I sat cross-legged on the ground and muttered to myself: "A flash of blood, a moment of disaster, and a heart-wrenching calamity, all based on one thought."
This is what Lao Xian'er said to me, but I don't quite understand what it means. Does it mean that my inability to solve the disaster is all based on one thought?
I stood up holding on to the wall. At this moment, I felt that whether or not this disaster could be broken was a trivial matter. The big thing was how could Cheng Baize be related to my bloody disaster! Did he still want to kill me?
I was thinking so wildly, and when I walked out of the corner of the corridor, it felt like there was a lot of hair stuffed into my heart, which made me feel uncomfortable. I raised my eyes, and just when I didn't know whether to leave or stay, I saw the door of Cheng Baize's studio. I don't know when the four doors were opened.
Immediately I paused, and I felt an inexplicable feeling, because there were no lights on in the studio. When I looked inside from the corridor, it looked like some unknown species was waiting for something with its big black mouth open. Little White Rabbit went to die, and I was a little scared. I don't know why I was scared. Maybe it was because after Xu Meijin was injured, no matter how good a friend I am, I will always be so defensive.
Even at this moment, his brain began to run a little uncontrollably, and he began to think about things out of control. Maybe Cheng Baize was bitten by something like a zombie, so his whole person became abnormal. He was no longer him, so he was going to be bitten to death. I?!
With a 'click' sound, the lights in the studio suddenly turned on. I was so nervous that I even took a step back in fear: "What's going on!"
"Where have you been?"
Immediately afterwards, Cheng Baize appeared at the door with a puzzled face, still holding the vegetables I packed in his hand: "When I opened the door just now, I found your things outside the door and why the person was missing."
I controlled my emotions a little, looked at his normal face at the moment, and wiped the sweat from my forehead: "Why did you turn off the lights in your studio just now? It's so dark, it's scary."
"Oh, it seemed that the circuit was unstable and tripped just now. I just went into the house and turned the switch on again." He said calmly, without looking at me anymore: "Come in."
I swallowed and said to myself secretly, Ma Jiaolong, you loser, who is he? He is Cheng Baize. He is a better person to you than your own brother. He has always taken care of you. You are the one who used the Vajra to rescue you and even used your own blood to draw the needle out of your body. And your grandfather, wasn’t he the one who drove thousands of miles to see you again and again? If he wanted to do anything to you, he would have done it early. Just take action, why wait until now! You are still afraid, even if you are afraid of anyone, you should not be afraid of him!
"What are you doing? Come in."
Seeing that I was still hesitating in place, Cheng Baize said another sentence in the studio that was neither salty nor bland.
I hummed, took a deep breath, and strode in. I pushed open the door of Cheng Baize's office. I was slightly startled. The lights in his office were still turned off, but the four corners of the coffee table in front of the sofa were still on. I lit a few scented candles, the candlelight was flickering, and the artistic conception was quite good, but my heart felt like thunder at the moment, and I always felt that something was going to happen!
Cheng Baize didn't raise his head to look at me. Instead, he opened the food I had packed and started eating on the coffee table without saying anything. He didn't know what he was thinking.
"Why are you lighting wax? It can easily cause a fire."
I stood at the door without moving, looked at him and asked directly.
"To prevent myself from seeing things I don't want to see."
This got me around, "Since you don't want to see it, there's no point in lighting a candle. There's still light."
He didn't respond. He didn't talk much like him. I was a little anxious. I took a deep breath, closed the office door, walked directly to the sofa and sat across from him: "Cheng Baize, what's wrong with you?"
Cheng Baize lowered his eyes and took another two bites of the food, then opened his mouth and said, "You know, you are my most attentive and only friend."
I looked at him through the dim candlelight: "I know, you are also my best friend."
"But you are the only one for me."
He uttered a sentence, wiped his mouth with a tissue, and then put down his chopsticks: "Because you are the only one, so I cherish it extremely, Ma Jiaolong, you know, I have lived for twenty-five years, and you are from me."
The person who takes the most stuff.”
I looked at his face, the candlelight was swaying slightly, and his body was mostly sitting in the shadows, but his eyes were unusually bright, and he opened his mouth: "I know, I am very grateful to you, but now I
I don’t know how to repay you, we are lifelong friends, from now on, I..."
"I never thought about asking you to repay me. It was wishful thinking that I was good to you. But, I regret it now. Can you give me back what I gave you..."
I didn't understand what he meant: "Cheng Baize, I don't understand, how can I return it to you? Aren't we always very good friends? Can you tell me what happened to you and why?
You were leaving when you were in the hotel, why are you saying these words to me now?!"
Where did this whole thing come from!
Cheng Baize lowered his eyes and said, "Why did you come to the city last year? Since your grandma told you not to let you come to the city, why are you still coming? If you didn't come, I would leave after one year, but you
Why are you provoking me..." As he said that, Cheng Baize actually looked up at me and smiled sadly: "Ma Jiaolong, you know, you took the wrong step and it's not just you who is hurt."
What he said really made it harder and harder for me to understand. I looked at him: "What on earth do you want to say? I also know that I shouldn't have come to the city last year, but I have come. I feel that although I am
It’s not all happy things here, but I got to know you, Cheng Baize, I think the thing I regret the least about coming to the city is getting to know you!”
"Shut up!!"
Cheng Baize suddenly yelled at me: "But this is the thing I regret the most!"
I was stunned: "Do you regret knowing me?"
"Yes, I regret meeting you."
Under the candlelight, his face was unusually pale: "Ma Jiaolong, from today on, you can choose to hate me, dislike me, or even curse me to a bad death. I will not blame you, because we will never meet again.
No longer friends."
"Why."
But he suddenly twitched the corner of his mouth: "No reason."
"You are my best friend!"
I couldn't control my emotions: "Do you know that you are the only one left in me? You said that even if Cheng Baize dies, you will not regard me as an enemy and will treat me as a friend all your life! You also said,
Even if everyone in the world says that I, Ma Jiaolong, am annoying, and even you think that I am annoying, as long as I speak, as long as you are here, you will appear in my sight! You have forgotten what you said.