Everything, everything is like a dream, I keep turning over the choices in my mind, and keep thinking of many things that have happened in the past, and this past is filtering through my mind like a movie,
Let me have a feeling that I can't put into words.
In fact, this matter has been going on for so many years, but I still can't forget them during this process, and it is still vivid in the depths of my mind, remembering it all.
I remember that we were still very young when we were in the orphanage. I was probably less than 16 years old at the time. Because we have experienced a lot of ups and downs in the years, or in other words, in terms of the pressure of the years, we matured relatively early, but not
It means we will understand more things.
At this time, all our environment and all our atmosphere are completely stuck in an orphanage, so there is no way to get more things, or there is no way to contact the outside world.
, the outside world is completely blank to us.
So we simply think that the outside world cannot exist. You can't imagine many things that have constrained all our imaginations, and we don't have any meaningful time to imagine the outside world.
I don’t have the ability, I don’t have the ability to do this, so there is no way to do it. We only believe that we can solve the things in front of us now, which is the most important thing for us, whether we can eat enough today and whether we can still eat well tomorrow.
If you can survive, will you be able to continue the day after tomorrow?
is what we have to consider, so let us consider things more directly and consider more things, not just the things in front of us, and do it so simply, so for us, how do we solve it?
, how to deal with it and how to prepare for it are the most important things. If in this link, if there is no way to ease the communication on this matter, then you really have no way to do more things.
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So I once thought about the life experience when we went to look for crows together in Jintang.
His life experience is a very interesting life experience for me, or that experience is a kind of unknown to us, it is a lot of dialysis, and it is more of a joy of life.
, or that there are more possibilities for this joy of life.
You can imagine how you will understand it during this process. I mean, how will you penetrate it, or how will you make it become a part of your life?
I can't imagine this process even if I know it, but I know that this process is really difficult for me. I hope that I can persist in this process and use my own strength and my own words and deeds.
, use your own benchmark to hold yourself accountable, have more restraint, and have too much courage. I hope that in the process, I can do more free and impactful things.
Remember that night when we actually went looking for crows.
I remember that scene very clearly. When I went looking for that pillow with me and arrived at the big banyan tree, there was no such thing as a crow at that time. There was no such concept at all. It was completely different and unimaginable.
Yes, because of generally earth-shaking things.
The relocation of my film completely makes you think that this matter has been subverted.
Can you imagine what we were like at that time? We had reached the top of the cloud and actually saw the so-called Nalan Pearl?
Who is Nalan Pearl?
Why that night.
The old man and Jintang seemed to be familiar people. Why did they go to such a place? And now that I think about it, why did they let the two of them fight?
And why were they so curious about themselves at that time, had such an unpredictable feeling about themselves, and even felt a sense of danger, but they really didn't feel that they would have a fatal lethality on themselves?
Maybe this process is not clear to me, because the whole process is just like a commonly used drama. I don’t know what role I play in it, and I don’t know what I will be like in this process.
existence, but I know that if this thing didn't happen to me, they might be better, maybe there would be more things.
Nalan Mingzhu seems to be very curious about me and seems to know me very well. He seems to know what I look like. Although he looks fierce, he is so gentle.
He even blessed me in a very kind way. I felt so strange, how could that happen? I had never thought of this in all these years.
We seemed to be running away wildly that day, and they carried out a very large pursuit of us, but I didn't expect why their attack was supposedly very uneven, and their number was relatively large.
It's totally something we can win.
Now I suddenly think of it, it seems that they are not trying to kill us, it seems that they are trying to expel us, or it is just a representation, or a phenomenon.
And all in all, although the situation at that time was critical and dangerous, I am sure that we should not encounter any danger in the process anyway.
What would my situation be like, and what kind of situations might it cause?
What kind of crows are crows? What’s the relationship with them? Are they crows? Maybe it’s not like what I always thought was a little mysterious and a little impossible.
Maybe there are too many mysteries in this process, maybe there are too many questions in this process, but I feel that no matter how to ask or how to understand at this time, I can't find out more.
But the most puzzling question is.
Why did a huge fire suddenly appear on the mountain when we were leaving that day, and it seemed that the fire was not sudden at all, but was completely man-made.
And the most important thing is that after the fire broke out, there was no feeling that the people on the mountain were trying to escape, because at that time, from the bottom of the mountain, it seemed that no one had slipped down from the bottom of the mountain.
If you look at it from a distance, it seems like a natural fire, and it doesn't seem to pose any threat to anything.
Who would have thought that there are actually dozens or hundreds of people in that game, and there are some random people living there.
Why did the fire suddenly start the moment we left again, and where did those dozens or hundreds of people go? Did they disappear during the fire?
Where did that Nalan Pearl go?
It really makes people feel incredible. Now that I think about it, it is completely unreasonable. At that time, I felt that it would be better if I could escape. At that time, I also felt that if I could escape from this matter, maybe I would be a person.
Opportunities, but I never thought that some things would really make me feel scared when I think about them now, just scared.
It might have been better if there had been more analysis on this aspect at that time, but now that I suddenly think about this aspect, I feel that there is really a big problem.
Maybe it’s because I didn’t give myself too much of this kind of thing, it felt like it allowed me to recognize my ancestors, and it felt like I wanted to recognize my relatives. At that time, I really felt that this kind of thing just happened once.
thing.
How could I have anything to do with this? How could I think it was impossible that I might have something to do with some so-called people in the Qing Dynasty?
And everything seems to have this feeling, that is, everyone obviously went together, and I was not the most powerful at that time. The most powerful should be Brother Gui.
Then why did Brother Gui go with him instead of dragging me with him, and he also disliked me being a personal burden to him? What does this mean? This is some kind of convulsive feeling.
I think he must have some idea or some purpose.
You have been asking about this matter in my mind for a long time, because Jintang can be considered an orphan. Although he grew up with the old man, and the old man took him by his side since he was a child, they are not related by blood. Although
They are not related by blood, but their relationship is very good.
I once asked Na Tang about this matter, and Na Tang laughed and laughed. Did he tell me his real family background? So I think this matter is that everyone has self-confidence. Of course, others
I won't talk to you when you want to say such a thing.
Why do you need to trouble yourself to find out for me?
So I never asked about this kind of thing, but I always felt that he had some connection with these so-called leftovers from the Qing Dynasty.
So I think there is an appropriate time to stabilize this kind of thing, because it does not involve any of my personal issues, nor does it involve my personal interests, nor does it affect me, so I think this kind of thing can be stabilized.
Something that everyone can at least guarantee their own privacy.
sense of security.
I actually understood it when I thought about it, so it didn't matter if he spoke frankly. Maybe when we left at the end of that day, he seemed to be kneeling down on the mountain side, and the kneeling seemed to be the feeling of kneeling down to me.
Not only that, but he also pulled me to kneel down, and his attitude and look were very serious, as if he was serious.
I feel a little hesitant to say this today. If you go by the normal situation, other people’s eyes hurt you the most. Logically speaking, you are completely enemies of each other. Enemies are right, so how can you act like enemies and enemies?
He knelt down and kowtowed three times in a very formal manner.
That can only mean one thing, that is, his head was caught in the door that night.
The other one can only mean that he and they do know each other, at least they have a tacit understanding.
I don’t know what to say about this, but I think I might be able to deduce from a certain link that they should be related by blood, or at least they are related. It is impossible to do this.
thing.
But a problem arises. He obviously has such a tacit understanding and a mutual understanding, so why is there another way to introduce and that way to fight?
It seems completely unbelievable. Since they know each other, wouldn't it be better if we all sit down and have a cup of tea and chat.
What kind of hatred has what kind of prejudice, so that there is no way to get a complete release in this situation?
Instead of using this method to constrain the two parties, they must understand each other in this way, and do not use this method to exclude and achieve cooperation with the other party.
Who knows these things? Originally, they could only know the secretive and mysterious things between them. They are just sneaky and crazy. Why do you want to do this kind of thing in front of yourself? Don’t you think this kind of thing is too funny?
Is that so? It’s so funny. It seems like I’ve already seen them. Is it possible that one day I can’t seem to be able to talk about it?
Don't they want to kill people and silence them?
I was extremely speechless to them. I was speechless. Why did I have to use this method to restrain myself? Why did I have to use this method to tell me? Am I just a witness?
In fact, the most important thing is that I am a little confused. When they had a conflict that day, Nalan Mingzhu threw him a letter, and Najintang collected it tightly and put it in this pocket.
This is the most important point. What are those things? Are they worth ten thousand taels of gold?
Dear, I feel as if they are stealing from each other. This kind of thing is simply an insult to me.
It felt like I didn't exist, as if I could keep my mouth shut. At that time, I thought they probably didn't trust me very much.
Who knows this point? It is obviously a matter where both parties can cooperate privately. Why should it be changed? Why should it be made into such a big card game? Why should it be made into such a big deal? This is such a thing.
Feeling bored?
Do you think this method is very rich?
Do you think this kind of thing is cool, dazzling, and awesome?
Oh my god who!
I know what they think, but this thing has nothing to do with me, because I have already obtained a request from them based on this matter.
So I think this matter doesn't matter.
This matter is a complete mess. After so many years, he has not told me a single detail of these things. I have asked about it before, but he never told me. I think he naturally has his own ideas.