"Okay, I've said it all, Ma Jiaolong, actually it's useless for you to say people are smart, because even if you know the inside story, can you change anything? No, you can't change anything, you still have to cooperate.
I!"
I looked at her coldly: "That's not necessarily true. Don't forget, Zhuo Jing is on my side."
"Tsk tsk tsk."
The way Rong Danfeng shook her head made me want to slap her. She sat on one foot of the hospital bed, raised her leg and shook it gently: "This story is really long. Let me tell you slowly. Now
As for Zhuo Jing, he also thought that I was threatened by this dark wizard...wait a minute, you still don’t know that Zhuo Jing keeps checking on the dark wizard."
She laughed twice more: "Actually, sometimes, I'm quite touched when I see you two, especially when Zhuo Jing treats you well. The better he treats you, the more moved I am. At the same time,
I started to be jealous, and I was thinking, I must get this man and make him treat me so well. Do you think I am right?"
"Stop talking nonsense!!" I glared at her: "What on earth did Zhuo Jing find out about the dark wizard!!"
"well!"
She sighed helplessly: "What else can I check? It's all in vain. He keeps looking for people to deal with the dark wizard behind me, but the results are all tragic. You said, he is so smart.
He should have understood from the time Mr. Nan died that the person he was looking for could not be dealt with at all! By the way, there is one person he was looking for that you should know, a man named Huang, a Taoist priest, hahaha,
The technique is quite interesting, using a knife or a stick, but the result is not the same... oops..."
"Master Huang was killed by that dark wizard!!!"
I was really shocked. I didn’t expect that the employer Brother Qi was talking about was actually Zhuo Jing. No wonder he has been very worried recently. I thought it was all about work and he was helping me deal with the dark wizard’s affairs!
Thinking of his slimmer face and the way he forced a smile on me, I really want to tear Rong Danfeng in front of me to pieces!
"Don't say it so harshly. Whoever kills the other will be killed. This is what happens when you are inferior to others!"
Rong Danfeng said nonchalantly and looked up at me: "Actually, it's not that complicated. As long as you break up with Zhuo Jing, everything will be fine. The people behind me have warned Zhuo Jing a long time ago. As long as he
Break up with you, leave you... Who knows, he actually went to find Mr. Nan, something happened, who does it depend on..."
The black wizard actually threatened Zhuo Jing. I thought that when I went to Thailand, Liu Kai said that Zhuo Jing was going to visit Mr. Nan in early April. At that time, I thought that he was going to pray for blessings... If it were told later, I was going to pick him up when he came back.
Oddly enough, his reaction was a little wrong. Then he got into a fight with Cheng Baize, and after they reconciled, he told me that he had a headache. There were really too many things on his mind, and he didn't even let me know!
"Wow, you are going to cry. Are you very touched? Right! I am very touched too! The person behind me just entered Zhuo Jing's dream and told him in his ear to let him leave you, otherwise
Then he would let you die, but as a result, he didn’t leave! Do you think he wanted you to die, or did he think he could protect you?"
Rong Danfeng said, reaching out to hold his chin: "I think he wants you to die. Otherwise, after it has come to this point, why doesn't he break up with you? Hey, it's not fun to be dead all the time.
."
I forced myself to stand there: "So, the day you cried while holding Zhuo Jing and said you saw a black shadow, was it a self-directed and self-acted scene?"
"Yeah, eh! It feels so good to hold him! He smells so good. I haven't smelled it enough, so I blame you for coming. It's annoying!"
Rong Danfeng's eyes shone brightly: "However, he believed in me. He believed that I was threatened just like him. Hahaha, you know, he thought we were on the same front! What should I do?
You say I’m so scared, hahaha!!”
No wonder Zhuo Jing didn't let her talk much that day, because he was afraid of telling me about the dark wizard, which made me nervous.
"You said you two are so interesting. You are hiding it, and so is he. You are afraid that something will happen to him, and he is also afraid that something will happen to you. It's quite fun, but you two can only continue to hide it like this!"
Rong Danfeng crossed his legs like a child: "Hey! Do you know everything now? Am I super clear about what I said? Do you have the urge to cry while holding on to the wall?"
I gritted my teeth and looked at her: "Why should I cry? It was you who strengthened my determination to be with Zhuo Jing."
"Hahaha."
She still smiled, her shoulders shaking wildly as she laughed, "Together? Ma Jiaolong, you can tell Zhuo Jing right now that I know everything. I'm lying to him. All dark wizards are caused by me.
Yes, and his mother, his mother knows everything, we are in the same group, and then..."
Her damn smile finally faded away, and she stood up and stood opposite me, with a hint of evil in the corner of her mouth: "Then let him break up with his mother, let the mother and son turn against each other and kill each other. The final result is that Zhuo Jing abandons everything and goes with
When you are together, you still have to wear the hat of an unfilial son. The man who was supposed to be standing in the clouds has to step into the mud like you. He should have everything, just because you, a hermaphrodite, have all disappeared. I know
Well, it was you who ruined him, his family, his career..."
I gritted my teeth and looked at her: "You are shameless."
"Um...it's okay."
Her sinister eyes turned away, and she looked at me with a slightly innocent look: "You are shameless. Since you are intersex, why should you live secretly? Is it interesting for a deformed child to live in such a big way?"
As she said that, she patted me on the shoulder: "Forget it, let me be realistic. Do you know English? Do you understand social etiquette? If you marry Zhuo Jing, will you integrate into his circle?
Just let it go, it's also to save some dignity for yourself, it's good for you and him, you know."
I pushed her hand away and smiled to myself: "Oh, Rong Danfeng, you really let me see you."
"Where? It's just a little bit."
She took a long breath and said, "Actually, it doesn't matter if you have a high level of Taoism or Dharma. I know you too well, and you will definitely be dissatisfied. But I'm going to say something ugly first. If you dare to take action, then I can't guarantee what I will do.
Your grandpa, your mother... Hey, that's right..."
Rong Danfeng raised his eyebrows: "And your Zongbao? Oh, I can't guarantee that they are safe."
"you dare!!"
"ha!"
Rong Danfeng laughed: "What am I afraid of? Don't forget, I have money. Didn't Zhuo Jing rely on money to help you before? You know the biggest flaw that you can't beat me is, it's not Taoism."
It's about social status. No matter how powerful you are, you still rely on us for food. Ah, I remembered that you also have a friend, Cheng Baize. You can ask him to help you. However, I remember that there is also someone behind him.
You have to take care of your stupid relatives. Tsk, tsk, tsk, what should I do? You have so many problems, oh my, I’m even mad for you."
"Ma Jiaolong, please don't look at me like this, okay? We used to be very good friends, little husband."
I looked away, not wanting to see her face: "You and I are not Rong Danfeng..."
She pursed her lips and smiled: "Haven't you heard a saying? Only when you know yourself and your enemy can you win every battle. I know you very well. You know, in fact, people have to be stupid to live a comfortable life. Like your sister, a root
Jin is also very good. He is now carefree in the mental hospital. Jiaolong, please let go. With the financial resources of our company, we will support Zhuo Jing's career well. You should wish him well, not
Destroy him, right?"
I didn't say anything. In fact, I didn't know what to say anymore. She said it very clearly, both front and back, making it clear to you and completely blocking it out.
"Although, Mr. Zhuo is still insisting and wants to find someone to kill this dark wizard. But you know, the black wizard threatens him all the time. The people behind me have spoken to him. If he persists and refuses to follow
If you break up, it will kill you, hahaha, tell me, does he want you to die... huh?"
Rong Danfeng said without any pain and sat back on the hospital bed: "I'm tired and need to rest. You should go back and break the curse for your grandpa. By the way, we will hold a press conference as soon as Mr. Zhuo comes back.
On the third day of the month, I can give you a chance. As long as you break up with Zhuo Jing in advance, I will not expose the fact that you are intersex. How about, I will pay attention to it. Is it a small matter? I will stand by you.
Thinking about it from a standpoint, don’t I just want to have a good relationship with Zhuo Jing? I can’t make it too complicated and tiring.”
I stood there with my whole body cold: "Zhuo Jing is not a machine that can be manipulated at will. Why can't he guess that this is what you did? Why are you so sure that he will cooperate with you to go to that press conference..."
"Oh, because I was threatened by the dark wizard, I have to participate. The dark wizard said, let me stop you two from getting together. You said that the dark wizard is very bad? I really don't want to, I want to
My good friend is happy, but I am very afraid of that dark wizard. He is too powerful and has killed so many people. Alas, what should I do? I can only agree to him."
I smiled softly: "Then why doesn't the black wizard let me and Zhuo Jing be together? The person who doesn't let the two of us be together is his mother. I'm afraid Zhuo Jing himself has long been involved in this relationship.
You’ve thought of it.”
Rong Danfeng's face slowly moved toward me: "But he didn't break up with his mother. He also wants to be a good son. He is an adult now. Do you think he would confront his mother hysterically?"
Well, if he was a good son, he wouldn't be able to be with you, so he wanted to kill the dark wizard, but in disguise, many people lost their lives. Alas, the choice is in your hands, you can force it
I want him to take the step of being an unfilial son... remember to close the door for me when you leave, thank you."
"Oh, by the way, if he tells you that he broke up, don't act like you know everything. You have to suffer a little. Otherwise, he has to worry. Who doesn't have an ex? Just pretend that you hate him.
, he can be more comfortable, don’t worry, I will definitely help you take care of him in the future, good night."
"..."
There is nothing to say, I am really choked, I have nothing to say, there is no room for anything.
I don't know how I got out. It wasn't until I got into the car that I seemed to be able to regain my consciousness. I found that my right hand was shaking uncontrollably. I held my wrist tightly and didn't want it to move.
But the harder I try, the harder I can control it...
Looking at the night outside the window, I was still thinking about Mr. Nan's letter, "The great calamity," which meant, "Should I let go?"
"Why."
I still want to ask why, why is it so difficult and hard for me to be with him!!!
"Are you ready Jiaolong?"
I nodded, sat in front of the bookshelf that was set up for me in the recording studio, and looked at the camera with a sad face: "We can start."
Fang Dapeng looked at me with some worry: "Jiaolong, you have to think carefully about the public opinion once this matter is exposed..."
I raised my hand to interrupt him: "Let's get started."
He still looked at me with the same expression that he had difficulty accepting when he first heard me say this. He slowly made signs behind the camera, three, two, one, and said silently, "Start."
Facing the camera, I smiled softly and said, "Hello everyone, I am Ma Jiaolong, and I am an intersex person..."
"Perhaps, many people are wondering what intersex people are. I want to tell everyone that intersex people are ordinary people. I have lived a secretive life since I was a child. Except for my closest friends, even my classmates don't know who I am.
Actually, the gender on my ID card is female, but I look very androgynous, so I have always been misunderstood as a man. Today, I want to tell you that I am a very lucky intersex person, because I am intersex.
Teacher, I don’t care what others think of me, because I know that prejudice will kill all a person’s efforts and dedication. I am an intersex person, which is a physical defect that cannot be chosen. What I can choose is that I want to be a good person.
An excellent Onmyoji... nothing more."
I stood up, bowed to the camera, and couldn't help but shed tears: "Thank you to everyone who likes me. No matter whether you accept me or not, I am still an onmyoji, thank you."
…
Turning off the camera, Fang Dapeng walked up to me: "Name, do you really want to call me intersex?"
I nodded and wiped the tears from my eyes: "Just call me intersex."
Fang Dapeng looked at me anxiously: "You know, I can already predict the explosiveness of this program, but do you really want to do this? I have known you for so many years, to be honest... I don't want to stimulate you or...
How about it, I think this kind of thing..."
"I know, it's hard to accept."
He raised his eyes and looked at him: "But this is the truth. I should tell the public the truth. I can no longer torture ignorant girls and treat me as a star. Fang Dapeng, thank you."
Fang Dapeng sighed and shook his head: "Thank you for nothing. Don't worry, I will do the post-production for you. I found the best anchor in our station to do the voice-over for you. I have already thought of the words, so I said
I am a hermaphrodite, and I will teach you how to distinguish yin and yang. By the way, there is also the Mulan Ci, which is also very suitable for later use..."
"You'll have to figure it out. Can you arrange the broadcast schedule earlier for me? Try to do it on the third and fourth."
"So anxious." Fang Dapeng glanced at the date on his phone: "It's only a few days away, Jiaolong, I'll have no problem broadcasting it. Your previous shots are almost done. Just add this in and do it overnight. Tomorrow
It can be broadcast, but you have to think about it, Mr. Zhuo is still a problem."
I nodded slightly, "I've thought about it, feel free to broadcast it, I'm sorry to bother you."
"What trouble are we talking about? In fact, it was really difficult for me to accept it at first, but looking back, it's not a big deal, right? It's not your fault, you don't have time to reason."
I smiled weakly, "I'm leaving first."
"Let's have a meal together."
"No, I have something else to do, maybe next time."
After getting up to say goodbye, I walked out of the TV station building in a daze, took out my mobile phone and put it to my ear: "Hey, where are you, I want to see you, no, I want to see you now..."
Driving to the holiday paradise, I was still thinking about the scene when I just got Rong Danfeng back and called the lawyer named Zhou. I don’t know why I was so eager to know what Mr. Nan said to Zhuo Jing, but I just
He just asked us not to get married this year. Why is he so excited?
At first, Zhou Ziran didn't say anything. I pressed him again and again, "When Mr. Nan told Zhuo Jing, he asked you to speak to him in English. If you tell me in Chinese, it's not a violation of the precepts. I'm begging you. I really
I really want to know.”
"It's just a sentence, Miss Lin, do you know what the meaning is?"
"Zhou, can you help me? I just want to know how Mr. Nan mentioned Zhuo Jing and get some warning from it. Really, tell me, okay? Otherwise, I will go to Thailand to ask you."
"Forget it, let me tell you, it's just a sentence, translated into Chinese it is, letting go is the best choice, that's it."
Letting go is the best option?
I let out a breath. This is what Mr. Nan said to Zhuo Jing. Combined with Zhuo Jing's previous reaction, it makes sense. I know that he is in pain, probably more than me.
Xiao Tian was waiting for me at the door. When he saw my car in the distance, he waved hello. The car stopped next to him. He asked the security guard to park the car for me and took me into the park, talking softly.
: "We just got off the plane in the morning. Mr. Zhuo has to meet a visitor in the afternoon. In the evening, he said he would go find you."
I carried my bag and looked around. In the early summer, the flowers here were red and the willows were green. Combined with the hot spring water that was rising in the open air, it really gave me the illusion of paradise. I opened my mouth softly: "Visitor,
Who does he want to see?"
"Uh... this needs to be kept secret." Xiao Tian smiled: "Business secret."
I glanced at him and said, "Xiao Tian, Zhuo Jing must have been very hard lately."
He opened his mouth and nodded awkwardly, "Well, there's so much work and flying around, so of course he's tired, but don't worry, he's fine."
I shouted, and from a distance, I saw Zhuo Jing standing next to a waterside pavilion. He stopped, I glanced at Xiao Tian, and handed the bag to him, "Wait for me here..."
Xiao Tian was stunned, but nodded: "Okay."
I straightened my clothes, looked at Zhuo Jing's back, and ran over. He must have heard my footsteps. He turned around and said, "Jiao..."
Before I finished speaking, I took his arm and pulled him to the hiding place aside. I stood on my feet and kissed him directly. He was slightly surprised for a moment, then responded to me and hugged me tightly.
I was holding my back, and the pain in my chest came in waves like a twisting force. I had to endure it and tried to take it from him again and again, until the sound of his rough breathing became more and more suppressed, and I finally couldn't resist.
Stop, he loosened his mouth, and with a rush of bullying in his chest, he took out the tissue paper he had prepared in his pocket and spat it out.
"Jiaolong, you..."
I raised my hand to indicate it was okay, wiped it clean with a tissue, then balled it up into a ball and held it in my palm. I took a slow, deep breath. I raised my eyes, tried my best to look at him with a smile, and said, "I'm okay."
"What’s wrong with you."
He looked at me with slight worry in his eyes, adjusted his breathing and looked at me softly: "Why did you come to me all of a sudden?"
I found that I couldn't turn around and leave as if nothing was wrong. I just looked at him smiling hard and wanted to raise my hand to touch his face again, but my hand was clenched tightly: "I came here to tell you
, I am ready to... break up with you."
"What did you say?!"
I cleared my throat and tried to open my eyes wide: "Because I want to be an onmyoji all the time, Zhuo Jing, I can't marry you, I have to be an onmyoji, otherwise, I will be useless..."
"Ma Jiaolong, you..."
"This is for you." I hurriedly pulled off the chain with the ring hanging around my neck: "There are also cards, five million cards, I haven't touched them yet, there are too many, I don't dare to spend them..."
"Magnolon!!"
I tried my best not to look at him, and rummaged through my wallet desperately, and the Polaroid photo fell out. I picked it up together and handed it to him: "There is also this photo, you can keep it as a souvenir.
, No, I’d better keep it, it’s not good if I keep it, tear it up, I’ll tear it up!”
"Ma Jiaolong, what are you doing? Hey!!"
He quickly bent down and picked up the photo that was broken into several pieces: "Listen to me, no matter what happens, I will follow you..."
"I want to be an Onmyoji."
"What did you say?"
I looked at him and opened my mouth softly: "I want to be an Onmyoji, really..."
"Do you know something?"
I shook my head: "I just want to be an onmyoji, please help me."
He clenched the photo in his hand and said in a low voice: "How do you want me to help you, huh?"
I lowered my eyes and pulled his arm, "Don't work so hard. I think we are both too tired. I have figured it out. I want to be an Onmyoji..."
"Look at me, do you really want to break up?"
I raised my eyes and looked at his forbearance, "From this moment on, you don't have to speak, I will let go, but I hope you understand, you understand me..."
My chest felt a little turbulent. I gritted my teeth and watched him nod. He understood me and I naturally understood him. It was just like this. It was really tiring. I didn’t know if I was just temporary as he thought.
If we wait any longer, if Jiang Meiyuan continues to be like this, there will be no tomorrow for him and me.
I lifted my feet and left directly. I tried not to let myself cry. After walking very far, I couldn't help but look back. I saw Zhuo Jing standing there with his back to me, his whole body desolate. I didn't want to push the choice to him. I
I can't bear to let him come down from the clouds as Rong Danfeng said. I am willing to break up. In fact, it is no big deal...
"Jiaolong, what's wrong with you? What did you say to Mr. Zhuo?"
I waved my hands, raised my feet and kept walking towards the door. The early summer wind was actually a bit chilly.
"Your bag, Jiaolong!"
I stopped for a moment and turned to look at him: "In the bag is the gift agreement for the shares. Please help me return it to him. Thank you..."
"What? What do you mean!"
I quickened my pace, and finally turned into a trot, running like crazy. It wasn't until I got into the car that I couldn't control the tears. I was worthless, I was fooled, I couldn't do anything to that dark wizard now, everything that happened today was gone.