I still didn't open my closed eyes, my teeth were clenched tightly, but tears flowed out again.
"Big brother, I..."
An Qi's voice was full of grievance: "I don't know either..."
"Who is your big brother!"
Zhuo Jing interrupted her with a cold voice: "Do you know how much your attitude has caused others? It was her father who died, and she wants her father to live more than you do!"
Tong Anqi cried, and I heard her cry and turn around and run outside. The sound of her feet on the floor sounded "dong dong dong", but there was a brief silence in the room.
I felt Zhuo Jing stand up directly, and seemed to walk in front of someone in a few steps: "And your uncle, you let me down so much. You are a highly educated doctor, how could you agree to Jiaolong doing this kind of thing?"
Things, let’s not talk about whether this kind of thing is nonsense, whether Jiaolong, as an onmyoji, can resurrect the dead, first of all, confining this kind of thought to her is suppression. Since you can’t resurrect a dead person, how can you bring it back to life?
Why let her do it? Isn’t this self-deception?”
"Qilin, don't be so excited now, we also..."
"Brother-in-law, tell me how you can not be excited. If I don't come, will I still have to watch you let this child Anqi talk nonsense here? Not only does he not know what is wrong, he speaks loudly, and the person who deserves to be protected the most is harmed.
But you forced her to a bloody head. She is a human being, she is just a little girl, she is not a god. If a person lives as he says, live as he says, we will all live forever. What is the use of having children?
Just replace the funeral industry directly, how can you be so ignorant!"
"Qilin, listen to my uncle first. Jiaolong wanted to try it herself, we didn't force her."
"hehe."
Zhuo Jing sneered twice: "Yes, you didn't force her, but when I came here, weren't you still dreaming about resurrection after death, including this Tong Anqi, your attitude towards this matter is enough to make me
Disappointed, you shouldn't let Jiaolong do these things. There are so many elders here who don't understand the truth that death is like a lamp going out. You guys really chill me."
"Qilin, I know you are worried about Qiao Qiao, but what happened last night really happened too suddenly. Qiao Qiao wants to give her a try. You know her reputation as an onmyoji, and so do we..."
"So, it doesn't matter if she is an Onmyoji. Of course she wants to try it. That's her father! But your stance is different from hers. The more you expect, the greater the pressure will be on her.
The promise she made is the source of her pain, you are kidnapping her morally!"
Following Zhuo Jing's fierce shouting, my mother held my hand and said in a trembling voice: "Qiao Qiao, mother will not blame you. Mother knows that you have tried your best. If nothing happens to you, do you know that you are the only one left with me?"
Come on, don't scare mom. You don't even know how scared I was when I walked in and saw you lying on the ground, covered in blood. I wanted your dad to come back to life, but I also knew it was impossible.
, I seemed to have heard your grandma’s voice when I picked her up, she said let’s not force you... Qiao Qiao, mom is just begging you that nothing will happen to you right now... Mom is the only one left."
I closed my eyes, but tears were streaming down my face. Zhuo Jing's words spoke to my heart. I was really afraid of facing my family, especially with the Onmyoji hat on my back, so I felt this way.
I feel really helpless, especially when I tell you the result after trying my best. I really don’t know what to do.
"I'm sorry, Mom...I'm sorry."
Opening my eyes, I looked at my haggard and almost unrecognizable mother and spoke directly. My mother immediately broke down, stretched out her arms and hugged me and cried loudly: "Qiaoqiao, mom is sorry for you, mom shouldn't let you do this.
Your father is already in the freezer. Mom shouldn’t have such a dream, Qiao Qiao! Mom is the only one left with you!"
My sister-in-law covered her mouth and came over, putting her arm on her mother's shoulders: "Sister-in-law, don't be like this. It's our Lin family who can't stand Qiao Qiao, and we owe Qiao Qiao..."
I turned my face sideways and looked at Zhuo Jing standing in the middle of the room with tearful eyes. My heart ached with pain. What should I do if he doesn't come?
My mother was so sad that she fainted from crying. Finally, she was helped out by her sister-in-law and uncle. After everyone left, Zhuo Jing walked to my bed and sat down, put his arm around my shoulders and whispered softly.
Said: "Don't do such stupid things in the future, I will take care of everything."
I buried my head on his shoulder, sobbing and crying: "Zhuo Jing, I..."
I have a lot to say. I want to say that I actually made a choice, whether to suffer for a while or to change everything. I really don’t have the courage to change everything. If my father was allowed to live and suffer from the disease, I think I would also hate it.
For me, it’s just these two choices, which one is extremely painful, but I can’t say it. Since I have already chosen, what is the use of saying this except to increase the burden on my heart?!
"Stop talking, these things will pass. Don't always use your identity as an Onmyoji to demand yourself. You are just an ordinary person. Don't be so willful in the future. If something like this happens at home, you must call me first. I will be here."
, I won’t let anyone bully you.”
I sniffed and shook my head, "Thank you Zhuo Jing..."
He sighed softly, "Silly, thank you for nothing. You just have the habit of not knowing where the world is. Don't show off in the future. Compared with your father's affairs, I think your state is more worrying."
I wasn't talking. I didn't know how to adjust my mood for a while. The dried blood I spat out could still be seen on the floor of the table. This result was something I asked for. I wanted to ask for some kind of cruelty, and Brother Ma,
But it made me see something even crueler after I seemingly got rid of it, so I looked back, but the pain was still there.
Zhuo Jing said, I don't owe anyone, and I don't want to force myself, but I feel that I was born to repay debts. Going round and round, it is easiest when I escape from my family, but every time I face it, I feel like I am in trouble.
It's dull and restrictive.
My mother was in a very bad state. She fainted and woke up several times. The look of her sunken eyes seemed familiar. I remembered that my mother was in this state when Xiaobao first left, but at least she had a pillow at that time.
She had people by her side, but now that she had no one to sleep with, she couldn't even think about breaking down.
Although my father's body is still under police supervision at the funeral parlor, the funeral that should be held at home still needs to be held. Perhaps Zhuo Jing's words have an effect. No matter it is my uncle, my sister-in-law, or An Qi, no one dares to mention that I am in the house again.
I wanted to bring my father back to life. The relatives who came one after another did not know about this episode in our family. They only knew that the cause and effect were related to my aunt. Everyone was surprised and sad. In addition, my grandma died suddenly at that time.
, after contacting each other, everyone felt that the behavior of our family was too weird.
Because my father is still young, in his fifties, he should be the right age at that time, so everyone feels it is a pity. Moreover, it is also the year when he and Lele should be together. This kind of thing is tantamount to a sudden disaster.
But grief is grief. The third uncle and second uncle I am not familiar with are all half-buried people. They are relatively open-minded about this kind of thing. After all, the person is no longer alive, and those who are still alive still have to make very realistic plans.
, they began to turn the tide to my mother, and made concerted efforts to persuade her not to sue my aunt, saying that it would not be of any benefit to my mother. Is it possible that we would never have any contact with each other in the future? Besides, it was a confrontation.
An Qi can't do anything right either.
It was obviously my aunt who killed my father by mistake. Even she didn't want to, but the identity of the murderer was confirmed. Naturally, my mother was unwilling to accept it, because the relatives of my father's family were not against her.
, their surname is Lin, so naturally they have to protect my aunt Lin Xinyun. An Qi also smelled their protectiveness, knelt down by my mother's bed and told me that one of my aunts was the only one, please give me some mercy!
In the end, some elders with filthy thoughts actually said that my mother’s purpose of putting my aunt in jail was not for my dad, but for herself. Because my dad was gone, my aunt and my mother should own half of this house.
If my aunt is fine, she will definitely have to share a house with my mother. My mother wants to occupy this house by herself, so she refuses to let go!
As a result, my mother was even more angry and couldn't get out of bed. A black curtain was erected in the yard and white flags were hung. My father's portrait was placed there, but my mother couldn't go downstairs to pay homage. She was so sick that her life seemed to be hanging by a thread.
As the eldest son or daughter, I was too busy with the funeral to take care of my mother. What I didn't expect at this time was my sister-in-law. She followed the relatives of the Lin family who came to persuade my mother and had a big fight, saying that my sister-in-law
What's going on, you're still bothering her about this! Let's wait until my eldest brother's funeral is over!
She is the person who has the most say and no selfish motives, because Lin Xinyun is her biological sister, and my father is her eldest brother. She cannot stand on anyone's side, so when she makes a noise, these messed up people
The sound faded.
But the funeral still has to go on. It’s just that my dad can’t be cremated for the time being. My aunt’s affairs are uncertain, so my dad has to stay there in the cold. Because my sister-in-law was influenced by her mother-in-law and believed in Buddhism, she would die as violently as my dad.
I need to transcend, otherwise I am afraid of causing trouble after entering the grave, and I am afraid of doing bad things to future generations. I could have done this originally, but at that time I was kowtowed by the rank, wrapped in bandages, and had a cold.
It was not good, so my sister-in-law went to the temple to ask for help. Therefore, there was no mourning or music in the courtyard of my house during those days. Instead, the sound of monks chanting sutras for my father’s salvation was heard 24 hours a day.
Zhuo Jing stayed with me all the time. When I kept vigil, he also stayed with me. It could be said that he stayed with me every step of the way. By the end of the three-day funeral, I had almost recovered emotionally and started to pick out a grave for my dad and prepare the shroud and clothes.
After the things buried in the ground, his face showed a slight hint of relief. Maybe it was the strong aura he carried. No one dared to say whether Zhuo Jing's behavior of keeping vigil with me all the time was out of line. After all, we didn't
When I got married, no one knew that he was my boyfriend. All they knew was that Zhuo Jing was a relative I couldn't get close to. But no one said anything, and what he did was natural. I just felt bad about it.
Jiang Meiyuan did not hesitate to fly back from abroad and did not even take a vacation. The drama was still about him being seriously ill and asking him to go home. However, Zhuo Jing was indifferent and even turned off his phone and forbade his uncle to say a word about letting him leave. I really feel that
I have brought Zhuo Jing into trouble. He was originally a brilliant man wherever he went, but because of my family affairs, his beard became unruly. His whole person was gloomy and concealed a kind of indifference to strangers.
I mean, but it was also because of his underlying emotions that he indirectly protected me, making all of An Qi’s bad words swallowed into my stomach the day I woke up.
It was not until the seventh day of my father's life that the yard became quiet again. Those relatives could not help. To put it bluntly, during the Chinese New Year, no one wanted to get involved in these unlucky things. My father's funeral was carried out according to procedures.
, I buried some of his personal clothes in the grave first, to let him know his way around, and I just waited for him to be truly cremated, and then buried again, to be truly at peace.
Naturally, I can no longer let Zhuo Jing accompany me. I selfishly let him here. Firstly, it will delay his original work. Secondly, I feel distressed when I see it. After all, this kind of thing cannot be solved in a day or two.
Yes, it was my father who left, and I needed to spend a long time with my mother to heal the wounds in my heart, but Zhuo Jing, there was no need to endure these potential invisible tortures with me.
I opened the car door and glanced at him: "Didn't we all agree that I'm really fine? Get in the car."
Zhuo Jing stood still, looking at me intently, and suddenly stretched out his hand and hugged me tightly: "...I will definitely marry you this year, and from now on, I swear I will never let you be wronged again.
."
My nose started to feel sore again, and I laid my face on his chest: "I'm fine, I'm really fine. Is it because I'm too naive to do this? It will get better as time goes by. Don't worry."
"How can I not be worried, Ma Jiaolong, I'm worried just because I put you here."
I know he has heard a lot in the past two days about family relatives asking my mother to give up the prosecution of my aunt. Although he didn't say anything, I know he must have thoughts in his heart.
"It's okay. It's all over. Aren't you still here with your sister-in-law and your brother-in-law? You are still busy with work. You all know that I don't make money as an onmyoji. If you don't make money, how will you support me..."
I said softly: "Go back and wait for me. When my mother's mood stabilizes, I will go back."
He let go of his hand and looked at me carefully: "You can take your mother over and live with her, and your grandpa, I will help you take care of them."
I shook my head: "My mother won't leave. My father and brother are here. She and my grandfather are different from me. Don't worry about these things. Get in the car quickly. I promise you, I will
Go back as soon as possible, ah.”
Zhuo Jing stopped responding. He turned around and looked at the desolate yard of our house with a slight frown. Then he looked at me: "You stay with your mother for a while first, and then I will come back to pick you up. But remember, some people have made mistakes.
, must be punished, I agree with your mother suing her, only inside can she understand where she went wrong, otherwise, even if she comes out, she won't think she did anything wrong, you know."
I didn't answer. This matter was a bit complicated. I didn't think my mother would insist on it, because my sister-in-law didn't really want her sister to go to jail. Even if she didn't like her sister, she was still her biological child.
sister.
"I know, you can get in the car. Don't worry about these things in my family. My sister-in-law and uncle will help me take care of them..."
Until Zhuo Jing's car gradually disappeared at the entrance of the alley, I stood there and still couldn't recover for a long time. I believe that there is a god in this world, and I have seen it, but Zhuo Jing has a different meaning to me.
Guardian.
When I walked back to the house, my mother actually came downstairs. She was wearing decent and clean clothes and was sitting on the sofa in the living room with her sister-in-law and uncle. An Qi stood aside politely, looking at me although she still had resentment in her eyes.
, but I didn’t dare to say anything, because Zhuo Jing had laid the groundwork, and if she targeted me again, my mother, sister-in-law, or uncle would all be angry, which would be like asking for trouble.
"Qiaoqiao, Xiaojing is sending you off?"
I nodded and glanced at my sister-in-law, "He's back."
The atmosphere was a little tense, and my sister-in-law nodded: "He has to go back. My sister-in-law is also very ill."
My uncle waved his hand to signal her not to say this, and looked at me: "Qiaoqiao, your mother said that your father will come back tonight and wants to see him."
My mother, who had been silent all this time, raised her head and looked at me: "Qiaoqiao... please help me to see your father. Mom has something to ask him."
As she said that, her mother bit her lip and looked at An Qi with resentment: "I want to ask him if he can let go of his eldest sister so easily. It was his eldest sister who was killed by him.