Seeing the anxious look on his face, I was actually very anxious too, because at this time I knew he was worried and I was also afraid that I would lose me, so I understood his emotion, so I nodded to him.
"I know you will be there for everything. Well, I believe there is nothing to be afraid of. Then can we go back to the orphanage normally? Can we go inside directly to have a look, or do we need one of us to go first?
Let’s go ahead and check out the situation?”
"When all the dust settles, let's go see it again. Give me about a month, and we'll go see it within a month, so don't worry too much about these things."
I snuggled into his arms gently. I felt that feeling was very happy. Because of his existence and his ability to take care of everything, I didn’t have to worry too much about everything. I don’t know when, unknowingly,
Now that I am relying on him, it seems that he can solve everything for me. He is my heaven and my earth, and I can live in it without fear.
It seems that his state of mind has not completely recovered at this time. I don't know why he is so unusually excited when talking about the orphanage, or why he has such a kind of fear that leaves no trace.
This made me feel very confused. Of course, I didn’t want to tell him this matter so directly. I was worried about the truth, so I could only ask him again lightly.
"If after we return to the orphanage, many of these things are investigated, I really don't know whether I should re-examine what happened back then, because the problems left by the entire dean for me are really
There are too many, and I really want to go back and have a look again, because these things have been squeezed out in the back of my mind for a long time, and I really want to see the answer."
This is what I think, and of course I say this, because I hope to get his support on this issue, and I believe he will always give me support and answers in this regard.
He just held me tightly, with a strong feeling, as if he was afraid of losing me. I don’t know if it was because my feeling was too real. That’s why I always felt like this, as long as I talked about my wish.
, he always hugs me involuntarily, fearing that I will leave him anytime and anywhere.
Maybe it's my imagination, or maybe it's my wrong intuition.
His eyes were looking deep, very deep and nervous, and a little serious. I don't know why he always has such an expression when he mentions this kind of thing at any time. I am really worried or scared.
"Then Jintang, what's wrong? You always feel scared when you mention marriage. I will have any problems. You don't have to worry. I haven't lived there for more than ten years and there is no problem at all.
, there will be no problem at all when I go back now. I’m just curious about what happened back then. So when a person grows up, he can’t help but think back to many things. You don’t have to worry, don’t think too much about these things, never again.
It may have hurt me, but nothing can hurt me again, so I am no longer that orphan or that child. I have my own thoughts, my own actions and my own decisions.
You really don’t have to worry too much, okay?”
He nodded, but still felt uneasy.
"I mean if, if you find something, something that feels like it's been hidden, or that has been hidden from you for many years, how would you feel?"
Regarding his question, I think I have never thought about this hypothesis. How did I come up with this hypothesis? This hypothesis may exist because the dean has always been neurotic and has always seemed to make some things that make people uncomfortable.
I can't think about it. If there is something hidden, then the dean must have more questions about me.
"If I find something real when I go back, I think it doesn't matter. After all, he already exists. Do I still have to subvert him? Do I still have to find others to take revenge? This is really true to me.
The meaning is not very important, maybe I feel that this kind of thing is really not particularly important to me."
He asked me nervously, "If those things have caused harm to you, and others were unwilling to tell you at the time, but suddenly tell you now, would you feel that this is a kind of deception?"
I lowered my head and thought about his question seriously.
Raising your head, you answered his question seriously.
"In fact, I don't know how to answer this question. If it was a kind of well-intentioned deception at the time, after so many years, maybe it was a kind of intestines, in order to protect myself, then I think this reason may be forgiven, but it is a kind of malicious intent.
The deception has been concealed until now and I don’t think I can forgive it if I don’t say anything, because this kind of thing is actually a complete deception.”
He said something calmly, very softly.
"If I had participated in deceiving you back then, what would have happened to you?"
I was very happy at this time, because I thought he was very interesting, and I felt that it was impossible for him to deceive me. He always showed his feelings to me and never told me anything that I couldn't possibly not know.
"I know that if you want to hide something from me, there must be a reason to hide it. I believe that everything you do is good for me, so no matter what you say or do, I believe this feeling is okay. This is your point
Is it okay to tell me in time like this?"
Na Jintang hugged me tightly, and I always felt why he felt so uneasy.
"You have a lot of secrets, these secrets about the orphanage. I will tell you these things slowly in the future, and I will tell you everything. Don't worry, there are many, many hidden things in it, but some things are really not
It's appropriate to tell you, and I can tell you your things slowly, but you have to give me some time, okay? I will tell you everything I know and understand bit by bit..."
After he said these words, he hugged me tightly and often breathed a sigh of relief. I didn't know what he meant by this, but he had never said such harsh words, and it was very difficult for me to say such harsh words.
Is it some secret that we discussed the first time? Are there really many secrets? Do you want me to know things that you have never known before and slowly tell me?
I am completely impatient at this time.
I looked up at him and looked at him closely. I felt that I wanted to know no matter what at this time. This was really important to me, very, very important. I really felt like I couldn’t see through it at all.
Take this opportunity.
"What secret, what secret of the orphanage? I know there are many secrets there. In fact, I also know that there are too many secrets there. What do you know? Just tell me a little bit. Just tell me a little bit, okay? Otherwise, you can
This really makes me think about it every day and I can’t sleep at night!”
I hugged him very coquettishly. I used that method to get him to tell me something. He knew his secrets. He was a very strict person. If it wasn't what he usually wanted to say, you wouldn't know how to ask him.
Go ahead and tell him, no matter how hard you force him at this moment, he will definitely not say it.
He touched my hair gently.
"My silly girl, but before I tell you all this, we are going to bed now. You see, it is almost 12:00, and we have to go to work tomorrow. Today I will tell you bit by bit,
I'll tell you one day at a time, but you have to believe that no matter what happens, I will always stand by your side and I will always support you, no matter what happens in the past, okay?"
"I'm going to wash up now."
This topic ended like this, and I didn't discuss it completely, but I know he will tell a little bit tonight. This is his personality, this is his charm. As long as he promises what he promised, he will definitely do it.
I won't do anything damaging.
I couldn't wait to say this. I hurriedly did a simple wash and then hurriedly ran to the sofa to lie down and wait for him.
I feel as if I have already lived with him, or have become accustomed to him being by my side, because I can only sleep with him next to me.
Although nothing has happened to us, nothing can happen, because this is a promise and a tacit understanding between us.
I believed that he would not do anything. Now I have gradually developed a trust in him.
He also quickly finished washing up, changed into a clean set of pajamas, and was waiting for me on the sofa.
I quickly crawled into his arms like a kitten. I shed tears. The warm feeling in his arms and even the faint smell of soap made me feel very fresh and like I was at home.
The feeling inside, this feeling makes me feel sleepy.
My overall mental state is very good now, because I am now waiting for him to tell me a story. This must be something he promised me, so I have already laid out the pose.
He hugged me tightly.
Thank you very much for telling me some stories that happened in the past. These things are just like what we have experienced together, as if we are going back to the past together.
"This is what I have heard before, and it is what I have investigated. Of course, I don't know the authenticity of these things, but I can only tell you what I know, but I will not judge you about this matter.
Any concealment, including the fact that you will slowly talk about your life experience in the future, everything including these brothers, "How they came here, maybe I can only make a guess, but I am not completely clear."
When I listened to what he said, it was completely like being responsible for someone else's story. I felt that this matter should be treated as a spectator, rather than looking at it from the perspective of your client. Maybe it would be better to understand this matter.
"This orphanage was actually left by foreigners at that time. Of course, it has something to do with our family. We used to give them a lot of financial support because it is completely green. It is a kind of
An act of charity.”
I couldn't help but interrupt him because I have always been curious about this issue.
"Then why did this orphanage choose such a remote place at that time? Did this place have any requirements for selection? It was completely like my God, it was completely leaning on the other side of the mountain? It's hard to say, it was completely like a place.