Mr. John has already told me the final answer, which also means that all of this has reached the final and most critical moment.
So whether Jintang comes back or doesn't come back, he can't change everything in front of him. I believe he must have left under extremely painful circumstances that he couldn't bear. What else can I do with this kind of thing?
I couldn't make any more judgments, I knew I had to bear all the suffering.
"I know Miss Cat, this is a lot of pressure for you, but I hope you can give the old man the best future for him. An An thinks about it and Jintang may not have time to come back after leaving here. But you have to think
Under the current circumstances, how to let the old man spend his best last days safely may be a matter of this day and tomorrow. The old man is already on his deathbed..."
When Mr. John finished saying this, I had to admit and accept this fact. How else could I say this.
This thing has reached a point where I have no choice but to face it. I once thought that I was an omnipotent person.
I used to think that life was just four games, and I used to think that all the illnesses of life and death were just the memories of one person.
But sometimes I am really in pain. When I lost my dear brother Gui, I felt that it would take a long time to heal. But now I have lost my dearest old man again.
This kind of wound pierced my heart as hard as a knife.
I wiped away my tears, and I knew that even if I couldn't face it, there was nothing I could do to save myself. Everyone has his own destiny. In this destiny process, do you go with the flow or go against the flow?
Mr. John continued to comfort me, maybe he was worried that I had a lot of concerns about this, a worry that was very sad.
"Miss, this matter has come to an end. I will accompany the old man today and tomorrow. I know that when the old man left, he asked me to recite sutras for him in his last moments. As an old friend of his, I
I hope to see the old man think about leaving here safely. After so many years, the old man really deserves a good rest..."
He paused, looked at me and then added.
"There is another very important thing. The old man himself has a physical problem, so at the end, he once begged me, hoping that I could make a special medicine for him. He also said that he hoped to be in a pain-free environment.
I went straight to heaven, and I had already agreed to the old man’s request. At the last moment, I really couldn’t bear to watch the old man suffer from the pain, and this medicine was supposed to be injected tonight, about 36 hours later.
Slowly disappearing, vital signs, I need to tell you about this, and I also told Na Jintang..."
I looked at him, and I knew that all of this seemed to be planning something, as if everything was like a complete plan, going step by step. We thought of the old man's last curtain call in his life.
I will arrange the most perfect session for myself.
I'm still not sure about this. Once I don't want to believe the truth of this matter, I don't even think about this kind of thing for this old man, why he pushed for his own death so cruelly.
"So Miss Cat, your return today is relatively sudden and timely. Before I fully inject this medicine, I hope you will have a good communication with the old man. Is there anything you haven't finished talking about?"
Or is there anything else that has been explained? I hope you can finish it as soon as possible today, because the old man is holding on, and the torture of illness is very stressful for him. This is not something ordinary people can bear. This is
Bone headaches make people feel heart-wrenching.”
I watched Mr. John describe this matter very calmly, so calm that it made people feel very cold, but I also know that in this world we cannot help but do this, just call it cold.
But you have to endure a greater kind of torture than others. Well, if I had the status of the old man and was in the same situation, I think it would be better to let others stab me with a knife.
I will not accept that kind of cowardly sloppiness at the end.
In other words, at the end, the speechless, speechless, tortured state of the disease, the helplessness and horror that has gone beyond the extreme of human pain.
And that kind of pain will even make you change in the end, even if you are an emperor or a superior person, and you will lose a lot of dignity because of those illnesses. The old man does not want him to be in such a situation. Of course, if it were me, I would
I also don’t want myself to be embarrassed like this.
Seeing Mr. John's calmness, I was sure that this matter was true.
"So, does Mr. John know that Jintang has already agreed to the implementation of this plan? Does the old man decide on this unified plan after the two people have communicated about it?"
Mr. John nodded calmly to confirm my question.
"Yes, we were there on the night you left. Because the matter was sudden and urgent, I was called to the villa that night. The three of us sat down together and finalized the plan in only 10 minutes. Mr.
Put it forward, Na Jintang nodded in agreement, I will carry out this matter, all three parties have agreed, and before leaving, Na Jintang repeatedly asked me not to let the old man suffer any pain, and to let the old man live in peace in the end.
Don’t feel any pain and confusion when leaving, if it is the last resort.”
I was trembling, I was trembling and I didn't know what my words were saying again. I curled up tightly on the sofa like a little fur ball, watching in fear.
It seems that I have been exposed to the coldness of death.
"Yes, today and tomorrow are the high incidence periods for the old man's illness. From last night, he has already fallen into a drowsy sleep, and there is a kind of fantasy that appears all the time, and the time state of sleep is different from the real time state.
It's been longer, then this situation is a sign for you. The old man's eyes have begun to turn red. This is a peak period of complications. If we don't want the old man to suffer a lot in this world, we will start doing things tonight.
, this is about tomorrow night, the old man may really say goodbye to us. If you have anything to do tonight, try to communicate with the old man as much as possible. I will come over to do things tomorrow morning. "
Mr. John looked at me.
I looked at him too.
The two of us have not spoken for a long time, but many things have been expressed in a thousand words, and there are many things that have not been expressed in any language. I know that I am about to say goodbye to the old man, and the old man is about to leave us forever. This is
His life, this is his hope, this is the last glimpse of his journey...
Why is life so hard? Why? When the prosperity is gone, the important thing is to leave in such a hurry step by step!
I didn't turn on the light in the darkness. I curled up in the darkness. I didn't know what to think. My mind went blank. I bit my lips tightly with my fingers and bit them hard with my feet. It was very painful.
It hurts so much,
There is no pain at all, because my heart is not filled with infinite sadness, ah...
That's when he looked at me, gently closed the door and left. I knew he gave me a buffer of time and allowed me to better digest my emotions during this time. I am very grateful to him for giving me this place where I can be alone.
Stay together, because I have long been unable to express the pain, I am like a child, crying loudly, I cry so loudly!
I can't, I can't accept, I really can't accept, but I have no choice, this is life and fate, but I have to accept it.
I don’t know how long I stayed in the dark. I just kept looking out the window. The window gradually became dark, and everything was shrouded in darkness. I was like a little match girl, huddled tightly here.
In the dark.
No one can help me, no one can help my old man, no one can help my old man, he is leaving me, leaving me forever!
I cried silently and screamed in my heart. I seemed to shout loudly at the window. I wanted to scream heartbreakingly, but I couldn't. I could only suppress the pain in my heart and quietly
Touch your own wounds!
After a long, long time, it was really dark for you. I was still sitting so lonely, wiping away my tears. Maybe there were really not 24 hours left with the old man. In the long life, so many
Every point is lost, from now on I have to say goodbye to the old man...
Wiped away his tears.
I went to the bathroom and washed my face. Looking at my face that was red and swollen from crying, I said to myself, laugh, smile happily, don’t put any burden on the old man’s heart, and let him give him a very happy smile.
Smile, he will definitely want to see my smile.
My face was still so red and swollen, so I slapped myself hard and quickly stopped crying. What are you doing? Why are you wasting this unnecessary time on crying?
You will have time to cry at night in the future, but now you have to accompany the old man.
I stood up with difficulty, smiled at myself, opened the door of the room and walked towards the old man. I saw that the old man was still asleep. He seemed to be looking at my arrival in a daze. I looked at him as if I was watching.
Back then, I was just like him with my mother.
I don't know why I feel such a deep affection for him, and I even regard him as my father.
Because he and my mother had a vigorous love affair back then, and that melancholy love made me burst into tears.
At this time, the old man woke up. He looked at me and I looked at him. He smiled and so did I. I didn't know how he felt.
But I must hold back, I don’t want to show any crying feeling in front of him, I don’t want to pinch my thighs, I must hide all the tears.