Xu Meijin bit her lip and looked at me. When she let go of her hand, the photos in the paper bag fell all over the floor. Her lips trembled slightly, and she knelt down to pack them away in a panic. Suddenly, she made a movement and raised her head.
He raised his eyes and looked at me and smiled sadly: "Jiaolong, I never thought of harming you..."
As she spoke, she took a deep breath, glanced at the books and magazines piled on the coffee table, almost pounced on them, picked up one and put it in front of my eyes: "Look, this is what I have been reading recently.
You are looking at Europe or Asia. You choose. I am rich. I have a lot of money. We can live happily anywhere. Wherever you say you want to go, I will go with you.
Didn't you always want to ride a Ferris wheel when you were a kid? Look, I marked it. There are many Ferris wheels in the United States, including Las Vegas and Texas..."
"Jiaolong, look, there are pictures here. I can sit with you. I have made a lot of guides. Didn't we have money before? We still had to be small models, but we can't do that now.
, we have a lot of money, you see, I can accompany you to do whatever you like."
I looked intently at her anxious and somewhat incoherent face, and reached out to push the book she had spread out in front of me: "Tell me what to do so that you won't pester me."
Xu Meijin cried. She shook her head, and tears flowed down her cheeks directly to her chin: "No, I am not what you think. I just hope you are happy. We have been together for twenty years, how can you take me
I thought so badly, everything I did was for us, for me and you, I have been planning for our future."
My heart gradually became sour, and I forced myself to look at her kneeling in front of me, with a slightly hoarse voice: "Do you know, you are very selfish, you are already sick, you know, do you have to go see me?"
See a psychiatrist."
As I said that, I slowly stood up, picked up the book, put it in my hand and flipped through two pages at random: "America? Xu Meijin, you and I have always regarded you as my best and best since we were young.
Friend, sister, I know you take care of my grandma and grandpa, so I can't tolerate you being wronged at all. If I had known you would be like this today, I shouldn't have saved you when you were going to marry Chen Wei and hang yourself.
you!!!"
With a 'snap'!!, the book was knocked down hard by me. In front of Xu Meijin's eyes, she screamed in fright and looked at me with tears in her eyes: "That's what you said! Why did you save me! What do I have?"
Wrong! Now that I’m alive, I have the right to pursue happiness! I just want to be with the person I like, what’s wrong with that!!!”
"Shut up! Don't tell me whether you like me or not! If I had even the slightest thought for you, would my relationship with you be like this? I don't like you! You heard me clearly?
!!!"
Xu Meijin cried so hard that she couldn't help herself. She slowly stretched out her hands to support her on the floor and looked at me: "Jiaolong, you were not like this before. You were not like this. When I was a kid, you would help me if anyone bullied me."
Ah, don’t you hate seeing me being wronged the most..."
I don’t know why, but I started to feel pain in my heart, “Who is bullying whom? I can shout at you, I can scold you, but as for you, all the self-righteous things you do to me are just using a soft knife on me.
,Xu Meijin, I’m really tired. I can’t stand the entanglement with you anymore. Just tell me how you can leave..."
As I said that, I squatted in front of her and held up her chin so that she looked at me, "Tell me, tell me a way for you and me to escape. I'm really going to be driven crazy by you.
I beg you, tell me how you can disappear from my life, okay?"
Xu Meijin's face was covered with tears, and her eyes were red and swollen from crying. She opened her mouth and said, "I want a child..."
"What."
She sniffed and looked at me: "Give me a child and I'll go."
My hand suddenly loosened, and I hurriedly sat back: "Are you kidding me?"
Xu Meijin took a deep breath, wiped her tears vigorously, then slowly stood up on the floor, took a tissue and wiped away the tears on her face bit by bit, looked at me, her voice
Still trembling uncontrollably: "I tried to forget you, but I know I can't do it. I will never do stupid things like Zhang Yida again in this life. In fact, I knew it when I first got together with him.
I don’t love him, and I can’t love him, but he has money. I know that I can’t do anything without money, so I got a lot of money from him. I have the ability to raise a child. If you don’t follow me
If we are together, then I must have your child."
"You're a pervert, you."
I looked at her in disbelief. Is she still the gentle and gentle Xu Meijin who would blush if she joked too much? No, she has changed a long time ago. How could I still use my previous thinking to explore her thoughts?
With tears in her eyes, Xu Meijin looked at me with a sad and self-deprecating smile: "I am a pervert. I don't know why I am like this. You are also to blame. Why do you want me to know that you are like this?"
Half of them are men, why do you dress so much like a man? If you were a pure girl similar to me, I would not dream that my husband would look like you. I have been fantasizing about it since I was a child.
I want to find a boyfriend like you, but suddenly one day I understood that I am not looking for a boyfriend, I just want to find you! I have known my own feelings since I entered junior high school. If I don’t understand, you are the only one!"
As she spoke, she let out a long breath: "But I know what this society is like, what our village is like, and I don't want to be laughed at by others, saying that I am gay, so I want to die. If I die, it will be over."
, I won’t marry that Chen Wei, and I won’t struggle with my feelings for you, but you saved me. After you saved me, I was reborn. Why should I be secretive? I hate that Zhuo Jing to death. If it weren’t for him
, I don’t need to break the truth in this life, you only have me by your side! Whether you are a boy or a girl in this life, I will always be with you!!”
"Hehehehe."
I actually laughed. I didn't know why I was laughing. I just suddenly realized sadly that her heart was twisted. I thought whatever I said would be useless.
"why are you laughing."
I didn't respond and looked up at her: "Is there any second option, other than having a baby with you?"
"Yes." Xu Meijin stood with her back straight, her eyes filled with tears, and she softly uttered three words: "Kill me."
"..."
I didn't move where I sat, watching Xu Meijin's tears falling in front of me. The air was filled with the dead silence before the explosion, "Jiaolong, is it so difficult? I know you can do it. You are so kind to me."
The feeling is not fake..."
She was talking to me as if she was talking to herself, until I stood up, stood opposite her with an expressionless face, and opened my lips slightly: "I have feelings for you, right?"
Xu Meijin stopped wiping her tears and looked at me with her neck straight: "You can't lie to me. You used to be afraid of sleeping in the same bed and covering me with the same quilt. I used to think you were shy or had some insecurities in your bones."
Introverted, but now I know, you are afraid that I will see your physical reaction, so you refuse to sleep with me."
I looked straight at her, nodded, stretched out my hand, pulled her over and kissed her directly on the lips. She was caught off guard, and her teeth immediately broke my lower lip, and a fishy, salty taste immediately spread.
When he came out, Xu Meijin pushed me away in panic: "Jiaolong, you are bleeding..."
"Why, isn't this what you thought?"
I wiped the blood on my lips fiercely and watched Xu Meijin's hands immediately wrap around my neck. A kind of feminine aura invaded me overwhelmingly. I didn't know where I got such strength.
, pressed her on the sofa like crazy, and kept tearing her clothes with both hands. Xu Meijin's hands were also groping around my body, struggling desperately, until her hands went all the way down my belt,
My movements suddenly stopped, and I looked at her who was looking a little blurry under me: "Are you reacting..."
Xu Meijin's flushed face felt as if a bucket of ice water had been poured down on her. The movements of her hands paused, and her coat had been completely torn open by me. This scene was very close to that day in her villa. Her breathing
Still panting slightly uncontrollably: "Jiaolong, you..."
I held my arms and didn't move, looking at her expressionlessly: "I'll ask you again, do you have any reaction?"
Xu Meijin did not speak, but took out her hand and gently raised her upper body to hug my neck again. She kissed me persistently, even if I gritted my teeth, she looked like she was trying her best, until I couldn't bear it anymore and hardened.
Pushing her shoulders away harshly: "That's enough for you!!"
Her head bounced heavily onto the sponge cushion of the sofa, her eyes filled with mist: "Why."
I reached out and pulled off her sweater, gritting my teeth and looking at her: "Because I don't have feelings for you, so I can't do it with you... You can give up."
After saying that, I got up, tidied my clothes and walked towards the door.
"Jiaolong!!" She struggled to get up and caught up with me and grabbed my arm: "I don't believe it! You did it on purpose, right? You did it on purpose! Ugh!!"
With my backhand, I grabbed her neck with red eyes, "Don't mess with me again, get away, do you hear me?"
I pinched Xu Meijin's neck tightly against the wall next to her. Looking at me, she still shook her head: "Unless you kill me, I won't let you go..."
The sound of her teeth chattering in her mouth was extremely clear. Looking at her face, for the first time, I felt the urge to tear her into pieces. My fingers slowly increased the force and said, "Do you think I don't dare?"
"Uh... I don't believe it... I don't believe it..."
She struggled to spit out vague words from the cracks in her throat, but she didn't struggle and looked at me with wide eyes, "Jiaolong..."
I looked at her slowly suppressing red face, but the strength in her hands became heavier and heavier. It seemed that there was a voice in my heart saying, kill her, otherwise you will still be unable to escape this entanglement. Just kill her.
Free!
She couldn't bear it any longer, her mouth opened slightly, and her weak hands gently hammered my wrist, "Jiao, Jiaolong..."
Behind the scenes, the tears from her eyes fell on the back of my hand, burning for a while——
Suddenly, a childish voice came to my ears, "Jiaolong, just don't leave. I'm your only friend. If you go to a big city this time, come back early. I'll wait for you at home."
"Da Ya, I will bring you delicious food in the city when you come back."
"I don't want delicious food, just come back early."
"Jiaolong, we will still be in the same class in junior high school."
"I will definitely do it. Neither of us are good at studying, hehe."
"It's fine if I'm in the same class. In other classes, I'm afraid that others will bully me and no one will help me."
"Who dares to bully you! If he is really not in the same class, you come to me and I will beat him!"
"Okay, hehe."
What she looked like at that time was all in my mind, and my chest twitched uncontrollably, "Ah!!!!"
I let go of my hand and tears welled up uncontrollably. Xu Meijin slid softly along the wall and sat on the ground. I punched the wall hard and looked at her who couldn't help coughing on the ground: "Why!
Why are you forcing me like this! Where did the big ya go, ah, give me my big ya back!!!!"
Xu Meijin coughed and cried while stroking her neck, "Ahem! Jiaolong, Jiaolong..."
"roll!!!!!!"
I shouted loudly, as if I had exhausted all my strength. I pushed away her extended hand, turned around, and ran downstairs with long strides!
Behind me was the sound of Xu Meijin crying, but I couldn't wait for the elevator, so I just ran until I ran out of the corridor, and the cold wind like a knife cut my face. I wanted to drive, but I didn't bring the car key, so I kicked the car door hard.
, the car alarm started to sound, and I squatted on the ground collapsed, my ears filled with the howling cold wind, the tears in my eyes were swept away by the cold wind, and I felt a dry and cracking pain, "Ah!!!!"
"
I stood up with the support of the car, raised my feet and ran out of the community. This kind of suppressed but unable to vent emotions almost drove me crazy! (To be continued)