister-in-law, "Sister-in-law, please let me hug you."
My sister-in-law patted my back gently: "I know, you are worried about Xiaobao, right? Don't worry, this is a big hospital, there will be no problems with the surgery."
I didn't speak, only tears kept flowing. I didn't know why I was crying, or in other words, I thanked God. If it was really Xu Meijin who donated the kidney, I really felt like I was forced to have no other choice.
.
Along the way, first my parents forced me, which made me feel chilled but also scared. However, Xiaobao made it impossible for me to say no anymore. Then Cheng Baize helped me avoid it in another way, which in disguise increased the pain in my heart.
I felt guilty, and then Xu Meijin popped up, and I was really at a loss.
I don’t want to owe anyone anything, and I’m also afraid that donating a kidney will affect my ability to be an onmyoji. I’m just an ordinary person. I don’t know what to do. I don’t have any ideas. I seem to be criticized by many people.
Everything was led by the nose, under the guise of being good for me and not good for me. My feeling of powerlessness came from the bottom of my heart and spread infinitely. From the moment I knew that Cheng Baize had put a poison on my body, I seemed to be hypocritical.
I knew deep down in my heart that I didn’t want to donate, but I ran into a trap and made Xiaobao’s life directly dependent on me.
This feeling really tortures me to death. I don't know what is right or wrong in an instant. Letting Cheng Baize go down is like watching Xiaobao die. I want to break the curse, but I feel
I feel like a clown again. I want to set up a sign of great love for myself, but I obviously don’t want to donate!
Coupled with the sudden appearance of Xu Meijin, I was even more at a loss. All the fingers were pointed at me in an instant. They seemed to let me see the dark side of my own humanity in disguise, and then pushed me to a place where morality and humanity
of abyss.
At this moment, I am really lucky and thank God. All the entanglements and struggles have burst out at this moment. I am really afraid that if I cannot donate and Xu Meijin donates, I will be left with a shadow for the rest of my life.
ah!
"Don't cry, Qiao Qiao. Crying too much is not good for your health. It's okay. Don't worry. The baby will be admitted to the ICU immediately after he is pushed out. As long as one week passes, he will pass the dangerous period. We are all
I hope Xiaobao can survive in good health, he is also the hope of our Lin family, right?"
My sister-in-law was still comforting me softly. She thought I was worried about my little baby, but actually I was trying to save myself.
Growing up is a bloody process, and the light in my life is always fleeting, but I thank God for not pushing me into the abyss or making me immortal.
I don’t know how long I cried, but my breathing in my chest finally became smoother. My sister-in-law took a tissue and wiped my face with a soft smile on her lips: “Okay, don’t cry anymore. I won’t look good after crying.
Tsk tsk, with such a handsome face, you are crying as if you are heartbroken. Besides, your brother is still in the operating room, so the meaning of your crying is not good."
I sniffed, took the tissue and wiped it myself: "Sister-in-law, actually I feel that I am very useless and cowardly. I am very afraid of donating a kidney to Xiaobao...I..."
"Okay, needless to say, everyone is afraid of this. An Qi is also afraid. She doesn't even dare to come back. Hey, you are already very good. My sister-in-law can see it better than anyone else, but she just doesn't want to say it out loud.
In fact, to put it harshly, An Qi's feelings for Xiaobao should be deeper than yours. She has watched Xiaobao grow up, but it's not the same. She is naturally uncomfortable if she is soft-hearted, and she even gives herself a lot of pain invisibly.
Even if you are under great pressure and your heart is hard, why don't you live a good life? Don't put too much pressure on yourself."
I nodded. My sister-in-law's words really made me feel relieved. The pressure before was really not as high as usual.
"Sister-in-law, how did you find this kidney source?"
The sister-in-law's expression suddenly became a little hesitant: "Um... this..."