I don't know why I cried. I still remember that when I left the hospital, I told Jiang Meiyuan openly that I just hoped Zhuo Jing would be well.
Then why am I crying?
I don't know, maybe I know Zhuo Jing's character too well. I know that he is not a very warm person. Unless the relationship is really close to a certain level, how can he send baby products?
Moreover, looking at Xiao Tian’s tone, I felt that this person must be very familiar with Zhuo Jing, very familiar with him, and he also sent baby products. Who could it be if it wasn’t his wife?
My thoughts seemed to be imprisoned in a dead end again. I don’t know how depressed and uncomfortable I was. The night was thick. I cried and wanted to slap myself. If he really got married and had his own children, what should I do?
I faced him with a generous smile. I didn’t let anyone mention him or ask him. I told everyone that I had let go. So what did my reaction mean? I still can’t let go.
What!!
The little guy was a little helpless at my reaction. Maybe he didn't expect that I would suddenly collapse. After a long time, he signaled to me that he still wanted me to see it, but I kept shaking my head and stopped reading. This kind of
I really didn’t want to do anything similar to self-abuse. Until he left with some helplessness, I was still sitting there alone, with stars everywhere in my sight. I thought, Zhuo Jing is the star farthest from me now.
Brother Ma took away his memory of me, and now Xiao Gazi accidentally let me see the baby products he was about to give away. Are all these telling me that the only one who is stagnant is myself?
When the sky was slightly bright, I stood up with a slight trembling, holding on to the wall. With my eyes red and swollen, I walked into the house with empty steps. Looking at the third sister who had not yet woken up on the kang, I pulled up the quilt and covered my head and went to sleep. It was time to go.
The ones that are gone, the ones that should bloom and bear fruit have also bloomed and bear fruit. One day, San Meier will also go to look for Han Zheng. Ma Jiaolong, who is left in your world...
I'm still sick. I don't know how I got sick. In my confusion, I keep remembering the way the little gazi put his hand on my heart. He should be feeling my heart. He wants to know what's deep in my heart.
Who was the person I wanted to see the most, but I didn’t expect that my kindness would make all my pretense fall apart.
In fact, I hate my own duplicity. I entrust my strength to the years and rely on a long time to put on my armor and overcome the thorns. But the little Gazi’s unintentional kindness allowed me to peep into it.
The unknown fragility deep in my heart. In fact, I don’t understand myself. I thought, forget it, just talk about it. I spent more than a year numbing myself, but when I saw
In an instant, he lost his armor and was covered in wounds.
Maybe I can deceive everyone, but I can’t deceive myself.
Emotional ups and downs are just a matter of a moment. After I recover from the illness, I will continue to live a life of making myself look fat. Now that I have seen this, God’s intention is obvious. Maybe one year is too short. In the future,
One day, my heart will gradually settle down. No, even if it doesn't settle down in my life, I will not interfere in his life.
Suddenly I remembered something Cheng Baize once said. I didn't understand it at the time, but now I understand it all of a sudden. He said, "I am losing weight day by day, and one day I will lose weight successfully." What he means is that I will lose weight.
Forget Zhuo Jing, no, unless Brother Ma also takes away my memory, otherwise, I don’t think I will forget him. Even if I feel reluctant to give up, I will bless him and see him happy, because I
I won't deny it, I really love him.
After lying on the kang for three days, my third sister was not there when I got up. After I finished eating the porridge and side dishes left for me, I slowly opened the creaking door. The sun was a little dazzling, and I was slightly stunned.
After squinting, I suddenly realized that this thing called time, no matter how sad or happy you are, will tirelessly push you forward.
The bright white sunshine made me break out in sweat. I pushed open the door and stubbornly wanted to sit in front of Uncle Chou's grave. I slumped on the kang like mud for a long time. I even looked down on myself and raised my feet.
As soon as I stepped out of the threshold, I was stunned for a moment. There were actually a few mountain pears on the ground. This is a unique wild fruit on the mountain. It is very sweet and crisp to eat now. It can also be made into frozen pears in winter. Aunt Zhu gave it to me in winter.
Sanmei'er and I gave it as a gift, saying that it was not a rare thing, but it was considered a specialty here. The fruit was very big, and it seemed that it had been specially selected. I picked it up, held two in each hand, looked around, and lifted it up.
Feet, continue walking to Uncle Chou’s grave.
I ate pears on the mountain, and then I sat by Uncle Chou’s grave with a straw stick in my mouth. I didn’t have anything to say, I was just in a daze. When the sun went down, I patted my pants, got up, and walked down halfway.
Suddenly he stopped and turned back: "Why don't you come out yet?"
There was no movement behind me except for the sound of rustling grass. I gently touched the corner of my mouth and said, "If you don't want to come out and get to know me, it won't be difficult for you. Thank you very much. The pears are delicious."
‘What~~’
The cry of the sheep came out, and I smiled as I watched a child holding a lamb emerge from behind the tree with some shyness and surprise to look at me: "Do you know that I planted the pears?"
I smiled: "I know, you are the first person in this village besides Aunt Zhu to give me delicious food. Of course I know you."
"Is it sweet?" He looked at me and smiled sheepishly.
I nodded: "That's very sweet, thank you."
"You are the first person to thank me."
He put down the lamb in his hand, held the rope and looked at me scratching his head while wearing clothes with holes in them, "No one said thank you to me."
I walked up to him and touched his head: "Of course I have to thank you for such a sweet fruit. Why is there only a lamb today and where are the others?"
His eyes turned red at that time, "I sold it to buy medicine for my grandpa. There was another one that was given a ride by Tianbao and died when I got home. It was not cured..."
I held his hand and said, "Don't worry, there will be lambs, eh?"
He sniffed, looked at my red eyes and smiled: "Uncle, you are the first person to help me teach Tianbao a lesson. No one in this village dares to speak of Tianbao... In fact, I am also afraid of him..."
At the end of the sentence, there was a sense of guilt in his tone, as if he felt that he should not have run that day.
I continued to hold his hand and laughed, "Uncle, no, you should call me aunt. I'm not from this village. Why should I be afraid of Tianbao? It's wrong for him to bully others, especially if you are better than him."
Xiao, it’s nothing, don’t worry about it.”
"Auntie?" He was stunned and looked at me with some confusion: "You are uncle. People in the village say you are sir."
"Well..." I squatted down in front of him and rolled my eyes and explained carefully: "They call me sir because I do a job called sir. In fact, I am a woman, but I look better.
He looks like a man, very tall, right?"
He looked at me seriously: "It's because you dress like a man. In fact, when you said you were aunt, I could tell."
I continued to touch his head: "Okay, anyway, people in the village can call me whatever they like, but just know that I am aunt. Don't call me uncle in the future, okay?"
"Then, Auntie, are we... friends from now on?"
I looked at him with great honor and stretched out my hand: "Of course, we are friends! Nice to meet you. My name is Ma Jiaolong!"
He looked at my stretched out hand in surprise, pulled his clothes and rubbed his dirty little hands vigorously, and then shook it with me: "My name is Xiao Shanzi, and I... I'm also very...
Nice to meet you."
Just like the lagging behind who is the worst at studying in the class and easily ostracized, the first friend I made in this valley was actually a child who was more than ten years younger than me. He had obviously been lonely for a long time.
Suddenly, I was so happy that I had such a big friend. I was at a loss for what to do. He happily took me to his house, a house that was almost the same as the ugly uncle’s house. He enthusiastically introduced me to his grandfather who was doing work in the yard.
, and then carefully took out a few pieces of candy from a rusty iron candy box and gave them to me, saying that his grandfather bought them for him during the Chinese New Year, and he was reluctant to eat them all. He was originally going to eat them until the Chinese New Year this year.
But since I am his friend, I naturally enjoy the highest level of treatment.
A few pieces of fruit candies that were almost stale have deepened our friendship, but his grandfather, who seemed a little unprepared for my arrival for fear of neglecting me, poked a hole in my heart. This old man reminded me of my grandfather.
I don’t know if his grandfather has heard the villagers’ comments about me, but I can tell that he is very happy that his grandson has someone who can talk, so he made me a plate of their hardest food, which is
A plate of scrambled eggs. When I left, I secretly put 500 yuan under the plate, and then went back hand in hand with Xiao Shanzi.
But the next day, the old man came with a cane and gave me the money very persistently. He only said one sentence, thank you for being willing to be friends with me and my grandson.
I held the money and did not chase after him. I stood at the door of Uncle Chou's house and watched the old man's hunched back as he walked away. Suddenly I felt that my act of giving money was too worldly and even unnecessary. I didn't want to go there too much.
Trying to figure out the old man's inner thoughts, there's just one thing I have to admit. My five hundred yuan, in addition to giving people some sympathy that is insignificant to me, makes them look as humble as they are waiting for my charity.
It is meaningless to the real improvement of Xiaoshanzi's life.
Fortunately, the old man stopped me from entering a certain misunderstanding in time, and indirectly let me know the crux of the problem. My actions will only make Xiaoshanzi feel comfortable for a while, but how can I change a family and a village?
The current situation is, obviously, troublesome.
"Auntie, can I ask you a question."
I slowly came back to my senses and looked at him who was drawing on the ground with stones: "Ask."
He would accompany me to the mountains every day, staying by Uncle Chou’s grave. The lambs were grazing around him, and he would play around me, saying a few words to me from time to time, and asking for help.
Holding the stone in his hand, he looked at me seriously: "Why do you want to be friends with me? None of the children in the village like me, and neither do the adults."
I smiled: "Because you are very nice and you look like my brother. I like you."
"Your brother?" He was stunned: "A brother who is as old as me."
"Yeah." I nodded: "In my impression, he is a little older than you..."
"Then you like him very much, right?"
I shook my head: "I didn't like him before because I thought he was annoying. Later, I liked him a little bit, but he left me..."
He looked at me with a vague understanding and said, "Where has he gone? Does he not know that you are in our village?"
"A place far away." I spoke softly, touching his head and tugging at the corner of his mouth: "If you don't talk about this anymore, are you going to go to school next year?"
Xiao Shanzi looked at me with a somewhat depressed look: "I don't know, my father said that when the sheep is big, he will sell it for me to go to school. I want to go to school, but to go to school, I have to go to the village next door, and I have to live there on campus. I can't
Let my grandpa stay at home by himself. I miss him. I don’t know if I want to go to school. Auntie, why don’t you and Sister Sanmeier teach me together? In this way, I can learn what Tianbao and the others learned, and I can also be at home.
I’m staying with my grandpa.”
I looked at him with embarrassment: "But my aunt is not very good at studying, Xiao Shanzi, you still have to go to school, you know."
He lowered his eyes and continued to draw on the ground with stones very carefully: "Then let the third sister teach me first, and then go to school and wait until the lamb grows up..."
I looked at what he drew and gradually became a little surprised: "What you write are English letters? Did Sanmei'er teach you?"
Because of my relationship, Xiaoshanzi often comes to play with me. Sanmei'er also likes him very much. Such children are somewhat cherished in the hearts of adults, but I didn't expect that Sanmei'er would actually
Did you teach him this?
He smiled and looked at me scratching my head in embarrassment: "Well, Sister Sanmeier said that if you learn this well, you will be able to speak to foreigners in the future. I heard Tianbao speak foreign languages, and he said hello, I learned it, but Sanmei'er said
Sister Meier said that you must learn this well so that you can speak foreign languages in the future, and you cannot blindly learn other languages."
"Oh." I was stunned and looked at what he wrote carefully: "ABCD... have you learned all twenty-six?"
Xiao Shanzi nodded: "I can do it, Auntie, you can test me. Sister Sanmei'er said that she will test me when I learn how to do it."
Maybe it’s okay to watch children like this in big cities, but in this mountain valley, this child has never been to school, and there is no TV at home, so he has learned English letters. Can you not surprise me!?
"Is it really a plenary meeting?"
"Yes, I will!"
I cheered up and looked at him: "Okay, you can recite it from the beginning for me first."
Xiao Shanzi looked at me without any fear, and recited it very coherently: "Auntie, no matter where you pick the letters, I can do it!"
I looked at him with interest: "Okay, then the sixteenth one!"
"P!"
"the second?"
"B!"
"Nineteenth?"
"S!"
I opened my eyes slightly, and suddenly realized what number I blurted out. Looking at Xiao Shanzi, I said with some trembling: "Twenty-sixth..."
"Z!"
"Where's the third one!"
"C!"
I took a stone and wrote down the English numbers that Xiao Shanzi said. I looked at the last number in disbelief: "The second one?"
"Auntie, you have passed this test."
My eyes were a little swollen, and I looked at him numbly: "Tell Auntie again..."
"B, auntie, what's wrong with you?"
I sniffed and looked at the English letters written in front of me, and a wry smile appeared at the corner of my mouth: "Cheng Baize, are you interesting..."
P,B,S,Z,C,Q,D,G,B.
I looked at these English letters and slowly wiped them with my hands. This fool, how tired he is of hiding himself...
"Auntie, you..."
I stood up directly, took a deep breath, turned my head, and shouted at the profound mountain: "Cheng Baize!! You big fool! Big fool!!!!"
"Auntie, what's wrong with you? Who is Cheng Baize? Why are you crying suddenly?"
"I didn't cry. Auntie didn't cry. He is Auntie's brother. Auntie just misses him..."
Holding his hand, I adjusted my mood: "Let's go home." (To be continued)