Chapter 362 Spring Night is worth a thousand pieces of gold (1)
Chapter 362 A spring night is worth a thousand pieces of gold (1)
After reading the letter left by Shi Xinrui, Chen Hao felt even heavier.
He can feel it.
I can feel Shi Xinrui's helplessness that "the book cannot express everything".
She could even feel that she actually had a lot of things she wanted to say to herself - for example, Chen Hao had saved her, treated her, quarreled with her, taken advantage of her, touched her body, and had the first time with her.
Second-rate……
Of course, he could also feel her sadness - the kind of love that she dared not love; the helplessness and pain that she had to leave even though she didn't want to leave.
But what Chen Hao didn't understand was, had she really reached the point where she had to leave?
"Sister Rui, you used to be able to see through the world of mortals, life and death, why can't you see through a marriage certificate?"
"Sister Rui, since you insisted on leaving and refused to stay with me, why did you give your body to me and give me your precious first time that night?"
Chen Hao's heart was already in chaos.
He desperately needed the anesthesia of alcohol.
What's more, he urgently needs a pure land to find a home for his duckweed that has lost its roots.
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That night, there was no woman by Chen Hao's side, only loneliness.
That night, what lay in his arms was not a lovely woman, but a wine bottle.
He didn't know how much he drank, let alone how long he drank... He only knew that he read the letter left by Shi Xinrui a thousand times, which also made his depression a thousand times heavier.
But fortunately, he was drunk after all.
When he fell into a deep sleep, he felt less pain, less depressed, and less uncomfortable.
I thought that everything was just a dream. When I woke up, everything was over.
But damn, Shi Xinrui appeared in his dream again.
What's more, what's more terrible is that in the dream, another bitter drama of parting was staged.
Chen Hao's heart felt so painful.
He kept struggling and resisting, almost using all his strength to catch Shi Xinrui and prevent her from leaving.
However, Shi Xinrui still disappeared. Just like a ray of light and shadow, she disappeared into nothingness in an instant, leaving only a wisp of lingering fragrance to Chen Hao.
He was frightened, he was afraid... He struggled desperately, but there was nothing he could do.
He waved his arms, swinging like crazy, as if he wanted to catch the wind and catch the shadow, as if he wanted to completely hold in the palm of his hand the lingering fragrance left by Shi Xinrui when she left.
Perhaps, it was his efforts that moved God.
In the darkness, he vaguely caught something. Feeling it carefully, he found that it was a white and tender arm.
Yes, it’s the beautiful woman’s arm.
At this second, Chen Hao's heart was racing and he was unbearably excited. Faintly, he felt that Shi Xinrui was back...
The dazzling sunlight came from the window and fell on Chen Hao's face one by one, torturing his nerves all the time.
He originally thought that Shi Xinrui was back, that she was willing to stay with him...
However, the beauty obtained by catching wind and shadow is just a short-lived dream.
"It turned out to be just a dream!" Chen Hao's heart felt as if he had been stabbed, and the pain was extremely painful.
But then——
"That's not right!" Chen Hao was stunned.
"If everything that just happened was a dream, then why do I feel so real at this moment?"
Chen Hao could clearly feel that he was still holding a fair and tender arm.
Moreover, that woman is right next to him.
"Did this dream come true?" Chen Hao turned his head excitedly.
But the next second, he realized that he was wrong.
——The arm he grasped indeed belonged to a woman. However, this woman was not Shi Xinrui, but Liu Yuexi.
——Even if their beauty is equal, Liu Yuexi is Liu Yuexi after all and can never replace Shi Xinrui.
Chen Hao's heart sank again.
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Helpless, heartache, hesitation...
Even Chen Hao himself didn't know why he cared so much about Shi Xinrui; why he was so sad about her departure.
Perhaps, there is an unspeakable loneliness hidden in every man's heart - this loneliness will only be stimulated when the people around him leave.
At the same time, Chen Hao let go of Liu Yuexi and retracted his hands.
He was like a frustrated child, huddled at the corner of the table, looking ahead motionlessly, as if trying to find Shi Xinrui's shadow in the crack of light outside the window.
Liu Yuexi naturally saw his expression. But at this time, she didn't know what to say.
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Silence, endless silence.
Chen Hao's eyes fell outside the window, while Liu Yuexi's eyes fell on his face.
The awkward silence was finally broken by Liu Yuexi: "Hao, I just read this letter..."
Chen Hao did not blame Liu Yuexi, nor did he say anything. He still looked at the sunshine outside the window and imagined Shi Xinrui's smile.
Liu Yuexi's heart couldn't help but be hurt by Chen Hao's attitude.
Only then did she realize what kind of position this woman named "Shi Xinrui" occupies in Chen Hao's heart.
"Perhaps, in Hao's heart, I am not even one-tenth as good as Shi Xinrui?" A jealousy surged from Liu Yuexi's heart.
But, jealousy is jealousy. If Chen Hao still looks like this lost soul, Liu Yuexi will be even more heartbroken.
"Hao, if you care about her so much, why don't you chase her back?" Liu Yuexi said.
But this time, Chen Hao finally spoke.
"Chasing? Where to start?" Chen Hao smiled bitterly: "Moreover, fate cannot be forced. Since she wants to leave, how can I keep her heart even if I have extraordinary abilities?
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"Then...then what can you do to cheer up?" Liu Yuexi really couldn't bear to see Chen Hao sink like this.
Chen Hao didn't know about this either.
"I don't know." Chen Hao shook his head and sighed with pain on his face: "Maybe, after some time, I can forget her; or maybe, drink some wine, get drunk, and when I wake up, I
Just forget about everything..."
Forgot?
Is it possible?
Chen Hao himself has no confidence!
But Liu Yuexi noticed what Chen Hao said next.
"Drink? Get drunk?" Liu Yuexi frowned, then smiled very gently: "How about I drink with you?"
Chen Hao couldn't help turning his head: "You, drink with me?"
Liu Yuexi nodded, the look in her beautiful eyes full of sincerity.
"That's fine." Although Chen Hao had just sobered up from his drunken state, since Liu Yuexi offered to drink with him, he naturally would not refuse...
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Alcohol is the easiest thing to numb a person's consciousness.
Just like this time——
After Chen Hao and Liu Yuexi exchanged a few glasses of wine, a blush appeared on the corners of their faces.
However, Liu Yuexi, who drank too much, could not withstand the devastation of alcohol. After five more glasses of foreign wine, her consciousness became blurred and she fell limply into Chen Hao's arms.
At the same time, her speech also became abnormal.
"Hao, do you know?" Liu Yuexi's eyes were really confused: "Do you know how uncomfortable I have been these days? Do you know how I felt when I was locked in the bedroom?"
As soon as the chat box was opened, there were two more tears in Liu Yuexi's eyes.
At the same time, there are still tears of pain and grievance...
"In the Xue family, I have endured too much and endured too much. Although I look like a rich lady on the surface, in fact, I am not even as good as two maids..."
"I have no freedom, no friends, no social circle, and no pursuit... all I have is Wang'er..."
"But that bastard Xue Wen actually took Wang'er away and refused to let me see him. At that time, I even wanted to die."
"In desperation, I can only call you and ask you to help me. However, I am worried that after you go to Xue's house, you will lose your life and be tortured by Xue Wen..."
As she spoke, Liu Yuexi choked up.
But at the same time, her eyes became more blurred and her tears shone even more...
"But thank God..." When Liu Yuexi spoke, she had already raised her head, raised her red lips, and brought them close to Chen Hao's chin:
"Not only did you come, but you also reunited Wang'er and me."
"Although I don't know what you sacrificed, let alone what you and Xue Wen talked about... But it is undeniable that last night was the most comfortable night I slept after marrying into the Xue family. It seemed that everything The world seems to be pure, with no disputes, no grudges, no intrigues, and no family rules and restrictions."
"And all of this changed because of your appearance. Just imagine, if I hadn't met you, I wouldn't have been able to sleep so peacefully in my life."
As she was talking, Liu Yuexi burped. It seemed that she was very drunk and was talking only subconsciously.
"I woke up this morning with a good mood and wanted to share it with you. But unexpectedly, I found you lying in the hall in such pain. And when I saw the letter in your hand, I suddenly realized that in In your world, I am not even as good as the woman named 'Shi Xinrui', not even one-tenth of her status in your heart..."
"Why, you care about her so much, but she leaves you?"
"She's a bastard, she's a bastard, she doesn't know how to cherish... If it weren't for her sudden departure, you wouldn't be so painful or uncomfortable."
Liu Yuexi raised her head, drunkenly, and once again shortened the distance between her and Chen Hao.
As a result, their lips were only three centimeters apart.
"But, Hao, do you know? How much I envy her, how much I want to replace her, even..."
"Stop talking!" Chen Hao couldn't listen anymore, and quickly leaned over, kissed and interrupted Liu Yuexi's lips.
After all, Liu Yuexi was a drunk. Just because she drank too much did not mean that Chen Hao was drunk.
You know, Liu Yuexi's words were not like a steel knife that stung Chen Hao's heart?
Does he want to affect her mood because of his own mood?
This is really unfair to her.
"It's all my fault, it's all my fault!" Chen Hao despised himself in his heart... (To be continued)