Opening my eyes, I thought about Zong Bao's words, but I didn't respond in a hurry.
When did I start to think that Cheng Baize was a very important friend? It probably started more than three years ago when I borrowed a vajra from him to retrieve the bones of Aunt Xuemei. We were not familiar with each other at that time, and the vajra was so important.
But he lent me my precious things. The first impression Cheng Baize gave me was that he was a very nice and kind person. He always had a smile on his face. He was the kind of person who would never show it no matter how depressed he was.
When I stood alone on the stage and was helpless to bear the criticism, he came out of thin air to save me.
When I wanted to donate a kidney to Xiaobao, he planted a poison in me just to keep the kidney. Although this matter has always made me very conflicted, it is undeniable that he did it for my own good.
And after my grandpa suffered a fracture, he came to accompany me again and again...
In my memory, the most difficult time he struggled was when he asked me to tell him that I hated him because he wanted to kill me, but in the end he did not do it. I will remember the affection of that palm for the rest of my life, even though it has no real meaning to me.
Master, but I know that once a teacher is a lifelong father, killing me was his master’s last wish. Although I don’t understand why his master asked him to kill me, that was the task his master gave him.
You disobeyed your teacher because of me.
Zong Bao kept saying that it was wrong for him to kill me. Human life can be taken at will. But in fact, Zong Bao didn't understand how difficult it was for Cheng Baize to take this step. He couldn't kill me, but disobeying the teacher's order was
It was disrespectful, and he had no choice but to bear the pain himself, and what I remember is the sentiment that Cheng Baize had to bear himself.
I am so lucky to have a friend like Cheng Baize. Although his appearance in Hong Kong made me upset, I still blame myself for this incident. It was the call I wanted to answer and see Zhuo Jing’s mother, but in fact, I thought,
If I didn't answer Zhuo Jing's cell phone, maybe his mother would do something else.
Although I had a quarrel with Cheng Baize in Hong Kong, I cannot deny that he is good for me. Regardless of Zong Bao's support or Cheng Baize's opposition, they are all for my good because my decision itself is contradictory.
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I don’t want to speculate on my friend, because I care about him. This kind of care cannot be described. He seems to be a person who appears in my life like a timely rain. Like Zong Bao, he is not my relative, but he is better than my relative. I
I want to believe that God finally took pity on me and sent me a few people I can rely on. Otherwise, how could I persist until today when I was surrounded by enemies?
If I were asked to describe it, I would like to say that Cheng Baize and I are like his dimples, lighting up my life warmly.
Probably because I didn't respond for a long time, Zong Bao's voice suddenly sounded again: "Why don't you speak?"
"I don't want to say it, because I think he is very good, I am very grateful to him, and I don't want to doubt my friend."
Zong Bao became quiet. He turned over and turned his back to me. Just when I thought he was going to completely turn on the silent mode, he suddenly sat up. His voice was filled with uncontrollable reluctance: "Jiaolong, I
I don’t deny your love for your friends. Like you, I both have very few friends, so I cherish them even more when I meet one. But as your bystander, I have something to say."
"The two men around you, one is Zhuo Jing and the other is Cheng Baize. I have no friendship with them. I only have friendship with you. I don't want you to be blinded by the so-called friendship. To be honest, Zhuo Jing
People are indeed arrogant and somewhat disgustingly arrogant, but he is true to you. Just look for you and look like that when he can't find you. I think he is true and he will not deal with his feelings for you.
, so he has been in head-to-head confrontation with you. Of course, what I want to say is that Zhuo Jing has exposed many shortcomings with you, but these shortcomings make me feel at ease. "
"But Cheng Baize is not. He is very scheming. I can't see through it. If a person is too beautiful, or in other words, too perfect, then it can only be said that he is pretending. It is impossible for a person to have no weaknesses. He is too good.
He gave me an image of being selfless and dedicated to you without any regrets but asking for nothing. Is this possible? You can’t start early without benefit. This is what my mother has told me since I was a child. Now I want to ask,
Why is Cheng Baize so kind to you? Do you really know him that well?"
I opened my mouth: "Zong Bao, what do you want to say."
"I want to say that either Cheng Baize has something in mind for you, or Cheng Baize can get something from you. No one in this world is nice to anyone for no reason."
"What about you, aren't you being nice to me for no reason?"
"..."
"Tell me, do you have thoughts about me, or do you want to get something from me?"
"……sleep!"
Zong Bao threw down those two words and lay down on the kang with a 'bang' sound. He really ignored me and couldn't chat anymore. He must be talking about people like me.
I breathed out gently and pulled the quilt on my body. I thought about Cheng Baize's face in my mind, and slowly I thought of the way he was twitching and vomiting blood on the ground. There was another side of him that maybe I had never seen before.
But I don’t want to think too complicated about him. No matter what kind of person he is, his kindness to me cannot be erased. Everyone has another side. Even if I can’t see it clearly, I can’t help but respect the person who saved my life.
Who am I to criticize someone who is a good person?
Just lying like that, I don't know how long it took, Zong Bao actually snored slightly. I turned around slowly, glanced around, and found a child squatting in the corner of the kang under my feet!
This scares me...
Because my eyes had adapted to the darkness in the room, I stood there and looked carefully. I couldn't see my face clearly, but the red clothes instantly relaxed my heart.
I thought I was bringing one up from below.
"Having a child?"
Shengzi has always had the appearance and figure of a four or five-year-old baby, so he huddled in the corner, a small ball, looking pitiful.
My body is still a little slow to respond when issuing certain commands. For example, now, I want to sit up, but the speed is half a beat slower than before. I am not sure whether I am in a dream now, because I always take a nap when giving birth.
It appeared when I was sleeping, but why was my body still so inflexible in the dream?
Shengzi ignored me, but made a small sound from his mouth. I didn't hear it clearly until I sat up. He was actually sobbing.
"Having a son, what's wrong with you..."
I stretched out my hand to touch him, but Shengzi shrank his body against the wall and said vaguely: "Sister, I can beat her, but I can actually save you and your grandpa together."
, but I don’t know why I can only save one..."
It turned out to be because of this, I curled up my lips helplessly: "Okay, it's all over. How old are you after giving birth? You are several lifetimes older than me and you are still acting cute and crying. Is that an accident? I can still do it."
Even if I beat her, wouldn't I be too careless?"
Shengzi sniffed and looked at me, his eyes watery and sparkling: "Sister, I'm angry with myself."
"Why are you so angry? I know you are afraid that I will die, but I am fine now. Stop crying. This is the first time I see you cry."
"But sister, what should the eldest brother do? The eldest brother is angry. If I can't beat her, the eldest brother can't be angry. I can't use my strength. I don't know what's wrong. I can't use my strength. I'm angry with me.
Angry, woo woo, sister~~~~~~"
"Can't use any strength?"
Shengzi nodded, his voice full of grievance: "Yes, I can't use any strength, I can really beat him. I know all the mountain gods here. He is my uncle. I have been here for so long, how can I beat him?"
But that woman in the water, I just couldn’t use my strength, I could only hold one, sister, what should I do with my eldest brother? He must be very angry this time."
I lowered my eyes. The words about giving birth made me feel tight. I sighed softly: "Yes, my eldest brother must be angry with me now."
"Sister, it's all my fault."
I shook my head: "No, I'm just stupid."
"Sister, you go find your elder brother to explain. Just make it clear to your elder brother."
Explanation? I have too much to explain, because these things are piled on top of each other, and I don’t know how to explain them.
I raised my eyes and looked at him: "Having a son, is Fengxia really that powerful? It can make you lose all your strength?"
A water ghost, even if she is successful, but she is not physical, I can't figure out how she managed to lure my grandfather away. No matter how powerful she is, she can only lurk in the water.
, could it be that something went wrong with grandma’s formation at the same time?
"I don't know, sister, I'm just thinking about what to do with the big brother. Sister, don't give up on the big brother. They don't let me talk more... Wuwu..."
I frowned: "Who doesn't want you to talk more?"
But Shengzi shook his head: "I can't say too much, otherwise I won't be able to come out. Sister, there are many bad people around you, don't be afraid of them."
I looked at the crying Shengzi and nodded: "Don't worry, sister is not afraid of bad people. Don't cry anymore. My sister is fine now. I will find a chance to explain to my elder brother. Shengzi, I still have to be good.
Thank you for saving my grandpa, and your original body. If you hadn’t drank that, how could I have recovered so quickly? Do you think so?”
Shengzi was squatting there, looking at me crying. I thought he could say something else to me, but who knew that he just cried and hid in the wall, looking like a self-blaming person who couldn't do anything about himself?
The child, because he always looks like a smiling little baby every time he appears, so when he cries, I feel sorry for him and want to reach out to hold him, but before I can call out his name, my fingers directly touch the cold wall.
Above, when a child is born, he usually says hello to me before leaving unless there are any unexpected circumstances. This time, he must be feeling particularly guilty. I think no matter how long he lives, maybe his mind is just that of a child, so
He just said that he wants to be my and Zhuo Jing’s child.
In fact, I think so too, but things in the world are unpredictable and unpredictable. It seems that I always like to show off my courage, but I am too benevolent as a woman, hurting others, hurting myself, and tying myself up. (To be continued)