It was still dark when we arrived at the village entrance by bus. As soon as we got off the bus, a speeding black car drove past us.
"Mom! Look! It's a car!!" Xu Linlin pointed to the direction the car was driving away, looking very excited, "Why is there a car in the village!"
Yanhong looked at the direction the car was driving and clicked her tongue twice: "No, at first glance, only rich people can afford to drive it. Linlin, mom tells you, you have to study hard and find a rich man."
Only if you drive a car like that can you enjoy the happiness of your partner."
"Mom, don't worry, I will definitely study hard." The mother and daughter stood at the entrance of the village, looking fascinated in the direction where the car had disappeared.
I was very speechless. It was just a car. I took Xu Meijin’s hand and we went home first.
As soon as I entered the house, I realized something was wrong. There were wide tire tracks in the yard, and after entering the house, there were a lot of nutritional supplements and snacks on the kang: "Grandma, who is here?"
Grandma was sorting out those things and glanced at me, "Oh, your little sister-in-law."
I immediately thought of that car. "Grandma, is Sister Soul here to pick me up?"
"What do you want me to do?" Grandma responded calmly.
"Big brother said that someone would pick me up to ride on the Ferris wheel!" I said, raising my feet and wanting to run out, but after running for two steps, I realized that I couldn't catch up with the car at all. After entering the house, I felt very special.
Feeling aggrieved, he looked at grandma, "Grandma, why didn't you let Sister Soul wait for me? Did you deliberately let me go to the county seat?"
Grandma turned around and looked at me: "What does your sister-in-law's coming have to do with you? She didn't say she was here to pick you up. She just said she was here to thank grandma because she is in good health. What's wrong with you?
How about grandma calling your spiritual sister-in-law in front of you?"
I had nothing to say and lowered my eyes, "Well, it's almost the Chinese New Year, why hasn't Big Brother asked someone to pick me up and take me to the city? I want to go ride the Ferris wheel, and I really miss that Big Brother."
Grandma frowned, "Your sister-in-law said that An Qi went to the city during the holiday. He may have taken An Qi to play and forgot about you. Jiaolong, didn't grandma tell you? That Dr. Zhuo's nephew is with
An Qi is destined, nothing will happen without you, what kind of wheel is that, so old and tall, how dangerous it is, don’t sit on it."
When I heard that An Qi had gone to play, I felt very uncomfortable. I just sat on the kang in such a depressed way. I was really unhappy for a long time. I thought that Zhuo Jing would not forget me. Didn’t he tell me that I was going to play with him?
Can he also see it?
I was eagerly looking forward to it, but he didn't come until the New Year. I got really angry and told myself that I would never pay attention to him again.
It wasn't until I entered junior high school that I gradually forgot about Zhuo Jing. Gradually, I became a little vague about his appearance. I only remembered that he was good-looking, but I forgot why he was so good-looking.
From that time on, my grandma rarely visited others, saying that she was not in good health. The most anxious thing for me was that my aunt never came, but my little penis had obviously grown up.
This makes me feel a little disgusted with myself. I feel particularly uncomfortable when I take a bath alone. When I was a child, I didn’t understand anything, so I didn’t have any worries. The older I got, the more I realized that I even hated myself.
"Jiaolong, what's wrong with you?"
Grandma heard me throwing towels alone in the room, and couldn't help asking at the door. Now when I take a shower, grandma will make room for me and let me wash myself in the room. She is waiting at the door if I run out of water.
, she was boiling hot water for me and then mixing it up and bringing it in.
"I'm fine."
I responded and wiped my body in a hurry. As soon as I stood up, I faced the large wardrobe mirror at home, but I didn't want to look directly at myself. My breasts had developed, which was normal. I touched my neck and found that there was no Adam's apple, and I couldn't speak either.
It sounded like a girl, but my height was considered astonishing at the time, at 1.75 meters, and people from sports schools had already come over to lobby me to join a basketball team.
I'm fourteen years old. I'm only fourteen and I'm already 1.75 meters tall. I once heard the girls in my class say that they won't grow taller after their period. They were all depressed that they weren't tall enough. I was the only one who was depressed.
I am too tall.
Compared with boys, my figure is very thin, but compared with girls, I am a bit strong. The more I wander between boys and girls, the more depressed I am. I sighed, put on my clothes directly, turned around and opened the door.
He glanced at grandma and said, "I've washed it."
Grandma walked in and looked at me with her face raised, "Jiaolong, you're not happy. Who said anything about you at school?"
I forced myself to smile, not wanting my grandma to be affected by me. It’s only been three years. Grandma seemed to have shrunk. She could only reach my chest. She used to hold me, but now I hold her. “No.
, who dares to say anything about me, I am so strong, most boys can’t beat me.”
Grandma reached out and touched my face, "Jiaolong, you can't fight with boys. Are you a girl? Hey, your Aunt Yanhong was chatting with me the day before yesterday, saying that you look a bit like a young man nowadays.
Everyone likes to watch the people in TV dramas, the ones from Hong Kong and Taiwan, called beggars, flowers, etc. Look, my granddaughter looks a bit like an actress, with big eyes, a high nose, and she looks very handsome."
I was a little helpless and looked at my grandma, "Grandma, the Huaze Lei that Aunt Yanhong said is a boy."
"Male?!" Grandma's eyes widened when she heard this: "I thought a beggar was a girl. Now I have to talk about her. My granddaughter looks like a boy. She is more heroic.
Well, this is called heroic appearance, you are the only model I see on TV."
I smiled, looked at my grandma's face, and stretched out my arms to hug her. "Grandma, I'm not like anyone else. I'm just like you. I've thought about it. I don't want to go to school anymore, and I won't be able to pass the high school exam. I'll just stay at home with you."
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"That's not okay." Grandma pushed me away. "You have to be educated. I won't let your Aunt Yanhong let Daya go to school. She has to graduate from junior high school, and you have to go to school. Even if you are
When I accompany my grandma, I have to study higher. I have to go to a technical secondary school or something. During the holidays, I stay at home and look at the incense sticks for people who come to see me. Grandma is too old to see anything anymore.
It’s up to you to learn slowly.”
At this point, I was a little worried, "Grandma, when do you think I can understand it? Why am I not very good at showing it to others now? I can only rely on the incense stick to explain it, but I don't understand anything else."
Grandma smiled and said, "Don't worry, hurry up, you will pass quickly. You look tall, but you are actually still a child. You can't rush this kind of thing."
I could only nod, but I didn’t know what to say, and I was very confused about the future. I believed what my grandma said, that I would be a husband, but I would question myself again, because some dirty things would disappear after I was twelve years old.
I can’t see, and my son only occasionally smiles at me in my dreams. I wake up whenever I want to talk to him. Therefore, except for my body that is different from ordinary people, I can’t see any difference between myself and others. (Unfinished)