But thinking about the years when I was wandering without my parents, my sister told me that how ugly, how wandering, and how painful it was, someone must bear it.
This seems to be the longest thing. Over the years, I really think of my parents every night. I don’t know what they look like, so I feel a kind of paleness that I can’t express.
Of course, this is something deep in my heart. Well, I don’t know who I should talk to you about, and I won’t express it to anyone anymore, but I have always had this kind of hurt in my heart. If I keep filming like this, I will too.
How wonderful it would be for us to return to him one day!
But speaking of these, you will always be brothers who are not like me. They are also children who cannot be found in the State Council. Do you miss your parents as much as I do, and do you think about them in all their ways?
I don’t know, I really don’t know, I don’t know how to think, and I don’t know how to understand. All this is really too difficult for us. If all this happens, if you follow the previous
It may be much better to do it in a normal order, but there is really no way. You will lose money in the process, you will miss a lot of this feeling, you will lose a lot of life, and you will feel that your life is more exciting.
Na Jintang held my hand tightly, and he seemed to have noticed my thoughts.
"Why do you feel so melancholy all of a sudden? Why aren't you very happy today? Can you tell me what happened?"
I laughed: "Actually, I don't know what's going on, because today is really a happy day for me. This day is something that I have been looking forward to for a long time. I am very eager to walk out of this new world with you."
It’s another stage of life, speaking from the bottom of my heart is what I most sincerely desire.”
He raised an eyebrow.
"Then,"
I know his thoughts very well, my every move, my sensitive information, how could he be wrong, his eyes, the thoughts he says, Beijing breakfast good night, all the words in my mind and everything I do.
"I'm telling you, maybe you think it's strange, but this is really a thought deep in my heart. I don't know why I suddenly think of my parents today. On such a particularly happy day, I feel a little bit indifferent.
The sense of loss, of course, is not because of you, but because I am an orphan. I hope my parents can witness my happiest moment today, and how I hope he can receive his blessings..."
"You don't know, I have been an orphan since I was a child. The school has never seen my parents, but it does not mean that our students are not eager to see them. I think I have hated them since I was a child, because why did he
At that time, I wanted to abandon me for me, and even now, sometimes I still have no way to understand and forgive them, but on this special day like today, I actually long for their love..."
"Do I look stupid now? Do I feel that those things are because he abandoned me at the beginning and they didn't let me have my daughter? Now I want to find them again. Do I feel particularly regretful? I don't
I know why, but I always feel that this is something connected by blood. After so many years, I really don’t know if they are still alive? Or they have died. Maybe it is not important to me at all..."
"Tell me, I have some regrets for you. If I could see their appearance, even if it's a photo, even if it's a drawing, even if it's a lie to me, it would be fine.
But really no, I have never felt that I am any different from other children. It is because of this that I can give birth to someone who has never seen me before. I am really very..."
"Forget it, don't bother you anymore. Today is a happy day. But I remember the things that happened 20 years ago, so I don't have to think about my past anymore. Let's get over it. Let's continue to the present. We will grasp it.
The future is the most important, right?"
When I say this, I actually feel quite helpless inside. I don’t know what to say to you. When all these things happen to you, can I not know how I feel? I am an orphan after all.
.
Maybe there was a feeling of loneliness in the corners of my eyes, but Na Jintang hugged me tightly and lightly patted my shoulder.
"Maybe I can help you find some things about your parents. Maybe I can think of a way. If you are willing, can you leave this matter to me? I can only do many things..."
I already knew that what he had done would be done seriously, but after all, this matter had been going on for 20 years and it was impossible for anyone to find any special light. How could you investigate in those days?
In fact, this difficulty is definitely very high. If you think about it, within 20 years, people in the no-man’s land will have any clues. If there are any clues, then when they are living their lives, all those women who know me will have already
Died.
And the fire had already burned down the orphanage.
All the traces no longer exist. At this time, if you want to find a person's files or traces of a person, it is simply impossible. There is no coefficient at all, which means how can these situations happen?
None of these things can happen, and finally trying to find such a thing is like looking for a needle in a haystack.
Hmm, I don't have any hope for these people anymore. Of course, I don't want them to do this, because he still has a lot of things to do, such as the operation of the entire factory. He is already very busy.
It's been a long time since many things happened, and I have been spared time to do more things.
I said: "Don't pay too much attention to this matter. This is just an idea of mine now. It will get better after a while. This has happened for so many years. In fact, I have long been very bearish and feel that this matter has nothing to do with it."
It’s a big deal, so if you don’t spend all this time looking for something, what’s the use even if you find it? It’s just that they have abandoned it for me, and nothing has changed about this matter.”
"If they had something unspeakable back then, they would definitely have left me some letters or some way to commemorate me, but he didn't. He just left me there without any hesitation. Then I
It means that I will not have any importance in their minds at all."
"So there is no importance to him, and there is no one and no space. Do you want to look for it again? Maybe in their eyes, I am just different, a herb..."
so.
That's what I think. You told him so, because there is really no need to look for this thing anymore, just go and it will become a gem.
Na Jintang said: "Don't worry, I know what you think. I won't give up a lot of things because of this matter. When my things come out, I will accompany you back to the park. Maybe I can find something through there."
There are some traces. After so many years, I believe that the brothers also want to go back very much. When I finish handling the matter, I will go back with you."
I was very touched at that time, how important he was to me when he said these words.
Or how important I am to him in this way, so it’s up to him to decide. Now he is trying his best to help me, and he will understand me when he sees me, okay?
I am very grateful for everything he said and did to me. I know that he will help me realize all my wishes and help me consult with all his ideas. This is him. I have really felt his depth.
I was deeply moved by his past.
He hesitated.
"Maomao, I know you will miss your parents. In fact, I do too. Then in this vast sea of people, if we can find some traces of our parents, as long as there are such efforts and such clues, we will all
Go look for it, no matter how he abandoned us in the first place, he is our reborn parent after all. At that time, they should have their origin, and we should not tolerate them. There is not much problem with hair style. I will be busy.
After this period of time, maybe a month later, these things will be on the right track. You will not arrange for others to deal with it. If you don’t give up and leave me, I will accompany you when this factory starts to operate normally.
Go and have a look inside the orphanage."
I really want to cry, I really want to cry. The feeling that I am free really makes me feel very touched. If it weren’t for him, I really don’t know how to go back and deal with it. It’s been so many years.
It is because he has been silently helping me and supporting me, giving me this strong reason.
So at this time, I can only hold her tightly because I don't know how to talk about these things. Let's talk about it after everything is over.
"Okay, I promise you, we will discuss the issue after you have time, but now we have to do a good job in the factory. This is your dream, my dream, and the old man's dream. I hope I can do this."
You must go all out to do good things.”
So there is nothing more important to us. When this matter has reached such an important point in the whole matter, maybe I will slowly adapt to the other person and believe in the other person.
I really think, really, if one day I go back to the orphanage again.
What kind of scene would that be? It must be something very sad, unforgettable, and very regrettable.
…
We were discussing these things very lively on the sidelines. It seemed that the brothers were on the other side. They had begun their final quarrel and they had something clear to themselves.
Yousiji: "I have already decided that if these things are handled by me, I am already dressed very well. Maoda will definitely let me do it because he has always trusted me!"
Pig Head Three: "How is it possible? The best man is very enthusiastic. Cat must have asked us brothers to do it, and my role in it is the most important. Don't you think I am the most handsome among all the brothers?"
?"
Ah Wu Lu: "Because you are really nice, I mean you are so embarrassed, it really makes people feel like I want to beat you up!"
Ergouzi: "You all should stop arguing. It's useless for all of you to continue arguing, because this position belongs to me, because I am the youngest, and I have been favored. The most is definitely me. Who dares to follow me?"