When I walked to the door, the heavy rain stopped.
The dark night sky was still humming with two muffled farts, like a fat man burping contentedly after drinking and eating. I raised my head and looked at the sky quietly. I even think that maybe God is just a middle-aged man with a big head and a fat stomach. He is drinking and eating at the moment, holding a toothpick in his hand, crossing his legs and humming a little tune, watching my joke in some corner of the sky...
It’s gone, nothing is gone, did I get it too easily, so when it was taken away, I felt so happy...
No wonder grandma wanted to go against the will of heaven and change my life. I finally know why grandma refused to let me be with Zhuo Jing. What I was afraid of was that one day I would lose everything. The natural yin and yang are gone, the old fairy is gone, and I don’t even have the chance to start over.
A strange emotion actually grew in my heart. Looking back and thinking about the road I have traveled, I even felt that if I could do it all over again, I would still choose to fall in love with Zhuo Jing, even if it was just for a moment. I couldn’t live with it, but at least I loved it.
Looking at the dull sky, I suddenly stretched out my finger and yelled: "Fuck you!! I don't regret it! I don't regret it at all! My Ma Jiaolong is dead, you can take it if you want it, but Remember, don’t let me turn over! Otherwise, I won’t be as useless as I am today! Follow the rules!! I remember the ethics of being an onmyoji, why are you doing this to me!! Being a good person has its uses!! Yin De Yin De Who the hell am I accumulating for! You hack me! Hack me!!!"
"Jiaolong!"
I was so out of breath from cursing that I almost spurted out a mouthful of blood again. I raised my eyes and saw San Meier holding Xueer waiting for me by the car not far away. Maybe she heard my yelling in the sky and looked at me. There was a slight worry in her voice. I didn’t move my feet and looked at her blankly. My heart ached instantly...
"Third sister...Dan Feng, I'm sorry for you."
Opening my mouth gently, I walked up to her unsteadily, looked into her eyes, and tried hard to control the emotions flowing in my heart: "I'm sorry, I can't help you get revenge."
After saying that, I didn't dare to look at her again, walked straight to the car, opened the door with my left hand and got in.
"Jiaolong!?"
The third sister called me, caught up with me and sat in the passenger seat and looked at me: "What's wrong with you? How could you be like this? What's wrong with Mr. Zhuo, ah, I see your forehead is bleeding, and your hands!" Why is my hand swollen like this? I need to see a doctor quickly!!"
I shook my head and withdrew my hand: "It's okay, the pain is too much and I can't feel it anymore..."
"What's going on!!!"
'Wow~~~' Xue'er cried out softly and started to lick my already swollen fingers. I sniffed gently, my eyes still lowered, not daring to look at her: "I will not be an Onmyoji in the future. Already..."
"...Ah, you are no longer an Onmyoji??"
I pursed my lips that seemed to be dry and said, "In order to make Zhuo Jing wake up, I will do whatever it takes..."
"So, the price is that you don't want to be an Onmyoji anymore?"
I nodded and looked up at her: "My natural yin and yang were taken away, and my hands were disabled. From now on, I will never be able to do anything. Now, I am not even as good as an ordinary person. I am a cripple... I'm sorry, although I really want to help you, and I also want to kill that dark wizard, but now I'm... really useless."
At the end of the day, I didn’t have the energy to talk anymore. I was always unwilling to give in. I always felt that since I was born with yin and yang, although I didn’t have what ordinary people had, what I had was beyond the reach of ordinary people, so I was pretentious. , there are even some noble elements in it. I feel that one day my understanding of Taoism and ability to apply it will surpass everyone else. Although I don’t say it, I try to be humble, but deep down in my heart, there is a The voice keeps shouting and keeps telling myself that it is only a matter of time that I need to grow up.
When the time comes, Mr. Big's abilities are within reach, but now I realize that I am nothing, I am just a mortal, a mortal being played with by an invisible and intangible person called "God". , He asked me to have something, and I had it. If he told me not to have it, then I was gone. I didn’t even have room to struggle and admit my mistakes, it was just gone.
"Jiaolong, don't do this, listen to me, you are not a waste, you know, you won't lose anything, you won't lose anything!"
Third Sister hugged me and patted my back gently: "Believe me, you will definitely get back on your feet. Uncle Chou said you will definitely avenge me. I believe what he said. He said you If you can avenge me, you will!"
I closed my eyes and tears came out of my eyes, "I'm sorry, Sanmei'er. I was too impulsive. I was too afraid that Zhuo Jing would die, so I threw the old Xian'er's row. In order to let them out, I hurt them." In the future, they will never realize it in person. My yin and yang roots have been broken, and all five fingers on my right hand are useless. I really can’t help you anymore. It’s my fault. It’s all my fault. It was my fault. I also wanted to avenge you, Mr. Nan and many innocent people, but I didn’t know what to do at that time..."
"It's okay, Jiaolong, it's really okay, you still have me, you still have me."
I cried so hard that it was more like venting. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. All I want is for Zhuo Jing to wake up. Even if he wakes up and won't remember me anymore, then I don't want him to die, as long as he can be well." If I live, then all tragedies can be ended in this life. I was too selfish. I completely forgot about the dark wizard at that time. I'm sorry, Third Sister, it was my fault. I was too selfish."
San Meier slowly let go of her hand and looked at me with disbelief. I thought she blamed me, but who knew she actually said: "Jiaolong, do you think Mr. Zhuo won't remember you when he gets up?"
I nodded mechanically: "This is the exchange for letting him wake up. The only thing he will forget is me, Sanmei'er, I..."
"etc."
San Meier interrupted me: "It can't be like this. You have done so much and Mr. Zhuo didn't know anything about it later? This is unfair to you. Has he woke up? I'll tell him. You must let him know how he woke up and how much you have lost in order to continue his life!!"
"do not go!!"
I held her tightly and shook my head vigorously: "This is my exchange condition. I must keep my promise not to disturb his life again, and let him forget about me. At least his life will be different from now on." It will become smoother. From another perspective, it is already very hard for the two of us to be together. This is not a bad thing. As time goes by, I will let it go. Really, this is what I mean!!"
"Jiaolong, but you..."
"Stop talking, I'll go to grandpa's hospital first, and then we'll have a good discussion about the dark wizard. It doesn't matter even if I can't be an onmyoji anymore. I can take you to Brother Qi to see if he has any
No matter what solution, don’t worry, there will definitely be a solution!”
My right hand was broken and I couldn't put it into gear, so I could only use it to hold the steering wheel and cross my arms with my left hand to start the car. When the car got on the road, I calmed down slightly, but my thinking was still a little confused, and I couldn't stop vomiting in my mouth.
Sentence: "Don't worry, I will find someone. No one in this world can cover the sky with one hand. We can find Onmyoji to join forces. Cheng Baize will not help that dark wizard. Really, Cheng Baize is my brother, he will definitely
…”
"Jiaolong!"
Third sister interrupted me, "Only you can help me. Don't worry, you will cheer up. Do you know what Uncle Chou said to me in his last words? Although I couldn't believe it at that time, and I didn't want to believe it.
, but I don’t think Uncle Chou would say these things to me for no reason, he said...Ah! Jiaolong! What are you doing! Don’t drive so fast!!!”
"Hey hey hey~~~"
I couldn't help but look at her with a sly smile: "You little bitch, you really made it difficult for me to find you."
‘Woof woof woof~~~!!!’
Xueer bit my arm like crazy. At the same time, I suddenly came back to my senses. There was no one on the road in the middle of the night. I saw the car driving towards the edge of the city like a wild horse.
She stepped on the brakes, but the speed of the car would not slow down at all. Xue'er was still screaming, and San Meier's face was full of panic: "Who are you! Who are you!!"
Suddenly, there were many shadows in front of me, as if countless pedestrians appeared in the sky and hit the front of my car with the same target. I was so frightened that my eyes widened, and my unconscious right hand and left hand turned the steering wheel randomly, until there was a "Bang" sound.
'!!!' loud noise made my whole body lean forward, my legs were violently separated, and I only heard a 'squeak' sound. The pain hit me at that time, I opened my mouth wide, and before I could scream, the airbag completely
It popped up and hit the door directly until it bounced back to the seat. My vision was completely black, my brain was in chaos, and my limbs were swollen, sore and numb, and I couldn't move...
‘Crack’!!
The car glass on the side door suddenly shattered. Before I had the energy to see what was going on, I heard Xue'er barking in the night. Then, I felt San Mei'er pulling me beside me:
"Jiaolong, are you okay? Ah, are you okay..."
I tried my best to regain my energy, but it was still dark in front of me, "I'm fine...just now, it was a dark wizard just now..."
'boom!!!'
The cab door shook, as if a heavy object was thrown over and hit it hard. I was shocked, and I heard Xueer shouting ‘Ouch~~!’ from her throat, and then there was no sound.
"Xue'er!!"
The third sister suddenly exclaimed. I held my forehead and tried hard to restore the brightness to my eyes. I watched the third sister hurriedly push open the car door, ran to my car door with a slight limp and picked up the bleeding Xue'er.
"Xue'er!! Xue'er!!!"
I pushed open the car door with difficulty, and then I realized that the car had hit the wall of a flower bed on the roadside. If I drove forward for a while, I might have arrived at Yuanshan Cemetery. It was dead of night, not to mention that there were no cars at all at this time.
I have never done this before. The further you go in, the longer the monitoring distance between you is. She actually used my body to lure me here. Her purpose is so obvious that everyone on the road knows it.
San Mei'er's forehead has been bruised, and the blood is flowing down her cheeks, accompanied by tears. Looking at Xue'er, who is already motionless and red in her arms, my heart feels cold. Is she cruel? Yes, if she doesn't
It’s a shame that she has the title of dark wizard on her head. (To be continued)