The old man showed a weak smile when he looked at it, but I could see that there was a lot of relief in this smile. I never had an indescribable feeling inside, and I felt uncomfortable.
"Old man, I'm back. There's no need to be afraid of anything. Everything will pass and everything will return to its original state. Don't worry, I promised you that I won't be afraid of anything. These things will definitely persist.
,Old man, I will definitely be here to accompany you, every day and every moment..."
The old man showed a happy smile, but there was always a deep anxiety in his smile. I could tell that maybe the old man was worried about my sudden return. I finally knew that I was with
The relationship between the old men is so deep.
Mr. John was also beside him, and he also looked like he was secretly crying.
Mr. John nodded to me and seemed to use a very direct language without any concealment. Maybe the old man and Mr. Yu Han had reached some kind of tacit understanding.
In other words, the old man seems to have already known that the end of his illness is about to come. In fact, we have known this fact for a long time.
The old man only had a few months to live, but we thought that this time would come so quickly and so abruptly.
I have refused at all before.
But even if it is my rejection, I cannot ignore the situation that I must see now, and everything will no longer be undone.
Just as a human being is so small in the process of life, do you want to see any particularly big situation in this process?
Have you done anything particularly big? No.
"Miss Cat, it's really a good time for you to come back. Although I don't know what kind of threat this poses to you or what kind of situation it is. I can only pray for your safety, but the old man is indeed
In fact, with your company, I will definitely be very happy."
"Miss Cat, I'm going back now. If you have something to do, call me. I hope the old man can be happy. When you come back, you should give him something that he will be very happy about. Your company will definitely make the old man happy. I hope
God bless."
After saying this, the old man nodded happily to Mr. John, maybe everything was left unsaid.
Why bother to say too many things and what kind of attitude does it imply?
No more, because everyone already knows a lot of things and it’s like a one-way line that never comes back.
After Mr. John left, I asked the old man directly.
"Old man, why have you been hiding your illness from us, right? When the day I leave, you are still hiding your final illness. It doesn't matter. From today on, I will definitely accompany the old man every day."
The old man looked at me, smiled and nodded, seemingly showing a very pleased smile.
"You are becoming more and more like your mother. Your eyebrows and eyes are exactly the same as your mother's, including your personality. When Na Jintang said he wanted to send you away, I was against it.
Yes, because I know that even if I send you away, you will still come back, just like your mother, responsible and accomplished. Your mother is the same as you back then."
I was stunned for a moment. I didn't expect that the old man would mention my mother when he opened his mouth. The topic of mother is a very unfamiliar term to me, but it is so far away.
And it is a very warm thing hidden in my heart, something that cannot be touched with words and heart, and it has been buried in my heart for so many years.
The old man didn't seem to notice any of my shocking emotions at all, because it was so important for me to come back now, and he didn't even realize a single emotion.
I had to cling to a lot of things when I came back, and he seemed to be immersed in an old time.
I couldn't help but feel slightly worried about the old man. Could it be that his mood was completely different from the feeling I had before I left.
He looks carefree now and doesn't seem to be too worried. Suddenly, when I come back now, I may face many great dangers and a crisis.
And he looked at the window with a very profound look, as if he was looking at the best years of his youth.
"Old man, can you tell me about my mother? I never knew my mother. I don't even have a photo of her. I don't know what happened to my mother and the others back then. Is it possible?
Tell me what my mother was like when she was young..."
I'm a little timid, a little scared, and I'm afraid of touching the most sensitive things deep in my heart.
I'm afraid that my whole spirit will suffer a huge collapse. I'm afraid that I won't have the courage to face the abjection and prosperity that I have experienced for so many years.
"Actually, Jiujiu, your mother was really beautiful back then. She was a very beautiful princess. She was the youngest brother in Prince An's palace and the most beloved brother. She was very talented and intelligent, and she was well-read in poetry and books. She and I used to
It is a friendship between classmates. When we were bleeding together in the UK, when I first saw your mother, her graceful appearance really fascinated me deeply. I have never seen such a charming person.
I have never seen a girl who is so bold and bold. This has subverted my understanding of girls."
His expression was still immersed in the past. When he looked at me, it seemed that he was not looking at me at all. He seemed to be looking for a shadow of my mother through one of my outlines. When I saw the hazy look on his face, I knew he was
Maybe she looks at me like a mother under certain circumstances.
"Jiujiu, your mother is a very open-minded person, and she has a deep sense of patriotism. Many people who went abroad were uncertain about coming back, but your mother came back as always. She can actually have a very good life.
A kind of life. When you were in the UK, you had many villas and a lot of wealth. There shouldn't be any problems. But your mother came back resolutely and said that she would bear the national disaster together."
The old man seemed to be slowly explaining his youthful past.
I didn't say a word, but I knew that this was the best time for the old man. He was immersed in the past and how happy it was for him.
So much so that I didn't even turn on the lights in the whole room. I lit a faint candle.
I hope that this feeling will allow him to regain the hazy emotions he had back then, so that he can at least survive the few months or short time before he is about to pass away.
He maintains a kind of warmth, a kind of joy, a kind of happiness. I hope his heart and soul are at peace.
"We were all so young at that time. Nalan and I were among the first batch of students sent abroad to study. I studied manufacturing and she studied design. At that time, we all hoped to laugh.
When I return to my motherland, I hope that I can start a vigorous career in China."
"After so many years, Nalan still insists on her dream and still has her own opinion. At that time, she was so young and bright, her smile was so beautiful, and her voice seemed like a very beautiful bell. Do you know? I was then
I am really very stupid. I yearned so much to go to the same table with Nalan to discuss issues together, but I finally felt shy and scared. I don’t know why, but I was so eager to see him.
Nalan.”
"One day I finally mustered up the courage to confess my love to Nalan. I know that I was very happy that day. The sun was very sunny that day. It was an autumn weather with a lot of wind and rain, which made the whole garden so romantic..."
"I was the happiest man in the world that day because Nalan had agreed to my pursuit. I thought it was a super happy and wonderful thing at the time, but..."
"We fell in love with each other for a year. It was the happiest time in my life, but why did a telegram suddenly send Nalan directly to return to China?"
"We didn't even have time to talk about this matter slowly. It's not worth remembering to say goodbye. Nalan hurried back to the country behind his back. I was completely crazy at the time. I didn't know where to find him.
She, I don’t know where to meet her, I don’t know why she returned to China, I felt deeply depressed for a period of time, I felt that my life was completely in a state of depression.
A situation of collapse..."
"Later I couldn't wait any longer. I wanted to go back to my country, but I couldn't because my visa didn't allow me to go back. I was crazy at the time. I lived like a year and slept for a long time every day. I missed her crazily.
I was afraid of what these things would do to me and her. When I was helpless, I couldn't sleep at night. My hair grew very long, but I didn't pay attention to it at all. I was completely exhausted at that time.
It has reached a point of insanity..."
When the old man was discussing this matter, he seemed to be looking at me in an old time, as if he was slowly immersed in the past.
Now I finally feel that the old man has aged so much that his entire mental state has become so intense that sometimes there is no way for him to support him in telling a complete story.
He is constantly switching between reality and fantasy.
Only then did I realize that his condition was now very serious, and that's when I fully understood it.
Just now, Mr. John had no chance to tell the old man's condition in front of the old man, so he asked us to spend more time with him in his last days.
Only then did I realize that the old man’s time was really running out.
What shocked me was that the old man and my mother were once such sweet and infatuated lovers, but why did they break up now? What is the relationship between my father and the old man?
I don’t know, I feel a little shocked in my heart!
When I wanted to ask further, the old man was suffering from various physical problems and could not support him in telling the story completely. He closed his eyes and talked more and more, and gradually fell asleep.
Seeing him sleeping peacefully, I knew I shouldn't disturb or wake him up, so I gently placed his bedding directly on him.
Blow out the candle, close the door, and leave. (To be continued)