If some things are kept in the heart for a long time, they will become a burden, and then become like a mountain, making even the strongest person unbearable.
This is what Chen Hao is like.
There are too many people and things hidden in his heart. And those people and things are always a sharp thorn in his heart.
If no one touches this thorn, it will lie there obediently; but once someone touches it, it will pierce Chen Hao's heart so hard that he almost suffocates and finds it difficult to breathe.
But just now, Xiaoyu's slap and those words touched the thorn in his heart.
At that moment, he suddenly remembered many things, so that when the past came to his mind like a spring, he could no longer control his emotions, and thus showed his most vulnerable side.
That's why he cries.
Although he knew that crying was a cowardly way, when he thought that Bingbing had paid so much for himself, he still left her alone abroad, and now she fell into the hands of others... Boundless
The feeling of guilt and self-blame forced him to temporarily forget his self-esteem.
However, it is better to cry in front of your woman than to bury all your worries in your heart.
So at this time, under the questioning of Xiaoqin and Xiaoyu, he could not help but slowly reveal the depression and the thorn in his heart...
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Everything starts from the love affair between him and Bingbing.
At that time, Chen Hao was still in the Middle East and was a mercenary of the Blood Debt Mercenary Group.
After several years of living as a mercenary, he not only experienced the cruelty of the battlefield and the dangers of human nature, but also learned how to survive in extremely harsh environments.
And every time they perform a mission, there are only two things on their minds: one is to complete the mission; the other is to live.
Because only when he returned to the base alive could he see that face that was too beautiful to be true.
——Bingbing.
Bingbing is not Chinese. Therefore, the name "Bingbing" was naturally chosen by Chen Hao for her.
At that time, the two of them were passionately in love and were always the envy of the mercenaries of the Blood Debt Mercenary Group. And just as others envied them, they were always in love as before.
But they all know in their hearts that from the day they become mercenaries, their lives are no longer under their control. One day, they may face separation or death.
But they never expected that the accident would come so quickly.
That was the last mission of the Blood Bond Mercenary Group.
During that mission, Chen Hao's former "brothers" rebelled and betrayed the entire Blood Debt Mercenary Group. So that time, the Blood Debt Mercenary Group lost miserably.
But this is not what makes Chen Hao the most angry.
The reason why he was angry was that during that mission, he almost died due to the betrayal and betrayal of his "brother".
He was so angry that he lost control of his emotions. He ignored the dissuasion of his companions and insisted on finding the rebellious "brother" to get an explanation.
But in the end, he paid the price for his impulsiveness.
He naturally fell into a trap carefully arranged by the "enemy" and fell into a dilemma of life and death.
And the reason why he is still alive is entirely because Bingbing risked his life to save him at a critical moment.
He saved his life, but as a price, Bingbing lost his legs...
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All in all, if Chen Hao hadn't suddenly lost control of his emotions that time and went deep into the enemy's hinterland regardless of dissuasion, then Bingbing would not have lost her legs as a result.
That was always a thorn in his side.
After that incident, he paid attention to his emotions all the time and worked hard to control his emotions to avoid an out-of-control incident from happening again.
But even though he had tried very hard, last time, he still hurt Xiaoqin because he lost control of his emotions, causing her to suffer severe brain damage and almost died from it.
After that, although he also had some reflections, things like emotions cannot be controlled just by wanting to.
Just like just now.
When he learned that Bingbing had fallen into the hands of others, and the fate was unpredictable, his mood fell into a blood-red state, and he could not get back out of it.
At the same time, his emotions also fell into madness, and he almost made a big mistake.
Just imagine, if Xiaoyu was not by their side, then his hand would most likely strangle Xiaoqin to death!
If things really get to that point, it can't be undone by shedding a few tears...
Because of this, the fragility in his heart suddenly exploded at that moment, and then became out of control.
He suddenly thought of Bingbing.
At first, Bingbing lost his legs to save him. However, in order to take revenge, he returned to Yunhai City alone, leaving Bingbing, who had limited mobility, to live alone abroad.
During the period when he returned to China, although he also called Bingbing, every time, it was because he wanted something from her. And when was it because he missed her that he made a phone call to express her condolences?
It was because of his negligence that Bingbing fell into the hands of others and became a handle used by others to blackmail him.
He simply didn't dare to think about it any further.
If Bingbing really had a shortcoming, he would probably never forgive himself in this life.
It was precisely because of various reasons that his emotions overflowed at that second - this overflow was not only directed at Bingbing, but also directed at Xiaoqin.
This overflow represents the guilt and self-blame in his heart, and it also represents the principles of his life.
But now, all this has passed.
What he should think about is how to better control his emotions to avoid similar things from happening again.
Of course, before that, he must find a way to rescue Bingbing...
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Chen Hao's statement was not long, but it could easily bring tears to his eyes.
Therefore, when he finished speaking, Xiaoqin and Xiaoyu's beautiful eyes were filled with tears.
From Chen Hao's narration, they all understood his feelings and love for Bingbing, and also how he blamed himself and felt guilty.
But things have already happened, so what can we do if we blame ourselves, feel guilty, and struggle?
"It's okay!" At the same time, Xiaoyu couldn't help but breathed a sigh of relief: "Fortunately, he didn't cry because of my slap or those words."
While Xiaoyu was relieved, Xiaoqin also obediently put her head on Chen Hao's shoulder, and just snuggled there in a very pleasant way.
"Brother Hao, people have seven emotions and six desires. It is inevitable that there will be times when you can't control your emotions. You have done a good enough job and there is no need to blame yourself for this." When Xiaoqin said these words, she was still thinking about Chen.
Hao's statement just now.
After all, if Chen Hao hadn't suddenly mentioned it at this time, she and Xiaoyu would never have known that there was such an important woman in Chen Hao's life.
"What kind of woman is Bingbing? What does she look like? What kind of personality does she have?" Such doubts arose in Xiaoqin and Xiaoyu's hearts, so much so that they both couldn't wait to see Bingbing.
.
Isn't it true that Chen Hao is not like this?
If he can't see Bingbing for a day, the stone in his heart will never settle down.
Of course, what he is more worried about is: he will never see Bingbing in his life...
If this is the case, it will be the strongest shadow in his life, and it will eventually become a shackles on his conscience that will be difficult to remove for the rest of his life... (To be continued)