Chapter 72 All living beings with depression are equal
Zhao Yinxi was no longer interested in studying math problems. He lay down on Xiao Ran's huge bed, looked at the minimalist ceiling with no main light, looked at the lead-gray door-to-top exclusive wardrobe, and thought to himself, like
It’s strange that a rich kid like Xiao Ran, who doesn’t distinguish between grains and grains, doesn’t work hard, opens his mouth when food comes, and stretches out his hands when clothes come, leading a life that is envied by everyone, but he actually feels so bored and has no love.
Is depression equal to all living beings?
Zhao Yinxi tried hard to recall his school days. Because of his poor family situation, he was extremely humble. His character was timid and timid, and he was never confident throughout his life. However, even so, he never thought of committing suicide at that time.
On the contrary, when I was in junior high school and high school, I kept holding my breath. Although I was a miserable young man with all kinds of depression, I was still brave and capable. I always thought that one day, I would be like those poor scholars in ancient times and work as a farmer.
, ascend to the Emperor’s Hall at dusk. Show your grand plans and feel proud.
However, after going to college and working, he became much more depressed and negative. The cruelty and unbearability of reality were like basins of cold water, pouring cold water on his chest and back.
As a topic writer in a small town, Zhao Yinxi carried a snakeskin bag containing donations from the whole village. When he entered the prestigious 985 school, he was very ambitious, thinking that his moment of glory was coming soon and his future was bright. Little did he know.
That moment was already his peak moment. Since then, he has been on a downward spiral.
The college classmates are well-dressed, well-informed, well-informed, eloquent, and have a particularly strong learning ability. In this place where dragons and phoenixes gather, Zhao Yinxi is mentioned mostly because of his ironic name, which is comparable to that of a prince.
That mocking expression and joking eyes brought him infinitely closer to the truth of life again and again. It was ridiculous and childish to want to change his destiny against nature.
If the university is still a competition between classmates, after all, in the ivory tower, there is no swordsmanship. As long as you swallow your anger, you can still survive. After work, when it comes to promotion, salary increase, house money, it is like the eight immortals crossing the sea, each showing his magical powers. What?
Everyone has almost achieved their perfection by worshiping those who are superior and suppressing those who are inferior, making plays when the situation arises, and talking sweetly with their swords.
Zhao Yinxi is clumsy by nature, taciturn, compromising, and has no family background or money, so he cannot gain the upper hand in anything. He is like a tool in the company.
Tired work, tense relationships, heavy life, and shattered dreams made Zhao Yinxi completely fall into a state of depression. He felt that the way forward was confused and had nothing to say. Yes, depression, depression is everywhere...
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Thinking of this, Zhao Yunxi felt a shiver all over his body. He really felt that he had such a strong desire to die at that time, but his life was so trivial and complicated, and he couldn't breathe all day long.
I don’t have time to think deeply about this.
Could this be the secret fate between him and Xiao Ran? In parallel time and space, two people with no intersection, two people who despised the world, indulged their bodies, gave up on themselves, and finally died suddenly at the same time.
If Xiao Ran stayed up late playing the game called "Feifei" and died suddenly on the runway, then what was the reason for my, Zhao Yixi, soul to soar? Is it also because of playing games?
Zhao Yinxi suddenly jumped up from the bed. He was developing games, yes, developing games!
This is the mysterious origin between him and Xiao Ran!