"Ma Jiaolong, I don't want to lie to you, because you are my only friend, and lying to my only friend is very tiring. Of course, I didn't want to tell you at first, because I thought you might scold me.
Nosy, but in fact, I am indeed a bit nosy with you."
"Please can you be concise and to the point."
"It's very simple. It takes seven, seven and forty-nine days to develop the heart voodoo. In fact, it doesn't make any sense whether you break the voodoo or not, because your ability to break the voodoo only solves my single-line ability to sense your pain.
The important thing is that you can't show your affection to Zhuo Jing again in the future, otherwise, if you think about it, your heart will hurt. The deeper you use your affection, the more painful it will be, until..."
"how."
"It erodes the heart and burns the bones, and the pain makes you wish you could live."
"You're a pervert, you!"
"Since you have chosen Onmyoji, you naturally have to keep a distance from Zhuo Jing. He is a man with evil bones. Being close to him means being close to harm. You are in conflict with each other. I am doing this just because I am afraid that you will get better one day.
The scar forgets to hurt."
I was really angry: "Cheng Baize, you are boring, you know, even if I want to forget Zhuo Jing, I don't need your help!"
"I'm doing it for your own good. Besides, when I first cast the poison, I just didn't want you to lose a kidney for no reason."
I really had nothing to say at that time and looked at Cheng Baize: "You know, I hate this sentence very much. I am doing this for your own good. I know what to do in the future. I don't need you to wake me up."
I!"
Cheng Baize looked at me as if he should take it for granted: "I do do it for your own good. You are a girl. Many times..."
"I can also choose to be a man."
I looked at him with a cold face: "I don't have to be a woman, Cheng Baize, I regard you as my best friend, but sometimes I really don't need your self-righteous kindness, but for your kind
Erxin, I thank you, but I really don’t need it! I am my own person, and I don’t need a Gu to control me!!”
"Why, do you think you are a man if you have a man's penis? Ma Jiaolong, do you know what is the most worrying thing about you? You are too indecisive. You are a pure girl at heart.
!I’m just doing this to sue you. You won’t touch it until you know it hurts. This is a truth that even children understand!”
I took a deep breath. To be honest, I never thought that one day I would have such a fierce quarrel with Cheng Baize, and the location would be the entrance to a cemetery on the outskirts of the city.
"My heart is indeed fragile, but I am not a pure girl like you said! I also have responsibilities and my own ideas. What I don't like most now is to be manipulated by others. This heart belongs to me, even if I don't like it.
Like Zhuo Jing, it's all my own business, and I don't need this Lao Shi Zi Gu to make me feel pain. It's all bullshit that I feel the pain of a single thought! I don't need you to know!!"
"You have a guilty conscience."
"Yes, I feel guilty! I just want to tell you that the matter between me and Zhuo Jing has nothing to do with you. You have no such right!"
Cheng Baize shrugged and looked at me speechless: "Okay, I don't have this right. You can break it yourself within 7749 days. I just want to tell you the truth. If you are angry, it only means that you are
If you can't forget him, you know you are useless."
After saying that, he turned around and got into the car directly, expressing his anger with a strong slam of the door.
I stood there, shaking with inexplicable anger. To be honest, I felt that Cheng Baize and I had an inexplicable quarrel. He was right that he wanted to help me forget Zhuo Jing. I also wanted to forget it, but I just couldn't control it.
, I don’t know what’s going on, maybe it’s what he said, I feel guilty, I really don’t want a Gu to see through my mind.
Even if I see Zhuo Jing quietly one day in the future, I still have a reaction in my heart. Then the pain will be gone for a while. Why do I have to feel so heartbroken and miserable again? My mind is really messed up. I myself
Why should I rely on a Gu to control my thoughts? It's like a deeply hidden secret is forced to be made public. I really can't explain this feeling.
No wonder he never said what happened to this Gu. Who needs him to meddle in other people's business!
"I'm a waste. I've fallen in love with such a man since I grew up. How can I just forget about it? I have to be entrusted with him for the rest of my fucking life. You know what the heck."
While I was walking to Sun Guizhen's cemetery with the paper flowers and flowers, I was gnashing my teeth and cursing Cheng Baize. I used to think that Cheng Baize was quite cute with his kind humor and dimples, but now when I think about what he just said, I feel that it's not ordinary.
Geying, even shabby people don’t use curse words. I’m a pure girl and a loser. It’s none of your business!!
I found Sun Guizhen's tomb according to the cemetery number. After kneeling down, I placed the flowers on it. My mind was still thinking about the scolding battle with Cheng Baize just now. Thinking about it made me very angry. After arguing for a while, Thirteen suffered a little.
It has no meaning at all.
In fact, to put it bluntly, if you dig deeper, I may just be angry at the feeling of being led by others. Ever since I was forced by my parents to donate a kidney to Xiaobao, I began to feel particularly disgusted with this feeling.
This feeling of not being able to choose by myself, I am my own, my people, my heart, and my feelings for Zhuo Jing. I really don’t need Cheng Baize’s kind-hearted enlightenment to remind me, right or wrong.
It's my path, I just want to walk it by myself, that's all.
When I came back to my senses, I didn’t know when the paper had been set on fire by myself. I went back and found a branch, stuck it in the paper, tossed it for a few times, and opened my mouth: “I’m sorry, Grandma Sun, I
I was distracted just now, I’m here to follow you...cough cough cough!!"
The wind that was originally going down seemed to have suddenly changed its direction, and the smoke from Mingzhi hit me directly in the face. I choked and coughed immediately. I tried to get up in a hurry, but my knees seemed to be nailed.
I felt like I was in front of a grave, unable to move at all. Within a few seconds, I was choked by the thick smoke from this powerful engine and burst into tears...
At that moment, two words came to my mind: It’s bad!
I shouldn't have been thinking about other things when I knelt down just now. Sun Guizhen would definitely be able to feel my insincerity. Thinking about it, I burst into tears and opened my eyes hard. Just when I was about to open my mouth to admit my mistake, I suddenly felt all over.
Tight, through the smoke of the burning paper, I actually saw a thin old lady wearing a hospital gown standing in front of the tombstone!!
In fact, thinking about it later, when people stand in front of tombstones, they are like standing in front of their own homes. That is a normal thing. Maybe they are lonely and want to go out and relax.
But we were separated from each other by a pot of burning paper. This scared me so much that my liver actually trembled! (To be continued)