On the night of the first seven days, I was sitting on the threshold of the house with my grandma's portrait in my arms. My parents asked me to come in, but I refused to go in. Finally, my grandpa said to just let her sit there, maybe she could see her grandma and parents.
I went back to the house to sleep helplessly. I didn't want to say anything, I just wanted to wait for my grandma to come back. Even if she hugged me, I didn't see her figure until late at night.
In the morning, my grandpa came out and asked me to go back to sleep. I turned around and looked at my grandpa with red eyes: "Why didn't grandma come back?"
Grandpa sat next to me and sighed: "Your grandma came back and talked to me. She said she won't let you do this anymore. Sitting outside can easily catch a cold. She said I came here."
"Then why didn't grandma let me see her..." I looked at my grandpa and asked numbly.
Grandpa touched my head: "Your grandma said she was busy down there. She had a lot of things to do when she went down, so she can't come up often now. She asked you to be good and don't let her worry. He also said, I'm afraid you'll feel uncomfortable if I let you see her. Jiaolong
Ah, your grandma is worried that you won't be able to think about it. Stop being like this. You have a long way to go. Let your grandma know that you can live a good life. Only in this way will your grandma feel relieved."
I rested my head on my grandpa's shoulder and slowly closed my eyes: "Grandpa, I will live a good life and won't let grandma worry." Holding the portrait in my arms, I knew that grandma didn't want me to see her.
It's good for me, but I still can't stop it. I miss her.
My parents are going back in the afternoon, and I heard they want to go back and do business.
My younger brother is not interested in grandma's funeral. He has never seen grandma a few times. The seven-year-old child can't sit still for a moment. His biggest hobby is to chase the chickens in my yard and then go there by himself.
Giggle.
Dad asked him to call me sister, and he gave a perfunctory cry and then went to chase the chickens again. I thought that after he left, our chickens would probably stop laying eggs due to excessive fright, so I was a little annoyed with him, no.
Because he is my younger brother, but at that age, I had a special resistance to particularly naughty little boys. Coupled with my extremely low mood at the time, I had no intention of talking to him.
"Dad, Qiaoqiao, just follow me back to the city, rent out the land at home, and then take care of the livestock before leaving. If you go to live with me, you two will be the only ones at home, and I won't worry."
My father has been persuading me and my grandpa to go with him. I glanced at my mother and she said very little to me and my grandpa. I didn’t feel that she was feeling bad. As soon as she said she was leaving, she called her brother over there: "Xiaobao."
!Stop messing around and get in the car and go home!!"
Grandpa looked at his father and waved his hand: "I won't go. I have been here all my life. I will go and see the old lady while I can still miss her. Besides, people don't like to bother when they are old. If Jiaolong
Go, let Jiaolong go, young man, it is better to go to the city, your mother also said when she was here, let Jiaolong go and stay with you."
"I'm not going." I said directly from the side and glanced at my father: "I will stay here from now on and live with my grandpa."
Dad frowned: "What are you doing here, Jiaolong? You don't know how to farm, so there is no use staying here. If you miss your grandma, Dad can drive you back to visit the grave and so on. You
If you just stay here like this, your studies will be in vain."
"I'm not going back to school." I said directly. I had already missed my graduation exam, so it didn't make any sense whether I went back or not.
My father still wanted to open his mouth, but my mother said from the side: "Oh, okay, she can be wherever she wants. Aren't you anxious? If she wants to go, she will go by herself. It's useless for you to talk nonsense here.
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The younger brother sat in the car and looked at his father: "Dad, don't let others come to our house. She won't play with me or let me play with chicken. She's not good."
Dad glared at his younger brother: "Xiaobao, what are you talking about? This is your sister, your biological sister!"
The younger brother snorted and pouted, "My sister's name is Tong Anqi, not her!" As he said that, he turned and looked to the other side.
The father was a little anxious and wanted to say something. The mother reached out and pulled him: "Okay, you are still competing with your own child. What does he know at the age of seven?"
As she said that, her mother looked at her grandfather: "Dad, let's go back first. If you have anything to do, call me. If Lin Qiao wants to go to the county seat, I will ask Dazhi to pick her up. If she doesn't want to go, then forget it. Anyway, this child is yours
I also know that she has hated me since she was a child, and I don’t expect her to do anything to me until she leaves."
Grandpa glanced at me and then looked at my mother: "Huijuan, Jiaolong has never been angry with you. This child is just in a bad mood right now. Okay, I'll call you when she wants to go. Be careful on the way."
point."
Dad was a little helpless. When he got into the car, he looked at me again and said, "Qiaoqiao, call Dad." After that, he started the car and left.
Grandpa looked at me: "Jiaolong, you'd better go to the county town. You see, except for a few young people who are studying, they are in the countryside."
I took a deep breath, put aside the negative emotions caused by my mother's words, and looked at my grandpa: "Grandpa, if I leave, would it be interesting for you to live alone?"
Grandpa was stunned for a moment, and then sighed: "Hey, I don't want you to leave, but you are getting older."
I twitched my lips and said, "It's okay when I'm old. I can't get married like this. From now on, it's just the two of us. Anyway, I can look after others and make money. Let's go back to the house."
…
No one could have imagined that two years would pass by in a blink of an eye. I would go up the mountain to weed my grandma’s grave every two days, and then sit there, not knowing what to think, for the whole day.
What I asked more was whether I would really be a big man. After picking up Xian'er, I did try to help others, but I always felt that I was a dabbler. Fortunately, I didn't encounter any big problems in the village.
To help find a sheep or something, I would fold a few straw sticks and throw them down where the livestock had strayed, so that I could determine the direction and follow the distance of the lost livestock. Nine times out of ten, I would be able to find them, and there were quite a lot of them.
People believe me and say that I am Ma Yufen's granddaughter.
But I feel that a gentleman can’t just do this. I think about the things I went through with my grandma when I was a child, and then looking at myself now, I always feel a little embarrassed. Unfortunately, my grandma rarely gives me dreams, and occasionally
In the dream, I could only watch her smiling at me from a distance, and then I would wake up.
The only thing I can't explain clearly is that every night in my dream, there seems to be someone teaching me something. I can't see his face, so I can just hear him talking to himself. I said you spoke too fast.
I can't remember, and he doesn't stop. Sometimes he can talk all night long, and I feel very tired when I wake up.
I talked to my grandpa, and he said that he was teaching me skills. He said that my grandma also said that someone taught her this way. I thought to myself at the time that I didn’t even understand what skills he was teaching me. So, after two years,
I actually didn't even invite Lao Xianer once, and I even doubted myself.
The sun was going down, so I took a breath, took out the incense I brought, prepared to offer it to my grandma, and then left. After lighting it, I knelt down in front of my grandma’s monument and muttered as before: “Grandma, are you okay?
Just tell me a dream, I miss you so much. Aunt Liu said that his grandson has been crying at night recently and asked me to go and check on him tomorrow. I will come back to accompany you the day after tomorrow. Grandpa has gone to the ground. If he is okay, I will take him to the hospital.
Get up."
As I said that, I kowtowed twice and was about to get up, but I found that the incense stick today was not burned properly.
Black smoke was billowing, and the incense head on the left hand was the longest and the middle was the shortest. It was a typical incense of evil and a bad omen. This was the first time in two years. I frowned: "Grandma, someone will come to us within seven days."
Are you causing trouble at home?"
"Jiaolong! Jiaolong!!"
Someone called me from behind. I turned around and saw Xu Meijin running towards me while crying. She stood up and I looked at her: "What's wrong?"
She wiped the tears on her face: "This time, this time my dad really wants me to get married!" (To be continued)