When I got home, the lights were dim, and every red light seemed to tell a different story.
Na Jintang helped Mr. Wang into the room. After a day of playing, Mr. Wang seemed a little tired. The years had revealed too many vicissitudes and traces on him. He was no longer the young Mr. Wang, nor the young Mr. Wang.
Then there is Mr. Wang, who holds the power of life and death. He is just a kind-hearted old man in his seventies.
Mr. Wang fell asleep quickly, and Najintang closed the door with peace of mind.
I was waiting for Na Jin in the garden, because I wanted to have a good chat with him about many things, including everything I saw and heard today and some things I couldn't understand. Everything that happened today
All very weird.
Na Jintang came over in a hurry, with a tired look on his face, because it was a full day of work today, and the company's affairs had completely taken up all of it, and he still had to spend some of his energy on some household matters with us.
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I saw his haggard heart, and sometimes I couldn't disturb him and ask him to put in more effort for me.
Na Jintang stepped forward, hugged me in his arms, stroked my hair, and said softly: "To thank you for bringing my father to so many places today, he had a very happy day. He rarely smiles like this."
It’s a very festive thing for him and for us that he smiles like this. He hasn’t shown his heart like this for a long time. He hasn’t gone out like this for a long time sincerely. Thank you, Mao Jiujiu.
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I smiled and answered him: "I was too willful today. I told you that Xiao Ma Niu and my bodyguard brothers could take good care of the old man. I was overthinking it. If something dangerous happened at that time, I would really
I don’t know how to deal with it. It was a very willful thing today. I will think more comprehensively in the future and stop thinking about this matter so simply." Of course, I felt a little guilty.
"We are all a family. You and the old man are both the first people in my mind. When the people below told me that both of you were not at home and there was no news, you don't know how anxious I was.
How worried I am about where you will go. I know you are worried that you will be kidnapped. This uneasy feeling can only be relaxed after I see you. I can't stand the fact that you have no news for the time being. I am really scared."
When he could only finish these words, he held me tightly in his arms. I could feel his uneasiness and the pain that penetrated his bones.
I hugged his waist tightly, feeling a little lonely and uneasy: "Do you think the person I saw today could be Gui Fengqi? She looks really similar. They are exactly the same."
Na Jintang had a trace of uncertainty: "Are you sure that person is her? After so much time, a person has changed a lot after 5 years. But I didn't see the person just now. If I let
After I see it, I might feel it."
Actually, it wasn’t me. I can’t be sure what I felt at that time: “Yes, and I didn’t see her true face, so next I want to further find out what the boss’s background is and whether he will
It seems that the legendary human trafficker is no longer possible. How could he suddenly come to our orphanage at that time? He disappeared from the orphanage at that time during the recovery period? All this feels incredible, and I still can’t understand it.
The solution."
Na Jintang nodded thoughtfully.
I suddenly struggled away from him because there was a question I was very curious about and wanted to ask him but never seriously asked him. I didn't expect so much at the time, but now everything seems to be connected together.
I am now realizing that the guilt in my heart is something that I cannot face. That guilt has been blocking my heart like a fog. How much I long to be there in their arms to tell him. His arms are safe and
The warmth and laughter of him keep me clear-headed about everything.
When I said this, I could not only see his eyes, but also want to get some answers and affirmations from his eyes: "When you came to the State Department to find us, did you really pass by there? Look.
We are very lucky to have met you in the fire every day. If you had not been there in the fire, then everything in us would have died."
"Well." He didn't say another word and answered me casually, "Tell me more about the situation at that time."
"Because the weather was very hot, we went hunting in the mountains. When we came back, a group of people appeared in our orphanage. My whole face was covered. Specifically, everyone was holding a bow and arrow and a long sword.
Knife. But Guifengqi had disappeared long before we came back, and we only found a pair of her shoes." I felt uncomfortable saying this, and I couldn't help but want to cry.
So I really started crying, because he was comforting me, and I felt a sense of security in his arms, and I was crying so hard that I couldn't control my emotions. This kind of thing makes me still...
Feeling very guilty.
Na Jintang took out a handkerchief from his pocket and said in a naughty tone: "Wash the snot out of your nose quickly. You will soon become a little girl with a snotty nose. Speak slowly, don't worry, I'm listening."
"
With his comfort, the guilt I had accumulated in my heart for so many years suddenly collapsed: "I really didn't mean it. I don't know how hungry we were during the night and we had to fight for three meals a day."
, often without anything to eat for two or three days. Everyone was as thin as a monkey, and I was the only one left in the orphanage to lead them. I was only 16 years old at the time, what do you want?
There is nothing, what can I do, I can't do anything at all. And these guys just look at me with pitiful eyes every day, as if I am an omnipotent person. In fact, I was very scared at the time. When I discovered the truth of this
When I was online, I often couldn't sleep at night. In order to manage them well and for everyone to unite to fight against this snow disaster, if any one of us collapsed, then we would be completely wiped out by this snow disaster.
.There is no way, no retreat.”
I was crying and sniffling, and he was right next to me wiping my tears, looking at me very tenderly, and with encouraging eyes, he asked me to express the most depressing things in my heart.
I liked me very much at this time, and I didn't know whether to give it to me. I told him the darkest side of my heart, because I was afraid that he would look down on me once I told him.
I never had the courage to say what I wanted to say.
But his words aroused my courage: "Hunger combined with natural disasters is a very terrible thing. And you were so young at that time. There was no one to take you out of the snowstorm. No one could help you out of the snowstorm at that time."
, what you show cannot be fearless, it is more often the most selfish side of people, which is in line with human nature and is okay."
I suddenly looked up at him, confused, and asked him with confused eyes: "Is it true? Is it really like this? Were all people selfish at that time?"
Na Jintang said with a smile: "At that time, you were just like children. You had not made a decision about adult behavior at all. It is very good to be able to do that. You know that during the war, what you heard and thought was different from what you heard and thought."
There are more cruel and selfish things, and not caring about what you think is just a mediocrity. My sister, what you did at that time should be a brave man, a courageous little girl."
Listening to him talk like this, I hope I really believe the theory of the brave man he said.
He continued to look at me with encouraging eyes.
I hesitated for a moment, and decided to let go of what was in my heart. This had been suppressing me for too many years, and the more depressed mood was just a mental illness that I couldn't let go of: "Is that what I really shouldn't do? I know that.
It's not easy for everyone. We have reached our physical limits. But in order to survive, I want to treat them like animals and let them work. They don't want to do it, and I really want to beat them with a whip.
One night Guifengqi said she wanted to come to Shanghai. I was very angry at the time and slapped her hard. Yes, she was inciting others to disrupt the team. I was really cruel at that time and slapped her hard.
He fell straight to the ground after being beaten."
I said this sentence in one breath, and I felt that you were so relaxed. These words had been suppressed in my heart for too long. It was like a big mountain, weighing me down and out of breath. I quickly and hard
After saying this, I said the following sentence: "What I was thinking at the time was this: Let her go. In the future, we will have one less person to eat here, and we won't have to bear so much burden. Everyone can eat more. I was still thinking at that time
There are some calculations like this.”
Na Jintang just looked at me quietly, with a trace of ripples in his eyes, as if I was telling an ordinary story. His appearance gave me great confidence: "Really, I
That's what I was thinking at the time. I thought that if he left, we would have one more person to eat. I really hoped that she would leave as fast as possible. It would be best if she could disappear in front of my eyes immediately. I also thought to myself
, Amitabha, Tathagata Bodhisattva, etc. They asked me if I was too selfish, and if it was because of my selfishness that she suffered these hardships!"
I hurriedly grabbed Na Jintang's sleeves. My expression was very exciting. I hoped he could understand my unspoken pain. My mood was completely like that of a person who was exposed in broad daylight.
As a clown in the world, I was even a little embarrassed to look up at him. I didn't know how he would view me like this.
Na Jintang stroked me and joked: "This is just an ordinary thing. You are a very brave little girl. Do you know? If many people were in your situation at that time, they might not have the courage to live at all.
, let alone carrying so many brothers, they were all thinking about how they could escape successfully, trying every possible way to survive. People were selfish at that time, you must just think, but you didn't
If you do this, my brave little girl, let Xiao Ma Liu and the others be so obedient to you, and treat you as the big cat in their eyes?"
I raised my tear-stained face and asked him with no confusion on my face: "Isn't it because my fists are more powerful than theirs?"
When Na Jintang heard what I said, he couldn't help but raised his head and laughed. He was laughing like crazy. Looking at his smile, I was a little angry. I wanted to hit him with my fist for daring to be so bold.
You are making fun of me.
He slowly stroked my hair and said hurriedly: "Oh, my cat Jiujiu, you are really my little cutie. If they are afraid of your fists, don't they think they can beat you alone?"
Will several people all go into battle to beat you? No, this is not the final reason."
"Then what's their reason?"
"Think about it more carefully."
"Because I've given them enough benefits?"
"This is just a part, this is not the most important part."
"Because I'm as beautiful as a flower? A flower that can captivate a city or a country? A flower that sinks fish and flies away?"
Na Jintang laughed like a tsunami again. Seeing him laughing so leisurely and contentedly, I suddenly felt angry and wanted to stretch out my claws and scratch his eyes out.
He gasped while laughing and said: "My brave little girl, you are really as beautiful as a flower. This is one of the key points. It cannot be denied that this is true. Keep guessing. The content to be guessed is getting closer.
the truth."
I was quite smug: "It must be because of my intelligence, talent, boldness, and daring. They followed me around, eating and drinking. If I gave them a mouthful of rice, they would have a mouthful of soup. Of course they want to get something for nothing."
They don't even think about the method. If it weren't for my cat Jiujiu, they would have starved to death in the orphanage, let alone think about their current life. You said that they are lucky that he obeys me. This is the biggest benefit.
Point 1. Look at that pig head three, didn’t I raise him to be fat and white? Didn’t the little horse six laugh and laugh every day? Not to mention the oil chicken and the five donkeys, a person is not only stupid, but also stupid.
Their mouths are stupid and their actions are stupid. Giving them a mouthful of food means they are lucky. The most pitiful thing is Niu Ba. With his pig head, I dare not say that he will not be able to walk to Shanghai~Hai, otherwise all of them are
I lead them, and it is impossible for them to get out of that mountain. For here, they must all obey me. I mean must, which means absolutely. Recently, they have not dared to say no.
If not, let me beat them with my fists!"
Na Jintang laughed so much that tears fell down, and I wanted to beat him up a little bit. I don’t know, but in front of such a powerful person, he was just trying to do whatever he wants. Having the ability to escape is one of my survival abilities. Unless it’s a last resort,
I will never anger him.
His laughter finally stopped, and he took me into his arms. I said very gently, and my tone felt very sincere: "You know? Cat Jiujiu, you have a very valuable quality. You are not afraid of anything."