Tears welled up in the corners of his eyes for no apparent reason. My grandfather looked at me from the side with confusion: "Jiaolong, what happened to you? What did you do just now? Why are you leaving corpses everywhere?"
I sighed: "There is a catastrophe."
"Where are we? Hurry up and tell people where we are."
I shook my head: "Not here, it's far away. I can't stop it."
Grandpa frowned: "Why can't you stop it? Now that we know it, let's stop it. Will someone die?"
I nodded and turned to look at my grandpa: "Grandpa, my grandma named me Jiaolong when I was young. It means that I have a calamity to survive. But in fact, it's not just me. Everyone has a calamity to survive.
Whether you can hide or not depends on the blessings in your life. The mountains are high and the roads are far away, and I am an ordinary person. Who will believe my words? Those who know that I am an Onmyoji, and those who don’t know still think that I am an onmyoji.
The lunatic is spreading rumors, so you’d better wish for yourself.”
It's strange to say that I know that I have such predictive ability, such as the matter of Lao Mao's ancestral graves, but it has never risen to this level. Moreover, such predictions, even if calculated, are not in line with the time and place.
One person's power, or in other words, the ability of ordinary people cannot change it at all, but I feel it, what is this trying to tell me?
Grandpa frowned and listened to my words. After a long while, he opened his mouth and said, "What on earth is going on?"
I looked at my grandpa and said, "You will know when the time comes.
When I was going down the mountain, I kept thinking, the world is so big, and if I, Ma Jiaolong, are capable in the future, it will only happen in the future. Moreover, I can feel the freedom of being strong, and others who are more capable than me can also feel it.
But how can humans change this kind of natural disaster? People have to survive the disaster, and this world also has to survive the disaster. Only by enduring the great tragedy can we be reborn from the ashes in the future. But this process is too bloody, I don’t know.
Other onmyojis can predict the state of mind at these times, but I am really extremely depressed, with a feeling of courage but powerlessness.
I sat in front of my grandma's grave for a whole day. Firstly, it felt like I hadn't been here for a long time and I wanted to be with my grandma. Secondly, I kept thinking, if I really have the powerful ability of Onmyoji in the future, what will happen to me?
How to use——
Looking at my grandma's grave, I seemed to suddenly understand why my grandma stayed in the countryside all her life and only did small things that seemed to me before. Because the more a person knows, the more tired he will be. Some things can change once they are known.
No, it is better to live your own life quietly, just like my grandma once said, you must know your own abilities, otherwise, before you save others, you will hurt yourself first, accumulate small kindnesses, and make things convenient for others, so that you can cross the river.
When we were riding back in the car, Zong Bao, who was sitting next to me, looked at me sideways, as if he wanted to say something, but he never opened his mouth.
Grandpa was sitting inside and fell asleep. I glanced at Zong Bao and said, "What do you want to say?"
Zong Bao didn't speak, but looked at me.
I breathed out: "What did Lao Xian'er tell you that I know?"
Zong Bao nodded: "Those who can be saved will naturally be saved. Don't be ignorant of the heights of the world."
I frowned: "What do you mean."
Zong Bao turned his face: "The natural disaster is unstoppable."
Of course I know, and my prediction does not have an accurate time. I only know a general direction in general. I don’t know the exact address. How can I stop it? I am not a madman——
"Zong Bao, did Lao Xian'er tell you whether I can be a good Onmyoji?"
Zong Bao didn't respond. After a long while, he nodded: "Of course, you were personally chosen by the three great immortals. Otherwise, how could you come as soon as you are invited?"
I sighed: "Then when will I really look like an Onmyoji?"
"The dragon soared into the sky, its power was like breaking bamboo."
But I laughed, a little self-deprecating: "Maybe I really have too much expectations for myself, my sense of mission is too strong and a bit extreme, am I not like an Onmyoji now? Forget it, by the way
It’s natural.”
Zong Bao nodded expressionlessly and glanced at me: "Yes, let nature take its course."
I stopped answering and squinted for a while with my eyes closed. In fact, my mind was a little confused. I knew that my fate would be clear this year, and I also knew that many things would become clear from this year, but my future was still full of uncertainty.
Certainty, the saddest thing about Onmyoji is that I can't see my own fate. I don't know what I will be like.
…
As soon as I helped my grandpa get out of the taxi, the sound of quarrels in the yard could be heard. Grandpa, who had been sleeping all the way, looked helpless when he heard the voice: "This kind of thing doesn't stop all day long."
"Ma Huijuan, let me tell you, this is not only your family, but also my family! Dazhi is my brother, why should I buy some wine for my brother? It will be in your way!"
My mother angrily pointed to the second floor: "Do you know that he has alcoholic liver disease now? You still want him to harden, drink, drink, drink! Do you want him to drink to death?" She shouted, her eyes widening in anger:
"You killed my son and you want to kill my husband, you"
This kind of quarrel is by no means the first time, but this time it is more serious. Zong Bao and I helped my grandfather walk to the yard. His legs would be numb after sitting in the car for a long time. But in the yard
The two women were so busy arguing that they didn't even notice that we were back.
"You said that again! Ma Huijuan! I can see it. I can't hold my heart back from you! I've already regretted Xiaobao's departure. Kneel down and bow, what else do you want me to do?"
, do you have to hold on to it? It’s been almost half a year. As soon as I dreamed about that child, I asked him, Bao’er, do you hate your aunt? That child shook his head at me, did you hear it?
He shook his head at me. Even my children don’t hate me. Why do you hate me so much? Even my children know that I had good intentions!!!”
My aunt shouted so hard that she couldn't breathe evenly. She looked at her mother's chest and kept fanning: "You can't make me feel better! You have to make this family chicken and dog uneasy, right?"
Her mother gritted her teeth and looked at her: "Is it me who is restless or you who are restless? Even if I don't mention Little Bao'er's matter, if Dazhi lets you buy wine secretly and drink it, you will definitely be dead!!"
"Ouch!!" The aunt patted her leg: "Isn't it just alcoholic liver disease? Several gentlemen don't have it. Doesn't my Dawei also have alcoholic liver disease? Isn't that fine? You just
You have to follow me, Qiang Qiang, to be satisfied, right?"
"Stop arguing!" Grandpa yelled fiercely, which was able to attract the attention of the two people: "I can't stop for a while every day. At such an old age, let the younger generation see what it is like!"
Mom opened her mouth: "Dad, it's not me who wants to quarrel, it's her, she wants Dazhi's life!"
The aunt put her hands on her chest: "What a joke, I will kill my brother, I know more about it than you do!"
"Okay!" The uncle walked out of the house impatiently and glared at the aunt: "We are not cheap people. We spent money to buy wine and made a mistake. We met this ignorant sister-in-law.
There's no point in talking about it."
As he said that, seeing his mother about to speak again, the eldest uncle waved his hand: "Okay, okay, you don't have to work hard anymore, let's just separate the families. Everyone appreciates it. It saves me the money that I have to spend on the big family now."
The money for the car will be used to maintain it, and our family will no longer do the thankless work. I will go on a long trip first, and when I come back, we will calculate it carefully and figure out who should move it!"
After saying that, he glanced at his aunt again: "Xinyun, it will take more than half a month for me to come back from my long-distance trip this time. When I come back, remember to settle all the accounts clearly. No matter how close the relationship is, I can't stand it.
It’s so noisy! I won’t say anything since my parents have come to live here. I can’t stand it if it’s still so noisy!”
Grandpa looked at him and was about to open his mouth, but I suddenly pulled him back and looked at the uncle who was about to walk out of the yard and opened his mouth: "Stop."
The eldest uncle paused for a moment, then turned to look at me: "Well, it's not over yet, right? Now I feel like you, Lao Ma, have a lot of family members, so that's why you're excited!"
I stiffened my neck, my face darkened, and I looked straight at him: "I'm not in the mood to get into trouble with you, I just want to say something to you. Once this train leaves, there will be no return." (To be continued)