When I closed my eyes, I felt my body slowly pull away, drifting out along the window like a lonely soul.
Naturally, I am not willing to give up. Maybe it is because the things in my personality have already been integrated into my blood. Although the feeling of inadequacy is piled up, from my perspective, I don’t want to give up until the end. Maybe this is what Cheng Baize often talks about.
People on the side said that I would not shed tears until I saw the coffin.
In fact, I don’t know why I am so persistent. The answer is obvious, but I am unwilling to accept it. Maybe it’s because the figure of my mother sitting alone on the sofa shocked me, or maybe it was because my father told me to go home.
The phone call inspired me to have the deepest love for my father. I don’t know, my heart is always very complicated. If I wasn’t an Onmyoji, it would be fine. I might be able to ‘let nature take its course’, or even
He said comfortingly that life and death are destiny, and wealth is in heaven.
But I am Ma Jiaolong, and I am obviously a gentleman who has already gained momentum. At least the victim's case that I have handled has never failed completely. How can it be so difficult to save my family!
My body was so light that I didn't know where it was floating. The sky was overcast, neither black nor white, and the surroundings were empty, with no flowers, no grass, no wind, no waves.
I looked around in confusion, vaguely knowing where I was. Just when I was about to speak, the upright figure not far in front of me was enough to make my mind race. Looking at the mane on the back of his neck, I bent down and knelt down.
Ground: "Brother Ma! Please help me..."
He didn't look back, but his voice penetrated my eardrums like an arrow piercing the clouds: "If I don't show up to see you, will you still persist in your obsession?"
I sniffed and looked at his back not far away: "Brother Ma, that's my dad. How can I watch him leave like this and remain indifferent? Brother Ma, please help me, I don't ask for much,
I just want to give him three years to live, at least so that my dad can have some time to say goodbye to our family. He left in such a hurry!"
There was a cold snort in my ear, "Do you still remember the rules before entering the house?"
I pursed my lips and lowered my eyes: "Jiaolong remember... to bless everyone, don't do bad things and don't make money..."
"Then tell me now, general, what are the taboos on having sex?!"
"Being an Onmyoji... you can't tell your own fortune, and you can't tell the fortunes of those close to you. Don't tell fortunes if you don't ask for it from me... Everyone has his destiny when he is born, and you have to let nature take its course, otherwise, you will harm the yin and yang.
The teacher himself..."
"Then do you know why there are these rules for doing Yang business!?"
I knelt there softly and replied softly: "I'm afraid of having... selfish motives."
"Now that you know this! What are you doing now!!!"
My body, which was already like a broken leaf, became even more swaying. I seemed to have cried too much. I collapsed to the point where I couldn't even shed tears. All I could do was shake my head uncontrollably: "Brother Ma, I don't want to either."
It’s selfish, but that’s my dad. Please help me if I have to abide by the rules of being an onmyoji after my debut. I only want my dad’s three-year lifespan, just three years..."
"Three years?" His voice was not loud, but it always had a deafening effect: "I will ask you, do you agree that I will shorten your life span by thirty years and give Lin Dazhi three more years?"
I was stunned for a long time, and then I opened my mouth: "Jiaolong... I agree."
"You hesitated."
I knelt there with my head straight: "Jiaolong doesn't know how long he can live, but now he knows very clearly that he wants my father to live."
"Oh, I have seen you for several lifetimes, and I thought you would make progress, but I didn't expect that you would still be impulsive and mess up things. Such ordinary hearts, the love between children, will not let go of what should be let go, and will not keep what should be kept. Thirty years of life
After all, how can you bless everyone, why should you be regarded as a dwarf! It seems that filial piety moves the heavens, but in fact, it is hard to achieve great things because of your own will!"
As he said that, he let out a long sigh: "That's all, I will miss you for working under me, so I'll forgive you for speaking so openly. You can see for yourself whether you are willing to exchange for thirty years of life..."
I knelt down and didn't move. Behind him, in the space that was supposed to be open space, a face-changing video suddenly started playing. I watched blankly and saw myself and my family running to the freezer of the funeral home, hugging my dad and crying.
He actually sat up during the break. My mother and sister-in-law were all shocked and excited. They sent my father to the hospital. Even the doctors couldn't believe it. My aunt was released and threw herself on my father's chest.
I cried loudly at the bedside, and everything seemed to be back to the starting point. After hearing the news, reporters came one after another. They came to the hospital to interview my parents, my aunt, and my aunt, saying that this was
Medical miracle…
The pictures in front of me kept fast forwarding, as if they were passing by in a flash, but all the details came into my mind clearly. I saw the doctor holding my father's test report and sighing. A few words on the report made me open my eyes.
Big eyes, late stage liver cancer...
My aunt stood in the ward holding the test sheet, covering her face and crying, "Go to a big hospital! Sell the house! Even if the family house is sold, I will also take care of my brother's disease!!"
Mom started to do my ideological work... Those words seemed familiar. I covered my ears and shook my head desperately. I looked at my aunt pointing her nose and scolding me, you are unfilial. Now that our house has been sold, I will give it to you.
You wouldn’t even agree if Dad had his liver replaced!!
"No, no..."
I looked at the picture and muttered in a low voice, feeling extremely frightened. Until the rapidly flashing picture stopped and showed me lying on the hospital bed. My mother was kneeling in front of my father's hospital bed, covered with a white sheet, crying loudly: "Dazhi!
Why have you suffered so much? You have committed so many sins! Open your eyes and look, there is nothing left at home. How could you just abandon us orphans and widowed mothers?
!!”
My body couldn't bear it any longer. I shook violently and propped myself up on the ground with both hands: "How could this happen...how could this happen..."
The picture in front of me suddenly disappeared, but my heart still trembled as the picture disappeared, shaking my head: "No, this is not what I want to see, this is not what I want to see..."
Why did my father become seriously ill? Why did he sell his house and ask me to donate his liver? It was so out of control, so out of control...
"This is the result of your insistence on going your own way. Lin Dazhi's life should be like this. You should be clear about the yin and yang. Since it is a yin and yang, seducing the soul, then if the general sends them to send the soul back, wouldn't it be chaos in the world and more troubles?
?Those who do Yang work set rules, and they are afraid that one day their selfish desires will lead to them. How can the Yin and Yang of heaven and earth be changed by one person? It is a pity to abandon the mortal body. The fates are intertwined with each other. You seem to be saving lives.
One person can actually change the fate of many people. In the end, you are the only one who suffers the consequences."
I can't say anything. I know this. I've known it for a long time. I just don't want my dad to die like this. I understand the meaning of Brother Ma letting me see those things just now. I deserve to be punished.
The person being punished would be fine because my father woke up and would not know his guilt. But I have done so many things and violated taboos. In the end, I was the only one who was punished.
"Even if I am merciful and allows Lin Dazhi to return to health for three years, Lin Dazhi will definitely be troubled by illness day and night during these three years, and your family will spend all their wealth to save him. Until the three years are up, Lin Dazhi will
Dazhi was dying and died on the operating table, and you would naturally be burdened by it, and no one would think well of it. Even after Lin Dazhi died, he would go to the underworld to complain on a piece of paper, because it was you who made it impossible for him to survive in the upper world.
He can't seek death. He seems to be recovering, but in fact he is still alive. However, this method is the most painless and worry-free one for Lin Dazhi. I will ask you at the end if you still insist. As long as you nod in agreement, I will
Take away your thirty-year lifespan and immediately send a messenger to return Lin Dazhi’s soul to his physical body!”
I stood up tremblingly. I knew that Brother Ma didn't really want my life, he just wanted me to know the stakes. As the saying goes, good medicine tastes bitter, there are causes and consequences. He had already opened the back door for me to see...
Mumu shook his head: "Thank you, Brother Ma. I know everything. What you asked me to see is nothing more than telling me the truth about self-imposed cocooning. I understand everything..."
His voice finally became softer: "I know that you are devoted to good deeds, but your life span in the human world is still short. It may take some time to understand. What is the use of knowing that I want you to live for thirty years? The most important thing to avoid is to do anything based on your anger.
, if you become a great person, you must put aside your distracting thoughts. As long as you step into the Yangdian, you have to know that you are not born for one person, but you must understand the mission you bear..."
"Well, since I have sent you to the earth, you will naturally have to repay all the karma yourself. I hold the power of life, death and reincarnation. No one in heaven or on earth dares to bargain with me. Don't ask me for help in the future. Otherwise, I will
When I open my mouth again, what I want is not something as simple as your thirty years of longevity."
I helped my body to the ground and kowtowed deeply to him: "Thank you, Brother Ma, for your hard work. Jiaolong understands that leaving like this is the best for my father. He has not suffered or suffered...
…It was Jiaolong who was offended by his ignorance.”
Whether it is Brother Ma, Grandma, or the three old fairies, they all like to spare no effort to instill in me some principles of being an Onmyoji. I know it in my heart, but I am just a mortal. When they send me to this world of reincarnation, they will
You should understand that how can a mortal understand something nihilistic? Didn’t even grandma realize that it was her mistake to change my life after she died? When a person is alive, he will inevitably be affected by all kinds of things.
What you cannot escape from is the various moral hats placed on your head.
I know that the gods I fear all want me to sublime, but my thoughts are the most ordinary and commonplace. Maybe Brother Ma knows this about me best. I am impulsive, willful, and always like to do things without thinking, so
He directly showed me the price, and then asked me to choose. Naturally, all my enthusiasm was extinguished by the cold facts.
In fact, I am not afraid of giving my father thirty years of life. When Brother Ma said this, I was just stunned for a moment, but I didn’t think too much. What reason do I have to disagree? My life was given to me by my parents.
, why should I use thirty years of my life to give my father three years of life? Even if I hesitated, I would still give it, but if Brother Ma hadn’t shown me what my father would have faced in the past three years.
Despite the suffering, I think I will still persevere. It’s just that Brother Ma’s words spoke to my heart. It seems that I saved my father’s life, but in fact, I changed the lives of many people. This kind of thing is very difficult.
It's scary, just like when I changed my life, I asked my dad to go around this place, but sooner or later, he will come back...The price then will definitely be far greater than it is now.
"Now that you understand, go back."
The wind and sand suddenly rose, and I was already drifting without roots. I was blown away by the wind and couldn't control myself. I quickly walked back to the road I was on. I didn't struggle much. I knew where Brother Ma wanted me to go back there.
, the scene that Brother Ma showed me when my father was still sexually active is still echoing in my mind. I think I will keep these things in my heart forever...
People often say that it is better to live than to die. In fact, this is not true. The highest state of human life is to get rid of this messy world. Many people are unwilling to leave. It is not because they care about this skin. The reason why they do not want to leave is just to say no to the following.
Clear fear, but is life really good? The answer is not yes...
"Jiaolong, Jiaolong..."
There was a familiar voice in my ears, and the cool breath lingering on the tip of my nose made my heart extremely stable. I stretched out my hand directly, and my fingertips touched the familiar eyebrows. Before I could open my eyes, I was speechless.
He opened his mouth: "Zhuo Jing..."
"It's me, I'm here."
But my lips couldn't help but tremble, and I suddenly didn't dare to open my eyes. I was afraid of facing my mother's eyes. How could I explain the fact that I didn't bring my father back?
"Qiaoqiao, are you awake?"
My mother's voice also sounded next to me, and then I heard An Qi's voice: "Don't you mean Mr. Da? He is very capable and capable. He rescued people from mudslides and went to Changbai Mountain. After waiting all night, I
Where is my uncle? Why didn’t the funeral home call me to say that my uncle is alive?”
"Shut up."
Zhuo Jing's voice sounded directly: "There is no place for you to talk here now. She has done everything Jiaolong can do. At least when I came here, I saw her breaking her head and bleeding unconsciously because of her and her father's things.
Wake up, and from the moment I walked in, I saw that you were shirking responsibility and sowing discord. You know, it was your mother who killed his father. What you have to do now is to ask for their forgiveness, instead of talking nonsense.
, if you don’t repent, just wait until you go to prison to deliver food to your mother!” (To be continued)