Wen Xiaoni looked at me with some horror: "Jiaolong, your gloomy expression scares me..."
I smiled and looked at her: "What are you afraid of? I'm just protecting myself."
I don't think I did anything outrageous in this matter. Xu Linlin and Tong Anqi are not friends at all. What's more, I am not their common enemy. I can only be regarded as a thorn in Tong Anqi's side, but maybe Tong Anqi is
The thorn in Xu Linlin's side is that, after all, it was Tong Anqi who was blackmailing Xu Linlin. There are many twists and turns in this.
To put it simply, Tong Anqi regards me as a love rival, but Xu Linlin does not. All she likes is fame and wealth. She may have had thoughts about Zhuo Jing, but she is definitely a smart person, and she will never stumble again.
From this point of view, the biggest difference between her and Tong Anqi is that she can see clearly.
Putting Zhuo Jing aside, Xu Linlin was simply dissatisfied with my displeasure, but she didn't dare to offend me too much when it came to her mother's affairs. The reason why she helped An Qi with advice was that she was
Blackmail, secondly, we were really not harmonious when we were young, and some of the small quarrels and grudges we had later were never brought to the fore. We just lived our own lives without a chance, and had nothing to do with each other. If we had the opportunity, we would just step on each other.
It's not a big deal to step on someone you've never dealt with.
But now the situation has completely changed. I used Tong Anqi's name to touch Xu Linlin's bottom line. Naturally, the two of them would have a fight on the phone for a while. I think Xu Linlin must have Tong Anqi's recording in her hand, and she would also respond.
She went too far to protect herself and threatened Tong Anqi. After all, Tong Anqi wanted to marry Zhuo Jing, but she followed Xu Linlin to discuss how to harm me. If this kind of thing was exposed, Tong Anqi would be ugly.
Therefore, the two of them go back and forth, and the final result will definitely be a stalemate. What I want to see is internal strife. Although the two of them have leverage against each other, they will not fight to the death. I am too lazy to watch the excitement of the two of them, just to make myself happy.
Have less trouble and live a more peaceful life.
Wen Xiaoni didn't say anything anymore. She was going to throw away her mobile phone card and pack her things to go back to her hometown with my grandpa and me tomorrow to celebrate the New Year. I didn't respond either, but looked at Wen Xiaoni's leaving figure and leaned lazily on the bedside.
Thinking about the expression she just looked at me, I fell into deep thought.
In fact, I firmly believe that there is a little devil living in everyone's heart. The only difference is whether you are controlled by it or you control it.
Throughout the ages, people have had the most temptations to resist, because people have seven emotions, six desires, and eight pains. No matter how similar people are, there will be subtle differences in thinking. Some people are greedy for money, some are lustful, some are lazy, and some are happy.
, and many others, collectively called lust.
It's just that being controlled by the little devil in your heart will amplify the ugliness of human nature. What you can control the devil on your own is what we often call the bottom line. People with a bottom line will suppress their own bad qualities that have been brought out from birth. We
This will also be used to distinguish between simple good and evil.
When I picked up Xian'er when I was eighteen years old, I was confused and knew nothing about the future. I was eager to be a big man, but I had little understanding of the meaning of a big man. I went to my grandma's grave every day, and carried a
I flipped through two pages of this book when I had nothing to do. In my impression, my grandma basically didn’t read. How could an old lady in the countryside have the leisure to read? Most of the books at home were left behind after I went to school.
Yes, but there are also some books with very old covers about Feng Shui knowledge and some Buddhist scriptures. One of them, "Prajnaparamita Heart Sutra", seems to have been read many times by my grandma. It is a bit old. I looked at it and found that there are not many words, but it is still good.
I could understand it, and then I realized that many of the principles about good and evil that my grandma taught me were learned here.
But to my surprise, I accidentally dug out a copy of the Tao Te Ching. My grandma used a pencil to mark on it the words "无desire", "wuwei", "wuyu" means not having extravagant thoughts and desires, "wuwei" means adapting to the situation.
Nature, return to its original nature, no longer have greed in everything, and the world will naturally be stable and peaceful.
I was very surprised. I didn’t expect that my grandma would instill in me the principles of Buddhism and Taoism in a silent way. She took the best of both worlds just to tell me the simplest truth about life.
Don’t be too greedy for money, and don’t be too impetuous when doing things. As long as you give, you will always gain something. I was supposed to be a Taoist, but my grandma taught me to treat others with the heart of Buddha.
But I am not a saint. My grandma wants to protect me, but at the same time, she is also afraid that I will hurt others. Therefore, she thinks the best way is to change my life. She wants me to live in peace and quiet for the rest of my life, without suffering from seven emotions, six desires, and eight pains. Grandma also understands this very well.
I knew that under her guidance I would not use my status as husband to do bad things or make money. The only thing she didn't expect and didn't understand was that life is a circle, and she let me go around it on the path I was supposed to take.
, but one day, I will walk back, but when I walk back, she is no longer there, so everything is out of control.
I can do not harm others, but I can't stop others from harming me, so I can only face it calmly in my own way. In fact, it may seem like a different path, but in the end we will reach the same destination.
There are countless books and truths left by the ancient sages. I can only control the demons in my heart, but I cannot make them free from demons in my heart, because people and life are too contradictory, and the distinction between right and wrong is sometimes too blurry.
, maybe I, Ma Jiaolong, will not attain enlightenment in the end, nor will I become an immortal after my death, because I am too ordinary and there are too many things that I cannot let go of. I cannot let go of my love for Zhuo Jing alone, but I also
I don't care about that. I have no intention of becoming a god. I just hope that in this life, I can get what I want, hold my son's hand, and grow old together with him.
The ringtone of my cell phone that I thought of drew my wandering nerves away. I picked it up and took a look. It was my dad. I shook my head and threw all those thoughts out of my mind. As long as I don't lose my mind, some things are actually not worth thinking about.
Too many.
Picked up the phone, "Hi, Dad."
"Qiaoqiao, are you feeling better about your cold?"
"Well, much better."
I responded softly, my voice still had a strong nasal sound, but I felt that I had done some things right, such as letting my father manage Anton's store. Let's not talk about whether I made money or not. The important thing is
The father-daughter relationship between me and him has been greatly improved. My father will occasionally call me. Although we are a little embarrassed at each other and don't know what to say, we just ask, how are we doing, and be careful when it's hot.
I have heatstroke and remember to put on more clothes when it gets cold. Moreover, my father is no longer drunk and can talk to me in a friendly manner and knows that he cares about my current situation. I am very satisfied.
In my grandpa's words, this is what my grandma wants to see the most. Only when the family is harmonious can everything be prosperous.
"When will you drive back tomorrow?"
"I'll be home at about one or two o'clock..."
"Oh, I asked someone to buy authentic local pork legs from the countryside. The meat is delicious. I bought it specially for you. Your mother started preparing it the day before yesterday. She said she would make sixteen dishes. Now you are a capable person.
Well, these relatives at home know that you are coming back for the New Year and they will come over to join in the fun. But don’t worry, I have refused. I want to spend the New Year with my own family. Your aunt, An Qi, your mother, your grandpa, you.
I’m afraid you’ll be annoyed after the New Year. I’ve been quite tired this year. After the New Year, I just want to relax and refresh myself.”