After crying a lot, I felt a lot better. Xiao Tian immediately called Zong Bao to tell him that the contract was cancelled, and then asked Zong Bao tactfully how I was doing. Zong Bao prescribed hands-free, and I was twitching at that time.
As he was relieving his last emotions, he glanced at me and then replied to his phone: "Oh, Jiaolong is fine, he's just not in good spirits..."
"Really? My boss seems to have a mental problem. Just now he smashed everything in the office and held a staff meeting. We have to work overtime continuously this week!" Xiao Tian said in a full tone.
He was depressed: "Zong Bao, does this matter have something to do with Jiaolong?"
"Um..." Zong Bao glanced at me, saw me looking at him, and then cleared his throat: "I think it doesn't matter. You guys work overtime to generate income. Besides, working hard is a good thing. Okay,
Let’s not talk about that for now. Thank you for calling me to inform me about the contract. I’ll leave it for now.”
"Oh, okay...hey, Zongbao!!"
"What's wrong?"
"Well... I think it seems that Jiaolong and my boss have not forgotten each other, so we might as well stay together. In this way, we don't have to be implicated, right? The boss's mood has improved, and our lives have improved.
It will be better of course."
Zong Bao glanced at me furtively, and seeing that my mood was calm, he immediately opened his mouth and said, "We don't understand emotional matters, so don't worry about it. Let's talk later."
"Okay, let's talk later."
Zong Bao put down his cell phone and looked at me: "You heard me, the guy over there is not much better than you. He just cries and becomes angry and vents his anger there. Xiao Tian and the others have forgotten it."
I pulled the paper towel and wiped the water stains on the steering wheel without saying a word.
Zong Bao scratched his cheek: "I don't understand. What are you doing to make yourself so uncomfortable? Why are you crying so loudly? You also showed me that an adult can cry like a child. At first I
I thought it was people like Xiao Bei who could cry, but now it seems that you two are on par."
I still didn't answer, I felt a little better, but I didn't want to say anything.
"Jiaolong, don't blame me for being talkative. I really don't like to talk, but today I have to say a few more words to make everything clear to you. In fact, there is no need to be so entangled even if we break up. You said you and Zhuo Jing are like this
What are you being pretentious about? You always say you can’t explain it to me. So what can’t be explained? Is there anything in the world that can’t be explained clearly? Just tell Zhuo Jing about your situation. If he can accept it, he will accept it.
If he can't accept it, then you don't have any regrets when you leave, right? Why are you torturing your body like this? And when I see my master like this, I feel depressed. I just go from positive to positive.
Onmyoji has become a standard little resentful woman, and even I can’t stand it anymore, you know?”
I wiped the steering wheel carefully until Zong Bao's voice stopped, then I raised my eyes and looked at him: "It's not that I can't speak clearly, but that I can't say it out loud. Do you understand?"
Zong Bao shook his head and looked at me speechlessly: "I don't understand. You tell me and I listen. It's not a curse. Why can't I say it out loud?"
I looked into his eyes and gritted my teeth: "You know I have some objections to marriage, right?"
Zong Bao was startled for a moment, but still nodded: "I know, I always hear you saying that it's not easy to break, but you haven't told me in detail how difficult it is to break."
I breathed out: "Then let me tell you now, I have three ways to break the marriage evil spirit. I don't want to talk about the others, because they are not considered at all. I will only tell you the seemingly simplest one. As long as I follow
It’s okay if Zhuo Jing is together.”
"It's very simple, then you just stay with him."
"Yes, it's fine if we are together. Then why can't I say it? Now tell me why."
Zong Bao's eyes looked straight at me, and his face turned slightly red: "Yes, I have to have a baby. Let's have a baby."
I smiled helplessly: "Having a baby is a later matter, but I must go through the process of giving birth first, and I must go through the process in my current state, that is to say, without surgery.
As it is now, with Zhuo Jing you and I have everything, then, you know..."
Zong Bao's eyes were wide open, as if I was telling him something restricted, and his face turned red with embarrassment: "You have everything and I have everything?"
I said 'hmm' and looked directly into his eyes: "But Zhuo Jing said that he wanted to reconcile with me and let me have surgery tomorrow. What does this mean? It means that he hates the extra fat on my body.
Of course, his disgust is normal, but do you think that when he said such words, I can still open my mouth and say, Zhuo Jing, if I want to be with you, I must first break the marriage evil
, then, you first overcome your mental obstacles and follow me through the process of giving birth to a child?"
"..."
"First of all, I know that he dislikes me and can't say anything. Secondly, even if he feels reluctant, he seems to be able to overcome it. In my heart, does it make me feel better? I can easily cast a shadow on him. Maybe this
He has never done it in his life, and there is even a shadow on both of us. Zongbao, put aside my sense of mission and my dream of becoming an onmyoji, I will just talk about this matter, how should I talk to him."
Zong Bao looked at me and scratched his head after a long time: "It's really hard to say, but doesn't he love you?"
I smiled softly: "Maybe he loves me, but in his heart, what he loves most is me who is completely a woman, and now I am a stranger to him.
Yes, he may want to be with me, but if he has a choice, he will definitely dig out my body. I already know this, how can I say anything, because it is impossible for us to be together.
Is there any need to speak out, and do we still feel so disgusted with each other?"
Zong Bao nodded: "I understand, he still doesn't love me enough. You can accept love no matter what."
I looked out the window: "I don't deny that Zhuo Jing is excellent and has many qualities that attract me, but he is very egotistical. Maybe excellent people are more egoistic. He likes to have his own way and makes decisions for me. He thinks it is good.
He just let me accept it, but he never thought about whether I needed it or not."
Zong Bao glanced at me: "I think you two are very similar in some ways. Maybe you were trained by your living environment. You both have your own ideas."
Maybe I cried too much and my head hurt a little, "Maybe it's a bit similar, that's why we always get hurt in head-to-head confrontations. We all thought that some kind of explanation would be the best result for each other, but we never thought about it...
…Maybe it hurts deeper.”
"Hey, don't think about it. I won't ask you anymore. This matter is really hard to talk about. Let alone you, a girl. Even I can't say it. Let's go and go upstairs to rest."
I nodded and didn't say anything. The moment I opened the car door and got up, I felt that the scenery in front of me was blurry. I only heard Zong Bao shouting: "Hey... Jiaolong!!" and then I didn't know anything else. (Unfinished)