Chapter 44 has a fresh start - I will never return
The radish was old and hard. I had been emptying it for a long time, and my stomach was so angry that it immediately turned upside down. My mouth was numb and bitter. I had no choice but to lie down on the hard bone-like earth and began to vomit weakly.
The faint smell of rotting meat came from the hut, which made me more and more unbearable. I simply refused to curb this feeling and continued to vomit. I saw the hut and trees spinning rapidly around me. I remained motionless.
He lay on the ground for an unknown amount of time, with his face buried in the soil, his back bearing the attack of ice and snow, and his whole body motionless.
I lay on the ground, unable to fight off the siege of memories and melancholy. They were like a flock of vultures circling above her, waiting to feast on a dead body. She no longer had the strength to say: "There is a huge mess in the yard, all of it will be put away."
I’ll think about it later—when I can stand it.”
I looked around in exhaustion, and Er Gouzi and Niu Ba were not much better than me: Er Gouzi was lying in the soil, his head almost buried in the soil, I heard a kind of rapid sound that a pig can make when eating, and his face was between
Between being livid and pale, he was probably thinking about whether to vomit out what he had gained so easily. But obviously not, he just dug out the earthworms that were still wriggling in the soil. He was already hungry and swallowed them, but he vomited them out.
After drinking the water, he cried: "Mao Da, I ate an earthworm! I'm going to die!"
Niu Ba obviously choked on the rotten red potatoes and his throat changed. He stared hard and started to burp one after another.
I stared at this deserted area and looked into the future. It was dark and ominous. When I stood up, I held my head high. Fate has always made faces with me. Destiny makes me cry, but I insist on laughing!
This situation now is at least many times better than being abused since I was a child. It couldn't defeat me then, and it's even more unthinkable now! I have made up my mind and sketched out a blueprint for my life.
There is no way back, I can only move forward.
My cat, Jiujiu, will not let myself look into the future with a miserable expression in my eyes, nor will I let myself endure the fate of others controlling me. Everything in the past has disappeared, and everything today has begun anew - I will never look back!
I shouted loudly in my heart: God is my witness, no disaster can bring me down. I will hold on, and when I get through this, I will never suffer from hunger again. I will never let those bastards suffer again.
Hungry. Even if I have to steal or kill people - please God be my witness, I will no longer suffer from hunger no matter what!
Ergouzi slowly put some living withered cabbage into the basket. The orphanage will have a full meal tonight, at least he will not starve again.
Hungry irritated my stomach again, and I walked towards another hut. Ergouzi and Niuba followed me with baskets in hand.
It's getting dark, and the three of us can't sleep alone in the wilderness, it means death.
A sharp-pointed stone punctured the blister on my foot, which made me cry out in pain. Ergouzi asked me with concern: "Mao Da, let's go back. If we go any further, we may encounter ghosts."
"Er Gouzi, if you bark again, I will turn you into a ghost first," I said, limping up from the ground. I had no intention of arguing with him.
We came to an empty courtyard. We looked through the increasingly dense twilight haze between the two rows of trees. It was dark everywhere. No matter whether it was the main house or the shed, there was no light at all. I was in the dark.
I did my best to investigate, and finally discovered that this was a private house. There were several freak-like scarecrows hanging on the walls of the courtyard. Maybe the owner used them to ward off evil spirits before leaving. Anyway, the two black eyes looked like blind people.
Dead and motionless eyes.
"Is there anyone there!" I yelled with all my strength, "Is there anyone there!"
Ergouzi, who was so frightened that he was out of his wits, hurriedly grabbed me. When I looked back, I saw his two eyes rolling up.
"Stop shouting, Maoda, stop shouting," he whispered, his voice trembling. "God knows what the answer will be!"
"Ah -" Niu Ba let out a low-pitched scream at the right time, and goosebumps suddenly appeared all over the three of us. I thought: "Oh my God, Er Gouzi is right, anything can come out of there."
Why would I do such a thing? It would be better to starve to death in an orphanage.
My nerves were like a taut string. When there was a sudden noise in the empty room, the string almost broke. Ergouzi screamed and fell to the ground all of a sudden, while Niuba covered his eyes and shivered, frightened.
We couldn't even shout. After a while, a heavy cry came from the room again, followed by a low and desolate roar that rushed straight into our ears. A strong smell of blood filled the fresh air.
grow up.
I suppressed my panic and calmed down to listen to the source of the sound.
My voice had become hoarse due to panic, and I guessed: "It seems to be the sound of an animal."
"That's a ghost," Ergouzi sobbed, still lying on the ground and twisting nervously. Niu Bakong took out his other hand and grabbed my arm and said quietly: "We'd better not go in, I'd rather be hungry
I don’t want to be scared to death by ghosts.”
In fact, I thought so too, but when Niu Ba said these words, I became furious and threw Niu Ba's hand away from me.
"Don't be so crazy, Ergouzi, you scared us all to death." I yelled at him in a hoarse voice and kicked his raised buttocks. We were really hungry and now we were very fragile due to panic.
So that we cannot tolerate the vulnerability of others.
I said: "Come with me and see, you idiot, if you don't get up, just stay here alone."
Ergouzi raised his head with a sad face, and Niuba also opened his eyes and looked outside. They followed me into the house like cowards. Sure enough, they saw an injured wolf. There were obviously bloody wounds on his front and back legs, and a huge wound was being cut on them.
It was caught on an iron hook. It apparently fell into the iron hook specially designed by the owner of the house to embed foxes and the like. It was obviously seriously injured. Not only could it not stand up with its hind limbs, but it also began to vomit blood.
Although it couldn't move, it didn't affect its teeth. It had chipped teeth, its blue eyes were staring at us, its wolf eyes were bulging, and blood spurted out from its mouth, turning a large piece of white snow in front of it red.
It let out a sad and long howl, "Ugh - yo -" and the ending sound was very long, with trills and short pauses.
I shivered involuntarily and wrapped my clothes tightly, but I still felt the cold sound that seemed to seep out from the cracks in the ice, penetrated the cotton clothes, penetrated the skin, passed from the top of the head through the back, and penetrated to the tailbone.
Er Gouzi and Niu Ba picked me up with lightning speed and ran out of the yard. They jumped up the tree as fast as possible and huddled in the tree to discuss:
"Is it injured and caught in the iron pliers?"
"Wolves can bite, let's go quickly."
"Idiot, didn't you see it was hooked? We have to take it away," I immediately made a quick decision, "so that we won't starve to death. Wu Donkey needs to eat meat to replenish his body."
"How can we take the wolf away? Cat, we can't subdue it. Although it was seriously injured, we can't defeat it." Niu Ba said.
Ergouzi quickly echoed: "When I see a wolf, I feel very angry. I am as big as a cat. I have never dealt with a wolf. I would rather starve to death than be bitten to death."
Niu Ba added: "It's getting dark, and the wolves in the darkness are the most ferocious."
"Come down here." I moved my stiff body and ran down from the tree. Every movement caused my muscles to ache. It was not just Ergouzi and Niuba who saw the wolf "hairy". I have always been afraid of them too.
This kind of ferocious wolf is staring at us with ulterior motives. But now is not the time to give in to this kind of fear, because the real fear of the world is thickly accumulated above our heads like black clouds.
The weather is going to change, we must rush back to the courtyard as soon as possible.
If we weren't so hungry that we were at the end of our rope, we wouldn't have provoked the wolf!
For a wolf who loves darkness, all the vitality in his body will burst out at night; for a wolf who loves fighting, at night, all his bloodthirsty impulses will be released.
But we have to live!
Er Gouzi and Niu Ba rolled their eyes desperately, first looking at each other, then at my expressionless face, and then at the room that was already like a trapped animal, mooing like a wolf. It seemed that I was the most dangerous of the two.
It was smaller, so they held on to the tree stump firmly and stayed in place.
"You're all trash! Come down! Or I'll drag you down! Don't blame me then, I'll leave you two alone and let you two hang out in the dark, hurry up!" I was too hungry to get angry.
, he picked up a kitchen knife, picked up a wooden stick about 10 meters long from the woodshed, used the knife to trim one end of the stick into a sharp angle, and entered the diameter into the house.
The two people outside the house couldn't help sobbing, as if the wolf would stretch out its claws to eat them as soon as they came out of the tree. The two brothers slowly slid down the tree, and Niu Ba grabbed Er Gouzi's hand and held it to him.
Running around me, sobbing constantly. For these two scared people, I have no pity in my heart, only boredom. Why not ask Brother Gui to come with me? These two cowards can't help at all and are of no use at all.
Always having other people worry about you, always getting in your way.
They picked up stones from the ground, followed me a few steps while seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages, keeping alert and ready to rebel again at any time.
The wolf in the house was obviously seriously injured. It was still breathing, its chest was rising and falling, and it was making unclear sounds in its throat.
I asked these two cowards and I to surround the wolf and maintain a triangular formation. The three of us used different wooden sticks to hit the wolf's head from a distance, but the wolf was so ferocious that even if he was in trouble, he would still
It burst out with an astonishing desire to survive. It kept shaking its body from side to side, jumping up and down with its teeth and claws bared, and the iron chain rattled continuously. It kept rushing towards us and biting us, wanting to break the chain.