Although he was out of sight, I still knelt down and kowtowed three times in the direction he left. The nearly two years I spent in Luomen Ridge... no, it can be said that my more than twenty-five years For the first time in my life, I felt like I had such a clear mind.
The thing that had been tight and imprisoned in my mind seemed to open up in an instant. To be honest, with the expectations of so many people like my grandma, Mr. Nan, Uncle Chou, and Third Sister, I naturally tried my best secretly to achieve my goal. I came back, but I am also afraid. I am afraid that I will meet God again and say something to me that will bind my heart. I am even ready to lie to God. For example, my master asked me, have you let go? , I will answer, I let it go.
Actually no, but I think I would lie, because I know very clearly what the gods want me to be like. If they give me abilities, like the three old fairies who help me, what do they want me to do? , if I want to practice Taoism, I naturally have to act as if they are satisfied, but if they are satisfied, that is not the real me. Maybe, I will still be in pain, unless one day I can really be desire-free. No need, but I don’t want to become a god. I don’t have such a high pursuit...
But the appearance of my master finally allowed me to peek into my own heart and the direction I knew. Yes, it was me who made everything complicated. I was too hesitant, afraid that I shouldn't do this or that. There will be gods who are unhappy, but I have never thought about being myself. I am an Onmyoji. As long as I never lose my true heart, why should I look forward and backward?
If I still lie, even if I coax the gods to give me back my virtue, won’t I still be on the same path?
I understand, I finally understand, it is normal to be single-minded. I should be lucky that this master understands me. No one will force me to let go of my obsession. I don’t need to chant sutras like an ascetic to become a Buddha. All I need is respect. After walking through this life in my heart, I am still in the human world, and I am just a mortal - I finally understand the four words "let nature take its course".
Looking at Uncle Chou's tombstone, I kowtowed a few more times. It seemed that apart from my master, the one who understood me was Uncle Chou, because he once said that if you can't let go, don't force yourself to let go. In the end, it will only put me in a dilemma, because my past is too entangled. I have the power and the natural yin and yang, but because of the natural yin and yang, I am constrained and worry about the gains and losses.
Now that everything is clear, I finally understand why Uncle Chou asked me to come to Luomenling to cultivate my character. It seems that I have fallen to the bottom and let others bully me, but only after experiencing the sourness of life can I truly understand how to be a great gentleman!
No wonder I have always felt weak mentally and physically. Even if I reach a certain level of Taoism, the words "Master" are still out of reach for me. But now I finally understand, because I have never lowered my head to look at my heart. I am eager to grow, but I am afraid to face myself. However, I am a bit cowardly. Many times, I dare not be myself. In this regard, I am not as good as anyone.
Taking a deep breath, I stood up slowly in the dark mountains, and slowly put my hand on my heart, "The real Mr. Big means here..."
Every flower and tree is the Tao.
Although my master sometimes gives me the impression that he is a bit unorthodox, I have to admit that his realm is unrivaled. Yes, who said you can't cultivate with an ordinary heart? I looked up at the sky and I was slightly stunned.
Exhaled: "God, I won't be sorry to you, but I won't be afraid of you either. From now on, I will be myself."
The mountain wind was stiff and cold, but I felt more comfortable than ever before when I stood there. With the corners of my mouth raised, I felt a lightness that I had never felt before from head to toe. I let go, not that I let go of my ordinary mind, but that I let go of my ordinary mind.
Let go of all the worldly worries, understand and face yourself.
After I came down from the mountain, I went straight in and slept in my living clothes. Naturally, I was thinking about getting together with Master in my dream. To be honest, I wanted to talk to him more. I don’t envy any gods, and even after I die, I don’t think about myself.
It can be sublimated into something, but I like my master, all his attitudes, and his style. I think I will die one day, but I hope to be like my master after death, with a heart in my heart.
Ordinary heart, free and easy.
When the scene was extremely beautiful, I knew I was in a dream. He sat cross-legged on a stone step, looked at me, and smiled softly: "Did Master give you some clarity?"
I nodded and smiled without saying a word.
If you understand it, you understand it. If you understand it like this, how can simple words express your mood?
He stood up slowly, walked to me, reached out and touched my forehead: "Now that you understand, let's go back..."
I was a little surprised and looked at him who turned around and walked up the stone steps again: "Master, you haven't taught me yet..."
He looked back at me, still smiling: "It's yours, why should I teach it again?"
"But, I..."
Things suddenly burst out of my mind, and I opened my eyes wide: "Master..."
"Hahaha~~ Come back, it's all yours. In the past, you were too involved, so the things I taught you couldn't be presented in your mind at once. Now that you see through your heart, it will naturally come out. Remember to digest it well.
, the road to the world depends on how you walk."
I watched him sitting on the stone steps again and took a few steps forward: "Master, will you stay here forever without reincarnation?"
"This is where?"
He looked at me, changed into a comfortable position on the stone steps and breathed out gently: "This is just your dream. Of course I will enter reincarnation because I have an ordinary mind."
"But, Master, why do you teach me this and never show up before?"
"Oh, I don't dare to show up. You have so many rules in the past. If I show up, won't it conflict with your nobles and immortals? Are you born with yin and yang? You are incompetent. There are many people who come out to demand you. It's not like I have nothing to do.
Ergan."
He started to be playful again when he spoke, and I was a little anxious: "But, I don't understand. Since you are my master and you teach in my dream, then who are you and why did you choose me to be your disciple?
, is it because I was born with yin and yang?"
He looked at me calmly with his eyes: "Not only are you born with yin and yang and have extraordinary understanding, I chose you to be my apprentice. The most important thing is that I don't want you to follow my old path in the future. Is it just an ordinary mind? What's the matter?
It’s no big deal, forget it, I’m tired from talking too much, you’ll understand later, go back, I need to rest as a teacher.”
"Hey, Master, Master...?!"
woke up.
The third sister looked at me with sleepy eyes: "Jiaolong, why don't you take off your coat when you sleep? It's so uncomfortable..."
I didn't answer, but turned over and got off the ground. I stood in front of the broken cabinet and looked at my face in the mirror, which was still covered with bruises. The palm of my right hand was hot. I lowered my eyes and saw that Tiangang Bagua was back...
"Jiaolong, what's wrong with you?"
The third sister got dressed and stood next to me on the ground, saying, "Did you not sleep well last night? I was too sleepy and went to bed very early. Let's go to town today and find a doctor to take a good look at you."
Hands, otherwise if it snows in a few days..."
"Third sister."
I interrupted her, turned around and held her shoulders with both hands: "I'm leaving for a few days, you're waiting for me at home, you know."
"Where are you going?"
Third sister rubbed her eyes and looked at me: "I'll go with you. You're not familiar with the way to the town."
"I'm not going to town, but I have something to do. I can only go there by myself. You wait for me at home. No matter if I finish it or not, just wait for me for three to five days and I will be back."
Third sister was puzzled: "If you don't go to town, then you..."
"Don't ask so many questions. Just wait for me. I'll be fine. Remember, no one will bully us from now on. I will get back what you lost."
Third sister was stunned and looked at me blankly: "Jiaolong, you seem to be different..."
I smiled: "Trust me."
No words came out of Sanmei'er's mouth. She just looked at me and nodded, "Well, I believe you."
I think aura is a kind of confidence. Only when you have confidence can you exude aura and other things, and people around you will believe what you say.
In the morning, I went to the small shop in the village and bought the things I needed. When I walked out, I saw Hou Saner. When he saw me with his pocket in his pocket, he glanced at the bag I was carrying.
, I wanted to come up and give me a few words without being angry, but I looked into my eyes, clicked my mouth twice with a little unwillingness, wiped my arms and hummed softly as I entered the small shop: "Sister-in-law,
Why are you still selling things to that liar in the city? Didn’t Erhu say that he won’t do the business of that fake gentleman and that little fool in the future?”
"Hou San'er, when did I sell anything to that city man? I remembered that I didn't sell anything when San Meier came to buy anything!"
"Hey, what was that fake gentleman holding in his hand just now? Wasn't it the one you were selling?"
"That's nonsense. That fake gentleman was here a while ago. Don't say it's useless. I won't give you the wine on credit."
"I'm not talking nonsense. Didn't that fake gentleman just leave from here..."
I walked far away and heard nothing else. I want to buy something. Who can stop me? Hou Saner, our accounts have to be settled slowly.
Before I reached the door of Uncle Chou’s house, I saw an aunt in the village who was about the same age as Aunt Zhu hurriedly ran to me and asked an old man of the same age who was sitting in front of her house: “Old Qiu, do you see?
I saw my rhubarb! It was gone in the morning. Did the young people in the village take it away to eat the meat?"
She didn't speak to me. In the eyes of the villagers, I was still nothing. But after listening to her words, I stopped for a moment, turned my face and looked directly at her: "Auntie, your dog is at the door. He is old.
It’s grown, so I’ve found a place for myself, and I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable seeing it.”
The lady looked at me blankly: "Is it at the door? I can't find it..."
"In the firewood pile, go and have a look."
As soon as I finished speaking, there was a sneer behind me, "Ms. Chen, don't ever believe what this liar says. His instructions are never accurate. When you turn around, don't knock down your firewood pile before I kill you."
My leg was smashed!"
I turned around and looked at Zhou Laoer, who had a look of disdain on his face, and said, "Hey, what a coincidence. Your mule has gone for a walk in Beishan again. It's not a good thing that the beast has nowhere to go."
Zhou Laoer snorted: "Nonsense, it kept running away, and it was still in my yard when I left. You liar, you really owe..."
"Second brother! Second child!!"
Before he could finish his words, his daughter-in-law Yuqin ran over in a hurry: "Our mule has wandered off somewhere!"
I raised the corner of my mouth and looked at Zhou Laoer's suddenly changed expression: "Go to Beishan and have a look. Don't blame me for not reminding you. This time, it won't run back by itself..."
After saying that, I lifted my feet and walked away. I only heard the aunt behind me say: "Then I have to go home quickly and look at my firewood pile!"
"Aunt Chen, don't believe it, he is a liar!!"
Am I a liar?
Raise your eyebrows, there's a long way to go, I'll have some fun with you when I'm free.
After entering the door, Sanmei'er was teaching Xiao Shanzi arithmetic in the yard. She was a little confused when she saw the things I was carrying: "Jiaolong, how did you buy this? Is the store selling your things?"
I smiled and didn't say much. Instead, I went straight in, put all the things I bought into a bag, straddled my body and went straight out: "Third sister, I'm going out. I'll be back in a few days."
,don’t worry."
"Auntie, where are you going?"
Xiao Shanzi put down the stone in his hand and looked at me: "Take me there."
I squatted in front of him and touched his head: "Auntie, I want to admit my mistake. I'll be back in a few days. If Auntie isn't here, you should stay with your third sister. She knows a lot.
Now, if you don’t know something, you have to learn it hard, you know.”
Xiao Shanzi nodded in understanding and looked at San Meier: "Sister San Meier, where is Auntie going?"
Of course San Mei'er didn't know, she just felt that I was different from before, so she put her arms around Xiao Shanzi's shoulders, looked at me and shouted: "Jiaolong, come back soon!"
"Um."
When I reached the entrance of the yard, I turned around and said, "Wait for me."
I know very clearly in my heart that I will have a long time to explain everything to Sanmei'er. Maybe I don't need to explain, I just use facts to prove my changes, but there is something I must do now.
.
We went directly up the mountain, but we didn’t go to Uncle Chou’s grave. Instead, we walked into the deep mountains alone. San Meier and I had never gone to collect mountain products, but the place we wanted to find was very clear. To put it more profoundly, it was
What I calculated, to put it simply, was my intuition. The road in the valley was extremely difficult to walk. While I looked up at the sky that was blocked by the big trees and only a small part of it was exposed, I struggled to follow the guidance in my heart.
Okay, because the road was too difficult to walk and the climbing was not smooth, I fell several times, but the tree branches did not cause too much trouble to me except for a few scratches on my face where the bruises had not receded.
Before the sun completely set, I found a cave and took a long breath. I saw a little white fox at the entrance of the cave that was a little frightened by my arrival. He slowly squatted down and dug up the long grass under the cave.
Naturally, I saw another palm-sized deep pit similar to a rat hole. I turned my face and directly met a pair of yellow-skinned eyes that were still sizing me up not far away. I felt relieved, everything was...
…This is the place I’m looking for, the place where the three immortals and their juniors are all present.
Kneeling down at the entrance of the cave, I took out the red paper I bought from my bag, as well as the old immortal's tablet that I had kept in my bag after repairing it. I set up a memorial tablet and wrote the names of the three immortals on the red paper.
Then I got down under the queue, laid out the sacrifices I bought, and lit three incense sticks. I kowtowed a few times and said, "Three immortals, Jiaolong is here to admit your mistake..."
"Jiaolong knows that you are not really angry with Jiaolong, you are just helping Jiaolong. You expect Jiaolong to be promoted, and you also know that Jiaolong cannot go beyond the rules, so you leave, which is to let Jiaolong start a new life.
For myself, from now on, I will not be bound by any restrictions, and I will just be a great gentleman according to my own wishes."
"You have watched Jiaolong grow up, and you know that Jiaolong sometimes likes to act on his own initiative, but Jiaolong should never have done it, and he should not have thrown you into the third place. This matter is indeed what Jiaolong did wrong.
The entrance to the cave was found by Jiaolong according to his wishes. Even if the fate between Jiaolong and the three immortals was over, Jiaolong still hoped to find a good place for the immortals. The mountain spirit would be pure. From now on, he would be able to practice here without any distractions.
…”
Kneeling there, I lowered my eyes and opened my mouth: "The three immortals have been waiting for me for eighteen years to come and enlighten you. They helped Jiaolong not even a little bit. It can be said that without the three immortals, Jiaolong would not be what he is today. Jiaolong is deep in the world."
I know that since the three immortals have attained the Tao, their minds will naturally be able to tolerate all things. Now, they have given the Tiangang Bagua to Jiaolong, but the mistake is a mistake. Jiaolong has always regretted it. You are the elders that Jiaolong respects and loves the most.
How can Jiaolong be so ignorant? Today Jiaolong will send you here, and Jiaolong himself will kneel down for three days to show his sincerity..."
The leaves rustled behind me, and I knelt down without moving. Now that my fairy is gone, there is no need for me to continue worshiping them at home, but I want to find a good place for them, no matter whether they really blame them deep down.
With me, I have to admit my mistakes. When I was a disabled person, I had no face to face it. Now that I have regained my moral integrity, the first thing I have to do is face myself and the mistakes I made out of anger.
No one replied to my words. I thought that if the three immortals accepted this place, they would give me some hints and inspirations. I knelt down and did not move. I just waited for the incense to burn before I put it on. I thought clearly and knelt down for three days and three nights.
, this incense also needs to be burned for three days and three nights.
When I came here, I thought very clearly that in the past three days, unless Lao Xian'er spoke, I would not get up anyway. Sincerity is what is necessary. My legs became numb after sunset, let alone ordinary people.
It's been three days, and I couldn't kneel for about three hours, but I gritted my teeth and closed my eyes in the dark valley and waited quietly. As soon as the incense burned out, I would go up again. No matter whether Sanxian'er opened his mouth or not, I
Everyone has to pay for their own mistakes. (To be continued)