Suddenly I heard my grandpa say this, and I almost pushed the door open on impulse and went in!
"Xiao Bai, I actually know everything. I'm just afraid that this child Jiaolong will worry about me. Isn't it Alzheimer's disease? We have it in our village. I've seen it all. In the later period, I don't understand anything anymore. Shit.
She has to be taken care of even when she urinates. Aren't I causing trouble for Jiaolong? I figured it out and entrusted her to you. I want to go find her grandma before I cause her any trouble.
Just myself..."
"Grandpa!!! What did you say!!!"
I pushed open the door of the ward and looked at my grandpa: "What do you want to do by yourself!!"
My grandpa was startled by me. He sat on the hospital bed and looked at me: "You, why are you back?!"
"Why am I back?" I walked up to my grandfather and said, "If I don't come back, I don't know where you will leave me!"
Grandpa looked at me and frowned: "What are you talking about? Grandpa here..."
I was so angry that my chest was going to explode. I saw my grandpa panting heavily, and tears burst out from my eyes: "You are the only one left here! Grandpa! Do you have the heart to leave me!!!"
Grandpa suddenly stretched out his hand and patted the quilt: "Jiaolong! What did grandpa do for such a long time? In the end, he will be like a dementia and stupid. Grandpa doesn't want that! Isn't that a burden to your parents and to you?
!”
Cheng Baize stretched out his hand and pulled me: "Jiaolong, don't worry, I will advise grandpa."
I shook off his hand and looked at my grandfather with blurred eyes: "Grandpa, if you have the heart to leave me alone in this world, then I will never forgive you in this life."
"How can you be alone? Don't you have your parents and Xiaobai? Grandpa is getting older. Grandpa is really..."
"But there is only one grandpa!!!" I really collapsed and wiped my tears so that I could see my grandpa's face clearly: "You and grandma are the only ones who raised me! If you follow grandma again! Then I will be the only one.
What’s the point of living?”
"Asshole!!"
My grandfather was also angry and stared at me: "You are still young, you have a long way to go, you have a lot of meanings, and I can't help you with my old bones. How can I still watch myself stupid!!
"
Cheng Baize put his arm around my shoulders and lent me some strength to keep me standing. He looked at his grandfather and helped to persuade him: "Grandpa, that's not what I said. You are Jiaolong's spiritual support. If
Now that you are gone, I can guarantee that this blow is unimaginable for Jiaolong, and your disease is not as serious as imagined, and the course of the disease is very long. As long as you take a little care and attention, you will not become like you.
That’s what I said.”
Grandpa opened his mouth and looked at me: "Jiaolong..."
I sniffed hard, pushed Cheng Baize aside, and watched my grandpa grit his teeth and open his mouth: "Old Ma Tou, let me tell you, if you dare to have the idea of staying with grandma now, then I will follow you.
I’ll go down and accompany you later. If you don’t believe me, just give it a try.”
…
"Okay, don't feel bad. Grandpa has figured it out. You cried, made trouble, and hanged yourself. He was afraid that something would happen to you."
At noon, Cheng Baize and I were sitting side by side under the shade of the trees downstairs in the hospital. He looked at me and said, "Besides, if your grandpa had that idea before, it was entirely for your consideration."
I took a deep breath and calmed down my emotions. I turned to look at Cheng Baize and gently held the corner of my mouth: "Thank you. If you weren't here, maybe I wouldn't have known how to end it just now and shouted too loudly.
Already."
Cheng Baize smiled: "I don't know what will happen. You are not outsiders. Maybe if I weren't there, the family affection between you would be more complete."
I said, "Pull him down. It's not acting. What's going on?"
After sitting for a while, Cheng Baize looked at me and suddenly said: "Hey, the day for you to change your life is coming soon."
I was a little dazed: "Why are you asking this?"
"I still want to show you." Cheng Baize responded carelessly: "I want to see how powerful you are in the future."
I sneered: "You should rest a while, no matter which sect you belong to, even if there are no taboos, it is best not to see it among relatives and friends. This is a taboo."
Cheng Baize sighed deeply: "Oh, I just want to know what the fate of people who are born with yin and yang is, but it has become a taboo."
"Who told you to be friends with me?"
I stood up and looked at him: "However, I still thank you for my grandpa's matter. Starting from the Chinese New Year, no matter how busy you are, you come to my house almost once a month. Hey, I..."
"Okay, you changed the topic too quickly. I had already diverted myself from this, but why did you come back to me again?"
I held the corner of my mouth and looked at him: "Is this the truth? I should have thanked you in the first place. In fact, you were in a hurry every time you came to my house. I should have taken you for a walk around the county town to look around. Hey,
There is a farmhouse here that is particularly famous, which is..."
Cheng Baize waved his hand: "Okay, just stop talking. I understand what you mean, okay? Let's stop making nonsense. It's not like I haven't been to Anton before."
"Have you been to Anton? When."
Cheng Baize's expression paused for a moment, then he smiled and said, "Why, when did you come to see me?"
"No, aren't you from the south? Why did you come to our small county town when you have nothing to do?"
"Most Onmyojis travel around the world. Naturally, my master and I have been everywhere."
"That's right." I nodded: "Let me tell you, you can find my mother's home address after I tell you."
"That's where the car is located."
Cheng Baize responded speechlessly, but his face immediately darkened, and he suddenly became serious when he looked at me: "Hey, Ma Jiaolong, can I ask you something?"
"What's going on? You're so serious. You ask." I took out my phone and looked at the time. I should go to the doctor soon to inquire about the results of my grandpa's condition.
"That... you..."
"Why are you still hesitating? Tell me."
Cheng Baize cleared his throat: "Please let go of Zhuo Jing completely now."
My hand holding the phone tightened instantly, without even raising my eyes, I said directly: "You've been holding it for so long and you're asking this? It's boring."
"Is it human nature? I've never heard you mention it. Naturally, if you have such a little curiosity, you... put it down."
I stood there motionless, my ears filled with the noisy cries of summer cicadas. After a long while, I opened my mouth and said, "I can't remember."
After saying that, I raised my face and looked at him: "Come on, come with me to find the doctor."
Cheng Baize's expression was unspeakably complicated, "You really can't remember?"
I didn't answer and didn't want to say anything more. I walked directly to the hospital. The real answer was not that I couldn't remember, but that I couldn't forget it. But, so what? (To be continued)